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For the last decade or so, Dean had existed with a secondary presence in his mind. A connection. It lived at the base of his skull, just a little glowing pulse. He knew though, before he really even understood, exactly what the presence was; it was Cas. It was his imprint on Dean’s soul. It was their more profound bond. It was everything between them he couldn’t allow himself to think about.
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06 Jun 2026
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Brittle and battle-worn, Cas looks at him over coffee one morning and says, "I need to go," and Dean instantly knows that he's not coming back.
He's not really sure how he knows it, but he does. It settles into the pit of his stomach, curling hot and tight like something he instinctively wants to tear out with his bare hands. He takes a breath, and it gets stuck in his throat, hitching there. It hurts, hurts, hurts when he finally exhales.
"Yeah," Dean says, "of course you do," and he nods jerkily as he looks down at his phone. He doesn't say goodbye. He doesn't look up from the screen when Cas gets up and leaves the room. He doesn't finish his coffee, or move for a long time.
By nightfall, Cas is gone.
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21 May 2026
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Dean takes a really, really long drive to kick fear in the ass. It might just be the best thing he ever decides to do.
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The seat squeaks, and Dean follows the sound, his gaze trailing down. There—where Jack sat moments ago—is a much tinier version of him. He looks mostly the same, just...smaller and more dimply and cuter, if that's possible. His clothes have shrunk to fit him, so he's casually sitting in a t-shirt, jeans, and scuffed tennis shoes. He swings his feet from side-to-side over the edge of Baby's seat the same way Sam used to in the back, and he stares up at Dean with clear eyes.
"Oh," Dean blurts out, eyes bulging, "Cas is going to fucking kill me."
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21 May 2026
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Dean finds articles implying that their old Mystery Spot experiences might be happening again, and despite Sam's protestations that it's not safe (especially for them, of all people), he and Cas go to check it out.
Occasionally, Dean and Sam are both right. Dean really hates it.
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14 May 2026
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Dean managed to save Castiel from the deal he had done with The Empty, but he now had to face what Castiel's true happiness had meant.
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13 May 2026
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Cas realizes he's gay and has some time to explore it. Title is from 'Human' by Molly Sarlé.
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10 May 2026
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The Fate of Soldiers by DeliriumRoad for mellovins
Fandoms: Supernatural (TV 2005), The Boys (TV 2019)
04 Jun 2026
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Dean Winchester is convinced that Chuck won. After all, what else could explain the fact that him and Cas have been avoiding each other and have never discussed Castiel's dying confession?
In typical Winchester fashion, the brothers find a spell that can reveal the entire truth and finally tell them whether or not Chuck is still controlling them. But, as always, messing with fate has unexpected consequences: the spell backfires and Castiel is sent into a parallel universe. That's how Castiel meets Soldier Boy, a faithless and aggressive man with daddy issues and an ego the size of the moon. Soldier Boy is homophobic, rude and incredibly irritating. He's also the spitting image of Dean AND extremely horny.
Maybe Soldier Boy has a point... Castiel could use a little experience.OR
That time that Dean walked in on Cas on his knees sucking Soldier Boy's dick.
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05 May 2026
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Castiel gets yanked into another universe and rescues a man called Soldier Boy.
Things happen.
And when Castiel finally gets send back home to Dean with a fucking hickey on his neck, Dean realizes his feelings.
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05 May 2026
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The snap happened, everything is back in place but not for Sam, and certainly not for Dean. Can he move on without Cas? Does he even have to?
I hadn't written anything in almost 11 years, but when the series ended, and things didnt go quite as I would have liked, I decided to get back into writing.
The story is not my best, and probably laced with inconsistencies from the series, but I did my best.
Enjoy!
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19 Jan 2026
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Death cannot stop true love. All it can do is delay it for a while. by reverseteehee
Fandoms: Supernatural (TV 2005)
14 Jan 2025
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Dean gets Cas back from the Empty and they have a come to Jesus about their feelings
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“You love me.” It comes out less like a question and more like a statement. Like Dean was stating a fact. The sky is blue, Chuck is dead, and Castiel loves Dean Winchester.“I do.”
“Why? Cas, after all the things I’ve done. You’ve seen it. How can you-?” Dean looks away, then. He can’t look at Cas, eyes filled with devotion that he doesn’t deserve. As if Dean didn’t have a trail of blood behind him. As if Dean’s death toll didn’t matter. As if Dean was the most perfect person.
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19 Jan 2026
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Cas is back from the Empty, and Dean decides to not waste any minute they can spend together.
(Yet another post 15x18 fix-it, because we can't get enough! This one is 100% pure fluff, consider yourself warned!)
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“I love you,” blurted Dean.
A tear rolled down Cas’s cheek.
“I know.”
Dean laughed through his tears.
“Don’t just propose then Han Solo me, you dick!”Bookmarked by Ferzone99
19 Jan 2026
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A Reason Worth Dying For / A Reason Worth Trying For by SandgrassBagel
Fandoms: Supernatural (TV 2005)
24 Sep 2025
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Castiel's death hits Dean with a finality that leaves him drowning. Drowning in grief, in regret, in self-loathing, in heartbreak, in liquor. So when he stumbles across Lilly Sunder's notes on angels and, subsequently, a passage mentioning a gate to opening the Empty, he is determined to get Cas back.
No matter the cost.
Three weeks after Cas' return from the Empty, he is slowly healing from what the spell to retrieve him took. Three weeks after Cas' return, omens of angels and demons are scattered around the country. Three weeks after Cas' return, the Empty is bleeding.
Dean swore he would get Cas back no matter the cost. And he has, at the cost of endangering the balance of life and the afterlives. Dean has learned from dying and being the one left behind that it is easy to die for someone, but it is much harder to face the costs of surviving alongside them.
Even so, this time, Dean will not watch Cas die. And Cas has not and will not ever allow the same.
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19 Jan 2026
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“What else was I supposed to say, Sam?” Dean asks him. “I’m not...look, Cas is my best friend, and I care about him. That’s it.”
“And you renovated a house for him,” Sam continues. “And live with him.”
or: a year in the life, in which it takes some time, but they figure it out
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19 Jan 2026
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19 Jan 2026
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Even in Arcadia (You walk beside me still..) by Sparkleshudson
Fandoms: Supernatural (TV 2005)
19 Jun 2025
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After dying and arriving in Heaven, Dean expects peace—but instead, he’s haunted by the absence of the one soul he needs most: Castiel. The pain of Cas’s final declaration of love still lingers, not because of what was said, but because Dean never got to respond. He searches for Cas through Heaven’s quiet roads and golden fields, unable to let go, tormented by everything left unresolved.
AKA - These two idiots finally get their shit together.
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19 Jan 2026
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“Just so we’re clear,” Sam says once they’re about halfway back to the road, “you don’t think Cas is in heaven and that’s the only reason you haven’t let yourself die yet?”
“Well,” Dean makes a noise halfway between a laugh and a sob. He stops walking but doesn’t look back at Sam. “That’s a lot more succinct than I’d have put it. I just–I know what’s on the other side, and it ain’t him.”
Sam steps in front of Dean, forcing eye contact. “I’m sorry you didn’t get more time with him.”
And then he turns and keeps up the hike. After that, it’s a long time before Dean lets himself be alone with just Sam.
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Chuck's been defeated. Jack is gone. Cas is dead. Sam is ready to build a new life but Dean's grief threatens to consume him entirely. Sam, Eileen, and even Claire all want to help Dean through this darkness, but they worry it's only a matter of time before Dean can't keep fighting it anymore.
Dean’s loved ones watch as he monumentally self-destructs while grieving his angel. There will be eventual happiness.
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19 Jan 2026
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Getting used to Heaven is something of a marvel. It ain't perfect, and Dean thinks he'd hate it if it was, which is probably why it isn't.
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"You don't understand," Dean whispers, exhaling shakily. "I know you don't, because even I don't. The instant you were gone, I wanted you back. Cas, I wanted you back. I wanted—I wanted—"
Cas stares at him, searching his face. After a moment, his own face falls slack, eyes widening just so. "Oh," he breathes out.
Dean wants to be furious that Cas has figured it out before he has—whatever it is—but he's not even that surprised. Cas knows him too well, always has, even more than Dean knows himself. He's been kicking Dean in the goddamn teeth with how deeply he understands him, even about the things Dean doesn't, ever since they first met. You don't think you deserve to be saved, that's what Cas had said. All bundled up in impossibilities and power, this being that looked at Dean Winchester and knew every single inch of him, as if he had a right to each part.
"What?" Dean grits out.
"I love you, too."
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19 Jan 2026
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Cas loves Dean.
He had told him in his last breaths and never got an answer as to the feeling being mutual. But then Jack brings him back from the Empty and he realizes he doesn't need one. All he needs is Dean. To be by his side as whatever Dean will let him be.Dean loves Cas.
But he tells him he doesn't. He tells him they’re friends. He tells him he can't. He tells him all the things instead of the sheer truth. Until he learns to show him.[Or: How Dean tries his best to shut his inner demons off, so he can be with his best friend and give in to the years-long cravings, he always tried to shove down. And how Cas stays patient, with the promise to love him relentlessly.
Also, hunting is evolved, and everyone gets the ending they deserve!
This story is an absolute devastating rollercoaster, so get comfortable, fasten your seatbelts and get ready to be emotionally thrown around.](this is now finished)
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19 Jan 2026
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A new day always begins with the ending of night by Wildflowersovermygrave
Fandoms: Supernatural (TV 2005)
02 Jan 2026
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Cas is gone. Dead. Dean doesn't want to think about that. He doesn't want to think about anything really. He wants to let go. But Dean is one of those people that doesn't know how to do that, especially when it comes to family. His Family. His Cas. Because damn it, damn the fucking world and Chuck and all of it, the angel was HIS. And when he, oh when Dean really wants something, he's going to burn his life down before letting it go. Or letting someone take that "something" away from him.
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19 Jan 2026
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It's their last night on earth. And Dean finally lets himself enjoy his fantasies. If the world is gonna end tomorrow, he's gonna die knowing if he likes men. One man in particular. Especially if the man in question is prepared to die the very next day.
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19 Jan 2026