Anneofnyc



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    The game in Montreal was supposed to be electric. A rivalry renewed. A win on the line. Two captains refusing to hold back.

    Ilya and Jackie were on a short flight to watch their boys face off.

    They never made it.

    When a plane bound for Montreal crashes between cities, Shane Hollander and Hayden Pike lose everything in the same moment. In the fluorescent quiet of their locker rooms, the world splits cleanly in two.

    Left behind are four children. Two grieving husbands. And a bond that has always survived rivalry, distance, and pride is now forced to survive something far more fragile.

    Because grief doesn’t just take.
    It changes.

    What begins as survival slowly becomes something harder to name. Something neither of them expected. Something that doesn’t fit into the lives they thought they understood.

    And the closer they get, the harder it becomes to pretend it’s just grief.

    OR: Two men lose the people they loved most—and find themselves holding onto each other in ways they don’t understand.

    OR OR: Grief brought them together. Everything after that gets complicated.

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    19 Jul 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    to read when not blue/disassociating

  2. Rec *

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    Shane measured out his loosely packed protein powder, using the back of the knife to scrape the excess off the cup back into the container—careful to not add too much. A glint of light reflected off the knife, catching his eye. He stared at the silvery surface, realizing how long it had been since he looked at himself in the mirror.

    He punched the button on the blender, letting the harsh, abrasive sound pull him out of his thoughts. The ingredients blended together until they turned into the same, bland, expected color as as it did every morning, perfectly under his control.

    He brought it to his lips carefully, trying to ignore the sudden tightness in his chest. When it tasted exactly like it did the day before, he sighed in relief, hungrily drinking it down, feeling completely free. This was going to work.

    He was always going to know exactly what he was eating.

    OR: Shane Hollander starts his performance diet after Dallas Kent puts something into his drink. With training season starting for his first season in Ottawa, it's more important than ever that he feels in control. How else will he face Troy Barret every day?

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    19 Jul 2026

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    It's already so complicated - their hook-ups and their secrets - that Ilya Rozanov knows it can't continue forever. So, when Shane Hollander, his rival on the ice and current reason for waking up in the morning, suddenly ghosts him and starts playing like an amateur, Ilya is desperate to figure out why and fix it so that their tangled little mess can maybe, one day, last.

    AN: Make note of the tags. Not a full recount/description of the assault, but it's a central theme.

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    18 Jul 2026

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    “You don’t talk about playing in major juniors,” Ilya said as he took a sip of his smoothie.

    Shane froze. “It was average, nothing to really talk about.” That wasn’t really true. Shane had hated major juniors. He had closed the door on those memories for a reason, more than one reason actually. There was no need to rehash the worst three years of his hockey career. That was over, and Shane was fucking fine.

    Wasn’t he?

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    Hockey Canada did a shitty job of protecting a children in major juniors, but especially children of color, and Shane has trauma from that. Ilya might commit crimes over it.

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    18 Jul 2026

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    to read when updated

  5. Rec *

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    In which Ilya is the one who gets hurt during the Boston vs Montreal game in 2017 instead of Shane, and this time their relationship gets revealed out there on the ice. This starts a chain of events that leads to Shane being the one to switch teams first.

    All fics could probably be read as stand-alones but do have small connections throughout.

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    18 Jul 2026