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Sam has been struggling with depression since Stanford. Well, not really struggling. Excelling. He's been excelling at depression since Stanford, and it's only gotten worse since he started hunting again. Unfortunately, the relapses from John's death and Dean's trip to Hell were bad, but they had nothing on the downward spiral triggered by Sam starting the Apocalypse.
But Sam has never come clean before, and he isn't about to start. He's self-medicating, he's suppressing, and he's handling things in the Trademark Winchester Way. He can do this. He can totally do this.
Spoiler: No, he can't.
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15 Jul 2026
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After Sam’s torture at the hands of the British Men of Letters, the latest in a long string of violations, he is rescued by Dean and Mary – and forced to ponder his broken relationship with his own body. Months later, when Sam is resurrected and tormented by Lucifer yet again, Dean confronts Mary and Sam gets his revenge against the devil.
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13 Jul 2026
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A few months after his birth, Jack learns how to see souls. Then he comes to a realization about the Winchester brothers, Sam in particular, and it's not a pleasant one. (gen)
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12 Jul 2026
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Death has never felt sympathy, perhaps this is pity than. Death's accounts and interactions during Sam Winchester's deaths while trapped with the devil.
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09 Jul 2026
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"It had never once crossed Kevin's mind that he would spend his postmortem days in his old bedroom at his mother’s house, gold farming out of sheer boredom."
Kevin Tran, deceased, is used to random adds on Skype due to the nature of his MMORPG side-business. What he isn't used to is being contacted by, and commiserating with, other dead Winchester hunting allies. Not even a prophet could have ever foreseen salvation-by-bandwidth.
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08 Jul 2026