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    It's kind of hilarious and tooth-rottingly sweet that the rookies are all so anxious over meeting Roz's girl. Or, wait, should it be his boy? Fuck, his Jane? Shit, Cliff doesn't fucking know. He probably should, though, but that's something to think about another day. He'll just stick with Roz's Jane for now—makes it easier for everyone, probably. Jane's been haunting Boston for for-fucking-ever, which, shit—he's definitely curious about how long their whole thing has been going on.

    He glances over his shoulder, catching sight of Breezy's tense mouth, their nerves apparent as Los knocks his shoulder into Ovi's; all three are muttering together, clearly anxious for tonight to go well.

    Still, how they're standing itches at him. There’s something… off about the rookies.

    OR: Boston welcomes Montreal on their home turf. Movie night beckons in the aftermath. The rookies' questions aren't the only wheel of fortune that's turning.

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    09 Jul 2026

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    “Sweetheart, your pretty little head is so silly. For every photocard I make of ugly hockey men, I make two of my gorgeous, radiant, pulchritudinous boyfriend. Sometimes three.”

    A smile breaks through the heated haze of Shane’s expression. “You’ve been using the thesaurus Dad got you for Christmas?”

    “I will beat Yuna Hollander at Scrabble one day,” Ilya declares against Shane’s hip bone.

    In the year between the Cottage and the Centaurs, Ilya misses Shane more than ever. Svetlana’s teenage cousin offers a coping method: Kpop-style Shane Hollander photocards to stare at all day long. It's a shame carrying around pictures of fellow hockey players is just not socially acceptable.

    …At least, not yet.
     
    (AKA: Ilya's mission to desensitize the hockey world to his Hollander fanboyisms, and the NHL players that suffer for it.)

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    08 Jul 2026

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    Shane was a tidy, meticulous person, careful in every way.

    He only got like this with Rozanov. He couldn’t explain it, would never be able to even if threatened, but maybe it didn’t matter. Maybe it was just a fact of life. Water was wet, the sky was blue, Shane Hollander wanted Ilya Rozanov to drunkenly fuck him without a condom.

    “Of course I want to,” Rozanov rasped. “Stupid idea, though.”

    “Everything we do is stupid."

    When the next day arrived, he could languish in some sort of regret. But what was Shane supposed to do? He had a brain swamped with alcohol, and Rozanov looked edible. Of course they were going home together.

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    02 Jul 2026

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    “You are still you, yes?” Ilya repeated. “You are still slow hockey player with pretty freckles, yes?” It was a weak attempt at a joke, so Ilya shook it away and tried again. “You are still Shane, same person, same brain, yes?”

    Shane blinked up at him, thinking. Then, nodding slowly. “Mostly. Yeah. I don’t know about a name or anything yet, but—. Yeah. I’m still me.”

    “Then it does not matter.”
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    A trans Shane Hollander AU

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    23 Jun 2026

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    In between when Shane and Ilya return to their teams after getting benched and the start of the playoffs, there's still one more week of the regular season. During that week, there is therapy by proxy, a request for emotional support nudes, a romantic declaration about pizza toppings, a disagreement about who turned who gay and another disagreement about whether Montreal Voyageurs games are better than porn.

    Ilya: Reporter got my number and is asking what I think about parliament trying to ban conversion therapy
    Ilya: What the fuck is conversion therapy?

    Shane: No idea, maybe it's actually good my team won't let me talk to reporters

    Ilya: Am googling this is evil shit. Lucky you didn't know about this you would have tried to send yourself before I finished converting you to my dick

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    18 Jun 2026