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    26 Jun 2026

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    “What is there to talk about?”

    “What’s there to talk about?!” Hollander scoffed, shaking his head. “You’re playing for my fucking team!”

    “I know.”

    “Why did you have to go and get traded?! You realise we’re going to have to see each other every day from now on, and play together, and-”

    “Yes,” Ilya interrupted. He didn’t want to know how long Hollander’s list was. “I know.”

    Hollander took a deep breath. “Okay, listen,” he said. “Just so we’re clear - we don’t know each other outside of playing against each other, right?”

    “Right.”

    “And we can’t- can’t hook up anymore.”

    ~

    OR: Ilya gets traded to Montreal in October 2014. He's lonely, and angry, and he misses Boston. He doesn't know if it helps that Hollander is there or not.

    title from Buckle by Florence and the Machine

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    20 Jun 2026

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    “How can Montreal be snowed in?” Ilya asks. “They are not ready for winter?”

    “It’s Montreal, man,” Marleau snickers, like that's an explanation.

    Jane- 9:44 a.m.- Look on the bright side. If you’re stuck another day, you can come back here.

    ________

    After Ilya leaves Shane’s apartment for the first time, he knows he’s on thin ice and at risk of falling into more serious feelings. He’s ready to put distance back between them.

    A Montreal blizzard has other ideas.

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    18 Jun 2026

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    “You are planning to rob me or what?” He hears Rozanov call, and he can’t help but smile slightly even as he rolls his eyes, closing the door to the linen closet and feeling strangely lighter than when he opened it, reassured that he’s just trying to read into a blank page, that today doesn’t mean anything more than Rozanov doesn’t mind him being around, which is strangely flattering.

    “I don’t know,” he calls back. “Don’t Russians like diamonds and fur and stuff? Where should I start looking if I want to know what my options are?”

    He hears Rozanov laugh, and it makes him smile.

    When he joins him in the living room once more, Rozanov tugs him down to lean against him again. Shane goes easier this time, settling into it, knowing it doesn’t mean anything other than the fact that he just happens to be the closest warm body, the person on Rozanov’s roster who filled today’s slot.

    (the tuna meltdown doesn't happen) (this does not mean they get ANY better at communication)

    (or: how shane didn't realize he had a boyfriend for several months)

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    16 Jun 2026

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    “Why did you want me to meet you here today?” Shane asked. When he’d heard the request, he’d had the same thought as Jared. Was he trying to rub it in? One last chance to retaliate for a long ago rejection?

    Shane had almost made it to Rozanov’s room that night in the hotel in Toronto. But when the elevator doors opened, Shane’s feet had stayed glued to the ground.

    He’d been so afraid of ruining everything, only to have it ruined for him barely a year later.

     

    Shane does not hook up with Ilya in Toronto. Six years later, his hockey career is long over and he has found a new calling that puts his media training, and his pretty face, to good use.

    Consider this a remix of sorts.

     

    Content warnings: homophobia and associated use of slurs

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    16 Jun 2026

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    Shane is a serial killer, which should probably scare Ilya off.

    It doesn't.

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    14 Jun 2026

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    “When you’re with her,” Ilya continues, voice rough and breathless, “and she does fuck all for you no matter how hard you close your eyes, do you try to angle your hand so she brushes up on the scar? Do you do everything you can to remember it exists? Am I there with you, Hollander? Always?”

    Shane wants to touch him—so he does the only thing he’s allowed to do.

    He throws the first punch.

    Or: After Shane and Ilya's first on-ice fight sends the media into a frenzy, the league forces them to date to control the narrative.

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    04 Jun 2026

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    Galina stopped writing to look at Ilya. "Do you think he'd be willing to talk to you next time it happens, even if it's late?"

    Ilya's stomach turned over. He didn't even want to consider it, but he knew the answer. "Yes. But he silences his phone at night."

    "Most phones these days have an option to let certain numbers ring through, even on Do Not Disturb. Do you think he'd be open to setting that up for you?"

    Imagining that conversation made Ilya nauseous. Yes, no fucking doubt, Shane would be open to it if Ilya explained the reason. "I'm not going to ask him to do that."

    Set during The Long Game, an alternate version where the plane scene doesn't happen. Instead, there's this: a car crash, a therapist's duty to report, and an urgent reckoning with priorities.

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    02 Jun 2026

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    25 May 2026

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    23 May 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    y’all there’s more 🥹

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    “Expecting company?” the person calls.

    There’s no way.

    He knows that voice—has heard it in his bed, and on the ice, and in his dreams—but he hasn’t heard it this closely and alone in years.

    For a split second, he thinks no one will be there. That Svetlana was right, and becoming a recluse was making him crazy.

    When Ilya finally does turn around, Shane Hollander is standing there, looking at him warily.

    “Ilya?”

    The ghost is back, only he speaks, and he’s not really a ghost at all.

    Or, Shane and Ilya never speak again after the tuna melt debacle and Shane marries Rose. Seven years later, news hits that they are getting a divorce. Somehow, Shane shows up on the doorstep of Ilya's remote cottage, with only a duffel bag and a small hope. For Ilya, time has changed both nothing and everything.

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    14 May 2026

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    13 May 2026

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    “Can’t hang out tonight, Hayd. I have plans.”

    “Bullshit,” Hayden responds. “You never have plans.”

    Objectively, this used to be true. Nowadays Shane has many, many plans, between his nightly plans to look at Ilya’s penis through Skype and his various long-term plans laid out helpfully in his notebook, Canva (For Ilya’s sake. He is a visual learner), and more recently, Excel. Shane loves that excel sheet. He’s colour coded it.

     

    In 2017, Shane Hollander spirals and proposes to his boyfriend of 4 days (or 7 years, or 9 years, or not his boyfriend at all, depending on how you look at it), which leads to a lot of plans, weird theories in the Montreal Voyageur locker room, some Twitter drama, and Ilya Rozanov entering his WAG era.

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    08 May 2026

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    Yuna’s entire body aches, and it would appear that her instincts were right— Rozanov is small, and he’s vulnerable, and he’s tired, and he needed somewhere safe to rest.

    And Yuna can’t help the weird sense that she’s honoured— her home was somewhere for Rozanov to go, even if she and David knew nothing about any of it, even if they still don’t, Shane knew it would be safe for Rozanov here. Shane told him to come home.

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    03 May 2026

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    They fight. They have angry sex. In the aftermath, lying in the wreckage of the argument, they finally say the things they've not been saying for months.

    Or: the one where Shane is emotionally constipated, Ilya moves to Ottawa and uses it as a weapon approximately once, and three weeks is exactly long enough for everything to come to a head.

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    01 May 2026

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    Shane goes for a massage.

     

    Russian translation available here

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    30 Apr 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    bruh

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    Cardiac tamponade: pressure on that heart that prevents it from filling and beating adequately.

    Shane thought he knew two things: his move to Ottawa would cause chaos, and that the Ottawa Centaurs were nice.

    As it turned out, he only knew one of those things.

    (Or: the Cens are still a team of professional hockey players. They're going to fuck up.)

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    30 Apr 2026

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    “They need to return to a conference based system,” Svetlana said, slamming her hand against the table. “It was fucking fine the way it was, why are we handing out participation trophies to shitty divisions?”

    Ilya raised his eyebrows from where he hovered in the kitchen, cracking open another Red Bull.

    “This is fun,” he said, deadpanned. “You guys should start a podcast or something. I would not listen, you are both terribly boring.”

    * * *

    Or, after an injury on the ice forces Shane into an early retirement, he and Svetlana start a podcast.

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    29 Apr 2026

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    unconnected hollanov/heated rivalry fics all by the same author (it's me, i'm the author) // blanket permission for translations (posted on ao3/linked), podfics (posted on ao3/linked), art of any kind inspired by the fics in this collection! i would love to know about them though

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    27 Apr 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    genuinely some of THE best fics in this fandom fr. anon i wanna kiss u on the forehead

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    It starts simply enough. Ilya has him pinned to the bed, his mouth on Shane's neck the way he likes, his hands loose on Shane's wrists. They aren't naked, not yet, but that's just a matter of time; right now, Shane is enjoying the frustration of his cock held back by his pants, the pull of his shirt twisted tight at his waist. Ilya releases one of Shane's wrists to grope at his fly, sliding the zipper down, setting him free, and because it's too soon, too easy, too good, Shane moans "oh no" just softly, the barest whisper of breath, already arching up into Ilya's hand.

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    Shane says no, but he means yes.

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    It turns out, Shane can cum three times in a hour.

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    27 Apr 2026

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