11 Works by fallenkilljoy4
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He doesn't remember making coffee. He doesn't remember lighting a cigarette, either.
Pelle’s gone home.
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Where Barren Trees Bear Fruit by fallenkilljoy4
Fandoms: Lords of Chaos (2018), Mayhem (Band)
01 May 2026
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When Øystein found Pelle — after every room in the house had turned up empty — the scrawny blond was lingering at the edge of the forest. Hands hidden in the sleeves of his denim jacket, his arms were outstretched at his sides — slowly flapping up and down, like a bird testing its wings. His bleary eyes faced skyward, lazily transfixed on some invisible beyond as he shifted his weight from side to side.
Pelle reeks something awful. Øystein gets on his knees about it.
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Pelle's saliva was sour and his tongue was sugary, effervescent like the overripened pulp of a fermenting fruit and yielding just as easily. Øystein couldn't think of anything to compare the feeling to except… Well…
Floating in glass, Øystein and Pelle consume each other.
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- Part 3 of The Unstoppable Force
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Whenever Øystein would see, he would feel a twinge deep in his gut — the kind that made him need to take a cold, cold shower.
This time was different.Øystein totally isn't a creep, and Pelle totally doesn't get off on it.
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A Heart That Beats as Both Siphon and Reservoir by fallenkilljoy4 for TragicDream
Fandoms: Lords of Chaos (2018), Mayhem (Band)
30 Jan 2026
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"You said, I could beat you black and blue, remember? You said, I could take you from behind, and choke you like a whore. I haven’t stopped thinking about it."
It's a vicious game of give and take. But who's taking? Who's giving? And where do they draw the line?
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- Part 2 of The Unstoppable Force
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"What the fuck are you doing?"
When Øystein wakes up to find Pelle humping his leg like a dog, he has half a mind to put him in his place. In the end, it's Øystein who's the little bitch.
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- Part 1 of The Unstoppable Force
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Such A Perfect Soul (and i wanna take it from you) by fallenkilljoy4
Fandoms: Lords of Chaos (2018), Mayhem (Band)
12 Dec 2025
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"Will you fuck me just like this? When I'm cold and stiff and my eyes go all cloudy?"
Pelle begs Øystein to kill him.
- Language:
- English
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- 1,947
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Kudos:
- 42
- Hits:
- 481
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Grey and Yellow by ItIsTheSpaceJam (fallenkilljoy4)
Fandoms: Dear Evan Hansen - Pasek & Paul/Levenson
25 Dec 2018
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She loved him.
Definitely.
But she wasn't in love with him. -
Sleep to the Freezing by ItIsTheSpaceJam (fallenkilljoy4)
Fandoms: Dear Evan Hansen - Pasek & Paul/Levenson
10 Nov 2018
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Connor used to lose his mind through other people's words, now he's writing his own.
Zoe hadn't seen her brother in years, then a painting drags him back into her life.
Evan never thought he'd amount to anything, but music makes him feel just a little bit better.
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- Part 1 of Anywhere But Here
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Last Cigarette Before I Get A Bad Idea by ItIsTheSpaceJam (fallenkilljoy4)
Fandoms: Dear Evan Hansen - Pasek & Paul/Levenson
01 Sep 2018
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Connor and Jared weren't together. But you can't blame a guy for dreaming.
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This Isn't A Healthy Coping Mechanism by ItIsTheSpaceJam (fallenkilljoy4)
Fandoms: Dear Evan Hansen - Pasek & Paul/Levenson
02 May 2018
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"I'm saying this because I care about you," Jared finally turns to face Connor, just in time to see a single tear slip down his cheek and onto the pillow, "This isn't a healthy coping mechanism"
Connor knew that. And he knew that this was only making him feel worse. But in those moments they shared together, when they were so close they could be one, he could pretend.