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    “Rozanov,” Crowell begins, his voice finally dropping its casual flair. He snorts out something like a laugh. “Is Hollander blackmailing you?”

    “What?” Shane says to his muted phone at the same time Ilya says “Excuse me?”

    “A charity really?” Crowell huffs like this was a joke. Shane feels his blood go cold as he realizes this isn’t a friendly little meeting.
    Crowell lets out a soft hum, and Shane can hear his chair creek like he’s leaning forward. “Ilya level with me, you’re a bad person.”

    No. No! No!

    or: Crowell tells Ilya he can't start the Irina Foundation because it messes with his 'Bad Boy' persona. Too bad Shane Hollander is listening in on his phone and disagrees.

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    26 Jun 2026

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    “Honestly, dude, you’re fucking handling this like a champ.”
    He’s not. He’s handling it the way he has to, the only way there is to handle it. “Well, I am champ, so.”
    Marlow chuckles.
    He sounds like he’s about to say something else heartfelt and misinformed, so Ilya flicks on the radio.
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    Ilya gets outed fall 2014. Objectively it's good for gay hockey but it sure doesn't feel like it.

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    26 Jun 2026

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    “There is no one else!” He shouted as he let out a little sob.

    “It has always only ever been Jane!, I fucked around so much in my rookie years to stop myself from falling for-” No he couldn’t finish that sentence. He wasn’t even ready to admit that to himself sober, he could only commit to halfway admitting it when he was drunk out of his mind.

    “Since the moment I saw Jane in 2008 I knew I was in trouble. She yelled at me for smoking in a non-smoking area, shook my hand twice.” I Marlow looked at Ilya with pity as if to say 'so we are finally talking about this'?
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    OR: Ilya is torturing the Boston Bears/Raiders because of his breakup with Shane. His good friends take him to a bar to get him to move on (partially for their own sake) but it leads to Ilya revealing a little too much of his feelings.
    **Finished**

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    26 Jun 2026

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    “Who are you talking to?” Sveta is looking with a raised eyebrow, at Ilya’s delighted face.

    “Ah, I am talking to my catfish.”

    “What do you mean, your catfish?” Ilya angles the phone so Sveta can see the shirtless picture on the screen.

    “This guy is pretending to be Shane Hollander on Grindr. It’s pretty funny. He’s cropped the face out, but he’s using pictures from the billboard next to my apartment.”

    Or: Ilya Rozanov is sure he's being catfished- why would the real Shane Hollander be on Grindr, talking to random university of Ottawa students? But the more he talks to Wayne, the more he starts to like him, and the more he wishes Wayne would just come clean so they can finally be together.

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    25 Jun 2026

  5. Public Bookmark 18

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    ‘You could come out,’ Shane said eagerly.

    ‘What?’

    ‘Come out, you know, tell everyone that you’re in a relationship with a man. Then you wouldn’t be able to go back to Russia, and your family would leave you alone.’ It was perfect.

    But Rozanov was shaking his head. ‘Risk is too big,’ he said. ‘Without Raiders contract, my visa will change, maybe I do not even get to stay in America. If I burn bridges with Russia, could be very bad.’

    ‘Oh.’ Shane thought for a minute. ‘What about Canadian residency? Then you’d get healthcare and be able to play for any of the leagues, or do something else entirely if you need to.’

    Rozanov looked confused. ‘I would have to play for Canadian team, maybe, to get Canadian citizenship, live in Canada, I don’t know how many years would take. Would be dream only.’

    Shane was terrified and excited at the same time as the rest of the idea fell into place in his mind. ‘What if we got married?’ he asked, stomach fluttering. ‘You’d get a Canadian passport, you’d be safe, no matter what happens.’

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    25 Jun 2026

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    What do you do when you’re getting married in six months and you have 22 guys whose literal jobs are to do whatever you tell them?

    The Ottawa Centaurs are conscripted to pull off their captain’s wedding. The fact that they still don’t know who he’s marrying is entirely beside the point. (All the signs are there. All of them.)

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    25 Jun 2026

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    "Are you Russian?" Shane turned and said, a little too loud.

    Ilya laughed and lowered his head to the bed. That was a very cute laugh. "What gave me away?" He straightened up and looked at Shane.

    "The accent. I'm sorry, um... It's hot, actually." Fuck, why would he say that?

    "Is okay. Are you gay?" Ilya crossed his arms and looked at Shane with a smirk that went straight to his dick.

    "Uh... I'm pretty sure you're not supposed to ask me that." Shane turned red in an instant. "I didn't mean anything when I said it's hot. I'm sorry." He was messing this up so badly he should just pack and go back home.

    "Stop apologizing. I know I'm hot, yes." Ilya finished making the bed and got closer to Shane, leaning on his desk. "You are hot too. We can tell each other that, since we are both straight." He lowered his head back and winked. Fucking winked. What an asshole.

    "I'm... I'm not—"

    "So, gay?"

    —————————

    Freshman year was supposed to be simple: get out of Ottawa, get drunk, get laid. Then Shane met his hot Russian neighbor, who very helpfully announced that he was straight.

    Shane believed him right up until he walked in on Ilya with another man's mouth on his dick.

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    25 Jun 2026

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  8. Public Bookmark 50

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    "You're Omega"

    Shane froze.

    They both looked straight in each other's eyes, afraid to be the first one to inhale.

    Shane's head started filling up with empty excuses, and he quickly sat up on the bed to escape the Alpha's touch (no matter how much his instincts despised that).

    "N-no.." Shane smiled and scoffed trying to laugh it off.

    Rozanov didn't smile, "Yes", he kept staring at Shane.

    Fuck. This was a stupid fucking idea. Fucking your arch rival, who now also is aware of your biggest fucking secret.

    "No, why would you even think that?"

    "Hollander, you're wet"

    OR: Omega Shane has been hiding his designation. Unfortunately, (or fortunately) love has won over his desire to hide, deciding he will just hide the mating mark under the scent patch. He didn't hide it well from the team though.

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    25 Jun 2026

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  9. Rec 97

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    Post tuna meltdown, Shane finds out he can see what Ilya has been listening to on Spotify and starts stalking his page.
    Ilya finds out and starts messing with him.

    Quick read with humor and a little angst.

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    24 Jun 2026

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    Shane was never in the right headspace for postgame press conferences. Win or lose, he was sweaty, exhausted, and still riding on adrenaline rather than actual thought. But he was the captain, it was playoff season, and there was no escaping it. So it was only a matter of time before he slipped up…

    “Shane…you mentioned your—husband. Do you want to expand on that?”

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    OR Shane Hollander accidentally reveals that he is married to his rival Ilya Rozanov in a post-game press conference.

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    24 Jun 2026

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    Shane Hollander just wants junior year to be simple...win hockey games and maintain his gpa. Maybe finally try to date someone new. When a mysterious invitation shows up in his apartment, and Ilya Rozanov shows up across the hall, all his plans go out the window.

    Or…Shane and Ilya are contentious college hockey teammates in New Orleans who end up living across the hall from each other and things get mysterious and *very* horny.

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    24 Jun 2026

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  12. Public Bookmark 6

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    Shane sends Ilya a situationship-ending text, only for it to get lost in the ether, giving him a second chance. Rewrite of the tuna melt debacle, but Shane is trans and enters gay panic. Also AU where Shane and Rose have been friends since high school and never dated.

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    24 Jun 2026

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    While in the cottage, Shane and Ilya recount when they each knew they were in love.
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    The real moment happened when his iron chest alchemized to mercury under Ilya’s gaze, and Rozanov became his Ilya. Instead of two hot, muscular bodies they were these timeless souls staring deeply into each other. It was the moment Shane looked at Ilya and saw every past and future iteration of him all at once: the little boy with curly blond hair on a slanted and melting rink in Russia, the mischievous rookie who messed with the press, the middle aged hockey coach who accidentally taught their kids Russian curse words. 

    And that moment happened to be completely inconsequential. 

    Shane can’t help but laugh when it hits him.

    “What? Shane, tell meeee,” Ilya pleads, tired of waiting patiently for his answer. His head is on the pillow next to Shane’s and his eyes are scanning Shane’s face, trying to read the answer inside of his skull. Shane thinks maybe he could. 

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    24 Jun 2026

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    “—okay, that’s unusual,” the first commentator’s voice is saying over the footage. “Hm. Ladies and gentlemen, it seems that, thanks to some last-minute additions to the broadcast, we’ll be able to get an audio feed straight from the arena today!” 

    Ilya frowns. Who the fuck was stupid enough to get mic’d for this fucking game? Some idiot rookie from Toronto, probably. They really don’t teach kids how to handle anything these days. 

    “That’s right!” The second announcer pipes up with an annoyingly fake cheery voice. Ilya immediately wants to send a puck straight into his windpipe. “We just got confirmation that Captain Shane Hollander himself will be wearing a microphone during tonight’s game.” 

    Ilya sits up and spins to face the TV screen fast enough to give a lesser man whiplash.

    Shane doesn’t get injured when Ilya comes back from Russia in 2017, so Ilya follows through on his plan to end things between them. A year later, despite being miserable, he still believes he did the right thing for both of them.
    Except the Voyageurs have been acting weird around Hollander lately. And wait, what do you mean he’s mic’d for this game?

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    24 Jun 2026

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    Ilya and Shane get trapped in a broken elevator, and Ilya does his best to distract Shane.

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    23 Jun 2026

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    "And they, well. They brought in an omega specialist?”

    “Specialist?” Ilya asked, his tone wary. The word sounded uncomfortable in his mouth, so Shane tried to fill in the gaps.

    “A doctor. For omegas.”

    That threw Rozanov off for a second. “But you are not omega?”

    Shane scrunched up his face, creasing the skin on his forehead and around his eyes. Taking a deep breath, he dropped the first of his two bombs. “No, Rozanov. I am. I’m an omega.”

    He heard the Russian hum on the other side, considering this. “Makes sense. Is why you are so pretty. And why you have such nice ass.”

    Shane’s ears burned. “Shut up, stop talking about my ass.”

    “But I can still talk about how pretty you are, yes?”

    _________

    hellooooooo i am back and i am writing the alpha/omega fanfic of my dreams!!! do not wake me im exactly where i wanna be!!! aka a fuck or die where shane is on suppressants for far too long and calls ilya for help with his terrible horrible awful no good impending heat - but the circumstances and the yearning are magnified by like a billion times <3 yay!

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    22 Jun 2026

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    A few months after Ilya joins the Centaurs, his apartment gets a gas leak. It's a perfectly inconvenient time to be out of housing, but luckily, Yuna and David come to the rescue. Now, Ilya just has to survive a week living with in-laws that may or may not hate his guts.

    As it turns out, his expectations could not have been more subverted.

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    21 Jun 2026

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    When Shane takes a hard hit on the ice, he wakes up three days later to find his reality has been shattered. But the truth is, it wasn’t reality at all. Just an elaborate set of false memories conjured by a brain injury. 'False memory syndrome' they call it. Shane calls it a nightmare he couldn't have imagined.

    Or

    Shane doesn’t have amnesia. Instead, he wakes up wanting his boyfriend only to realize his brain concocted a bunch of fake memories of a nine year situationship and Shane has no idea how to live in his actual reality that Ilya hasn’t been a part of. Luckily, Ilya is…curious.

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    21 Jun 2026

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    David Hollander gets stuck in an elevator with Ilya Rozanov.
    It turns out rivals are different off the ice and sometimes parents notice more than their children think.

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    21 Jun 2026

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    Shane should be here right now, should be in Ilya’s house. Ilya should be teasing him about being picky while going through delivery options for food on his phone. Shane should be discovering that Ilya has ginger ale in the fridge and the protein bars Shane mentioned liking in an interview in his pantry. He should be making out with Shane on the couch, sneaking a hand into his pants, teasing him about whether they can beat the deliveryman and arrive before he does. Shane was supposed to spend the night tonight, the Montreal team not set to leave until tomorrow afternoon because of potential bad weather in the morning. Shane should be fed and showered and ready to curl up in bed with Ilya tonight.
    But Shane is in a hospital.

    And Ilya is here.

    He pulls up Jane in his phone again. He presses call.

    “Hey, you’ve reached Shane Hollander-”

    Ilya closes his eyes and lets Shane’s voice roll over him.

    (canon divergence in which shane getting injured happens during a game in boston) (...which means shane then gets to go home with ilya to recover)

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    21 Jun 2026

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