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    “Me finding out that instead of mysterious and cool, people think I’m autistic and lesbian.”

    Ilya and Shane get Reddit’s advice under the aliases Lily and Jane. Things spiral from there….

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    "And they, well. They brought in an omega specialist?”

    “Specialist?” Ilya asked, his tone wary. The word sounded uncomfortable in his mouth, so Shane tried to fill in the gaps.

    “A doctor. For omegas.”

    That threw Rozanov off for a second. “But you are not omega?”

    Shane scrunched up his face, creasing the skin on his forehead and around his eyes. Taking a deep breath, he dropped the first of his two bombs. “No, Rozanov. I am. I’m an omega.”

    He heard the Russian hum on the other side, considering this. “Makes sense. Is why you are so pretty. And why you have such nice ass.”

    Shane’s ears burned. “Shut up, stop talking about my ass.”

    “But I can still talk about how pretty you are, yes?”

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    hellooooooo i am back and i am writing the alpha/omega fanfic of my dreams!!! do not wake me im exactly where i wanna be!!! aka a fuck or die where shane is on suppressants for far too long and calls ilya for help with his terrible horrible awful no good impending heat - but the circumstances and the yearning are magnified by like a billion times <3 yay!

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    22 Jun 2026

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    “Kiss me,” Rozanov whispers. 
     
    Shane cannot help the strangled breath he lets out, nor can he help how harshly his lips crash into Rozanov’s. He moves so quickly that he’s sure one of them will have a small bruise or visible puffiness tomorrow, but he doesn’t care. 
     
    He is lost in a place that exists out of time and space, his skin tingling everywhere Rozanov’s body touches. Their torsos are pressed together and Rozanov’s hand is grasping the back of Shane’s neck, pulling his face even harder against his own, just to have more of him. Rozanov’s tongue is sliding quickly, hungrily, familiarly against Shane’s. The four years Shane has waited to do this shrink into a wrinkle, bridging 2009 and now, as though the universe had not so unfairly yanked them apart and they could start their rookie year over again. 

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    Years after Ilya left the league prematurely, Shane and Ilya are both passengers on a four-month, around-the-world cruise.

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    16 Jun 2026

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    Shane Hollander woke up early on the morning of the MLH Awards. He went for a run. He had lunch with Hayden Pike. He kissed Ilya Rozanov in a bathroom. He fucked Ilya Rozanov in his hotel room.

    Shane Hollander woke up early on the morning of the MLH Awards.

    Again. And again. And again.

    (Shane relives the 2014 MLH Awards over and over again. Alternative title: Shane Hollander learns to ask for what he wants.)

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    04 Jun 2026

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    A few months after Ilya joins the Centaurs, his apartment gets a gas leak. It's a perfectly inconvenient time to be out of housing, but luckily, Yuna and David come to the rescue. Now, Ilya just has to survive a week living with in-laws that may or may not hate his guts.

    As it turns out, his expectations could not have been more subverted.

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    21 Jun 2026

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    When Shane takes a hard hit on the ice, he wakes up three days later to find his reality has been shattered. But the truth is, it wasn’t reality at all. Just an elaborate set of false memories conjured by a brain injury. 'False memory syndrome' they call it. Shane calls it a nightmare he couldn't have imagined.

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    Shane doesn’t have amnesia. Instead, he wakes up wanting his boyfriend only to realize his brain concocted a bunch of fake memories of a nine year situationship and Shane has no idea how to live in his actual reality that Ilya hasn’t been a part of. Luckily, Ilya is…curious.

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    21 Jun 2026

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