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    His eyes land on Ilya. 

    For one brief second, Ilya thinks Hollander is going to stop, step out of the walkway, say something. Do anything. 

    Ilya's hand twitches at his side, absurdly, like it's waiting for a handshake that has not happened yet. Like it's preparing for the contact. 

    Instead, Hollander gives him the smallest half-nod, barely there, and walks into the arena. 

     

    OR: One bad World Juniors drops Ilya Rozanov to sixth overall in the draft and Shane Hollander goes first. Rozanov decides he’s going to spend his career proving the league wrong. What he doesn’t plan on is becoming fixated on Hollander in the process — on the way he plays, and the way he watches Rozanov right back. Somewhere along the way, it stops being about the league’s attention and starts being about keeping Hollander’s.

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    01 Jul 2026

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    Immediately follows the fight on Boxing Day, where Ilya tells Shane to leave. To please go home.

    After seeking advice from a trusted friend, Shane returns to make things right between them.

    Truths will be revealed, exposing the cracks in their relationship that Shane hasn't seen and Ilya hasn't wanted to reveal; forcing hard conversations and even harder decisions.

    Is love enough to keep them together? If so, what needs to change? Will anything stay the same?

    The biggest question Shane asks himself as they wade through years of miscommunication and hurt is 'Where do we go from here?'

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    17/?
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    01 Jul 2026

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    The Japanese language only has two verb tenses; past and present. If one is gone and you can't seem to place yourself in the other, how do you move into a future without the dream that always led you? Shane Hollander has lost hockey; the ability to play and the access to his memories, nine years of accomplishments documented in stark contrast that he cannot seem to see past and find who he was.

    Right now, he finds himself on a guided hiking trip everyone claimed would be a good idea, if only a goal to focus his rehab on. Shane doesn't believe he will find himself somewhere in the Canadian wilderness, but the outrageously flirty, forward Russian guide that keeps him upright through every stumble is at least a welcome distraction from the emptiness looming ahead. One foot in front of the other, one step at a time. Sometimes, we don't actually need a direction to start moving.

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    or; Shane has lost hockey and his memories. Ilya is a hiking guide and more than happy to help him explore… the Canadian wilderness

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    5/?
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    30 Jun 2026

  4. Public Bookmark 74

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    Now that Shane has started his sophomore year at Boston University, he wants nothing but to focus on his classes, play hockey, and forget about The Incident that happened at the end of his freshman year. Of course that would be easier without Ilya Rozanov, who lives in the same frat house as him, reminding him of it every three seconds.

    Ilya wants to finish his studies and go pro. His father is paying for him to be here on the condition that he passes all his classes before signing a contract. He should be focusing on that rather than thinking about the boy two doors down from his bedroom.

    And what's the best way to get over someone you can't stop thinking about? Get under them of course.

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    2/25
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    67
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    1,750

    30 Jun 2026

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    They broke up years ago.
    Ilya moved on in the cruelest way possible: he got married, built a whole new life.

    And when his wife suddenly died, Shane wasn’t supposed to come to Boston for the funeral.
    He definitely wasn’t supposed to stay.

    Now they’re in the same house again,
    sleeping in separate rooms,
    avoiding each other’s eyes,
    trying very hard not to touch.

    But grief has a way of pushing you back into the arms you thought you’d never feel again.

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    Chapters:
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    29 Jun 2026

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    Shane moves into a new apartment.
    Shane has a noisy neighbor.
    Correction: Shane has a 6'3" noisy, rude, and annoyingly beautiful neighbor.

    Shane doesn't like noise.

    What could possibly go wrong?

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    Chapters:
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    29 Jun 2026

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    After Ilya Rozanov returns from attending his father's funeral in Russia, Shane Hollander is in his living room.

    Or

    What if Ilya and Shane get to have a soft launch of being boyfriends more on their own terms?

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    27 Jun 2026

  8. Public Bookmark 47

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    Shane and Ilya were best friends for eight inseparable years, until Ilya returned to Russia and, without much explanation, cut off all contact with Shane. Ten years later, Ilya is back in Ottawa, and a chance encounter brings them together again. Determined to earn Shane's forgiveness, Ilya is willing to do whatever it takes. Will they finally get a second chance?

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    24 Jun 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov, captain of the Boston Raiders, has a boyfriend. A definitely real, suspiciously (and boringly) handsome, conveniently offline, consistently unable to meet up in real life boyfriend.

    Who lives in Canada.

    Unfortunately for him, absolutely no one believes him.

    The more serious Ilya gets about his Totally Real Canadian Boyfriend™️, the more concerned his teammates become that someone either needs to call MTV and get him on the next episode of Catfish or that he's slowly losing his mind.

    Shane Hollander is, fortunately, very real, very sarcastic, and increasingly delighted that an entire NHL locker room seems to think that he's a government psyop to distract Ilya from his game.

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    Chapters:
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    Comments:
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    24 Jun 2026

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    Twenty years after everything fell apart, Shane Hollander is on the cusp of becoming MLH Commissioner when Ilya Rozanov walks into his office and back into his life.

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    Chapters:
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    Comments:
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    23 Jun 2026

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    After a devastating breakup with his boyfriend of 3 years after Christmas, Shane Hollander rebuilt his life with Rose Landry, marrying her as she faces a terminal breast cancer diagnosis and fulfilling her final wish of becoming a mother. Together they welcome their daughter, Lily, into the world. But when Rose passes, Shane is left shattered, grieving the life they built and the future they lost. As he struggles to raise Lily alone, the one person he never truly let go of, Ilya Rozanov, lingers at the edges of his life, forcing Shane to confront whether love can survive loss, guilt, and everything they left unresolved.

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    Or: A timeline where Shane and Ilya's worst nightmares come true(AKA my take on the extremism of their problems).

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    Chapters:
    10/?
    Comments:
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    13,286

    23 Jun 2026

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    Shane Hollander—omega, prince, and future ruler of Canada—is about to face the most terrifying day of his life: meeting the alpha his family has chosen for him. Traditions his family doesn't follow demand obedience, silence, and perfection—but it doesn’t account for the Russian general with piercing blue eyes, golden curls, and a way of touching Shane as if he already belongs to him.

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    “I’m Shane by the way.”

    “Shane.”

    “My friends call me Rozy.”

    “What kind of a name is Rozy?”

    “One you won’t forget.”

    “Oh.”

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    Chapters:
    20/?
    Comments:
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    23 Jun 2026

  13. Public Bookmark 27

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    They made it just as Ilya was pulling up in his Chevrolet Corvette E-Ray sleek black with red interior and the words Russia's Greatest Love Machine Emblemed on the bumper. He stepped out looking like he just came from a magazine shoot dressed in his black denim pants with his black tee shirt and leather jacket and Versace sneakers and those gorgeous blond curls and sea green eyes. Made Shane’s breath catch in his throat. All eyes were on him.

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    Shane Hollander has spent his whole life in the shadows and he likes his life this way or does he? That is until he meets Street Racer Ilya Rozanov. But Ilya Rozanov is not who he says he is. Will he be able to continue his residency without being distracted by the gorgeous man.

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    Chapters:
    17/?
    Comments:
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    2,949

    23 Jun 2026

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    He killed Shane Hollander's family. Now Shane is trapped in his camp, forced to heal soldiers under Ilya Rozanov's cold command. The plan is simple: wait and drive a knife through the monster's heart. But when Ilya discovers Shane isn't just a healer, but the rarest omega in existence, the mission turns into a brutal, possessive game of survival. Shane hates him with every fiber of his being. He just can't figure out why his body—and his heart—refuse to listen.

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    Chapters:
    15/?
    Comments:
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    22 Jun 2026

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    There was something wrong with Shane Hollander.

    He had known it since he was young.

    Most people-most kids, in general-had different hobbies and interests. Their attention drifted from one thing to another. They became fascinated with something for a few weeks, only to abandon it for the next shiny obsession that caught their eye.

    Shane had never been like that.

    When it came to him, there was only ever one thing: hockey.

    Obsessive.

    That was the word most people used when referring to his temperament.

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    Chapters:
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    Comments:
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    40,078

    22 Jun 2026

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    In 2014, Shane Hollander walked away from hockey, from the spotlight, and from every dream he built since he was 8 years old.

    In 2014, Ilya Rozanov felt like he was losing himself. So he pushed everything away, so no one would get hurt when he eventually cracked.

    Years later, they reunite, Shane — with so many scars, a thousand secrets, and a heart that never learned how to let go.

    Ilya Rozanov thought he knew what losing felt like.
    He was wrong.

    Or: Sometimes, love doesn’t leave.
    Sometimes, someone keeps it for you.

    Language:
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    143,062
    Chapters:
    18/?
    Comments:
    1,629
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    3,316
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    1,302
    Hits:
    135,160

    21 Jun 2026

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    Shane had been used to being alone. He'd never thought of himself as lonely. He honestly often craved the solitude, found it grounding. But that was before he knew what it was like to have someone to call, someone to touch. He was never lonely before Rozanov, but he'd been lonely ever since.

    April 2017: Shane does not get laid out on the ice.

    Ilya goes through with ending it.

    Shane lets him.

    What follows is eleven months of distance, denial, and a quiet kind of devastation neither of them knows how to name, let alone fix.

    They learn how to live without each other.

    (Or at least, how to pretend.)

    And then, almost a year later, the infamous collision happens and Shane goes down cold.

    And suddenly, neither of them can pretend it doesn’t matter.

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    Chapters:
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    20 Jun 2026

  18. Public Bookmark 37

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    Shane Hollander was the Canadian Space Agency’s leading astronaut candidate, headed to training camp, where he would compete to be placed in the crew that would be the first to live in a permanent moon base. He had his whole life planned out ahead of him, and nothing was going to get in his way.

    Ilya Rozanov was a talented aerospace engineer who needed to get as far away from Russia as he could, and what was farther than the moon?
    He was on his path to either be the best or flame out spectacularly, when a chance encounter at an airport bar changes the trajectory of his life.


    What if—hear me out—Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov are competing to be astronauts, the first to live on the moon?

    This story is inspired loosely by Apogee by OpalApparition, which whispered my password and activated me like a sleeper agent.
    I wanted more of them as astronauts. What’s more? What if there’s a moon base?
    So, here it is. I hope someone else out there enjoys reading this little fever dream of mine.

    P.S. No AI was used in the creation of this. Fuck AI so much, forever.

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    96,003
    Chapters:
    16/?
    Comments:
    133
    Kudos:
    35
    Bookmarks:
    37
    Hits:
    1,864

    20 Jun 2026

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    "Do you want children?"

    It should have been a simple question, a yes or no answer, and Shane knew that Ilya wanted children, because he did, too. they talked about it before they got married and briefly after they got married. But as their heat and rut approaches, something they have never shared before, Shane wonders if it might be time to talk about the next part of their relationship. But when Shane gets an answer he's not expecting, he starts going down a rabbit hole to confirm that this is actually what he wants.

    Occurs after the Long Game. Canon divergence and is set in Omegaverse. Mix of TV and book elements.

    Will be updated every 4-6 days. Last update: June 27th

    Language:
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    Words:
    598,356
    Chapters:
    54/70
    Comments:
    1,442
    Kudos:
    4,284
    Bookmarks:
    1,172
    Hits:
    289,310

    20 Jun 2026

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    Shane Hollander is a university student trying his best. He is managing three jobs, two majors, and one sexuality crisis that threatens to upend his hockey career before it even starts. When his best friend, Rose, begs him to come with her to an exclusive BDSM club to let loose and experiment, Shane cannot believe it when he caves to her demands and agrees. Oh and it just so happens that unbeknownst to Shane the club is owned by a Russian mob boss. But really, what could go wrong?

    ***

    Or the one where organized crime boss Ilya meets hockey-playing uni student Shane and big feelings and kinky shenanigans unfold

    Updates 2-3x per week <3

    Language:
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    Words:
    160,980
    Chapters:
    35/?
    Comments:
    2,208
    Kudos:
    2,843
    Bookmarks:
    1,030
    Hits:
    118,755

    20 Jun 2026

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