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    “Hollander,” Ilya murmured gently. “Bath is ready.”

    Shane cracked his eyes open, staring dumbly at the burly Russian hovering over him where he was still laying in bed.

    “…bath?” He croaked, voice raspy with disuse.

    “Mm. I ran you a bath. It will make you feel better before you go to sleep tonight. Will help with your sore muscles.”

    Shane asks Ilya to fuck him gently during one of their regular hookups, badly bruised from their game. Ilya runs him a bath afterwards, and they fall secretly and desperately in love that way, through whispered confessions and late night conversations while Shane soaks, and Ilya quietly observes him.

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    23 Jun 2026

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    Ilya knows that letting himself become too attached to Hollander would be disastrous for both of them. He is also intimately aware of the fact that sometimes life is cruel and short. Therefore, he believes that he should enjoy it while he can. He regards Vegas as proof that he is capable of indulging in Hollander without allowing it to mean more than it should. He simply needs to maintain that strategy come October.

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    This story expands on scenes from the season 1 episode 4 montage as a way to explore the mental gymnastics of how Ilya gets from Vegas 2014 to asking Shane to stay over in Boston pre-tunameltdown.

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    23 Jun 2026

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    It isn’t all just fucking in the years between Sochi and tuna melts; there are also moments of tenderness. Shane isn’t sure what to do with these moments, how to piece them together into a cohesive picture of who Rozanov is, or what they are to each other. This is one of those times.

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    23 Jun 2026

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    Ilya is still feeling slightly off his axis after peering into Hollander’s past. The sweetness of it trickling into the gaping wounds today wrought inside him along with the domesticity of this moment, of waiting for Hollander to come home, of seeing the pieces of Shane that are tucked safe in this house. But Shane strolls right over to him on the couch, straddles his lap, hands gliding across Ilya’s shoulders and interlocking behind his neck like it’s the most natural thing in the world. And maybe it is by now, maybe this, their bodies interlocking seamlessly, is the easiest decision they have to make. 

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    I wanted more of the montage from the start of Episode 4. So we're doing a dive into 2016 and Ilya's journey to deciding he's gonna ask Shane to stay and make him a tuna melt.

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    23 Jun 2026

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    As a straight man, Ilya Rozanov has never had a gay roommate before, but it’s going pretty well. Shane Hollander is kind, silly, and an even bigger hockey nut than Ilya.

    So when Shane starts bringing men over, and Ilya begins to want to bash their fucking heads in, Ilya comes to a startling conclusion: He must be homophobic.

    (He’s jealous.)

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    22 Jun 2026