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the awful daring of a moment’s surrender by mllekurtz (TheKnittingJedi)
Fandoms: Critical Role (Web Series)
22 Nov 2021
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Caleb has never had a place he could call home that wasn’t also taken from him, and perhaps the same can be said for Essek. And now Caleb has made one for him.
Essek doesn't want to be in it alone, tonight.
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- Part 2 of to make an end
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29 Jun 2026
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surely some revelation is at hand by mllekurtz (TheKnittingJedi)
Fandoms: Critical Role (Web Series)
14 Jun 2021
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Essek has two thoughts, one after the other.
The first is that he is very much in love with this man. He has known for a while, but here, now, he lets himself feel it.
The second is that Caleb might be in love with him as well.
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- Part 1 of to make an end
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29 Jun 2026
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Essek Thelyss has never heard anyone tell him that they love him.
Until now. Until every member of the Mighty Nein says it, one by one, each in their own strange way.
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28 Jun 2026
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Ilya died, yes, but then the doctors saved him. Cardiopulmonary resuscitation in the ambulance, three electric shocks, two emergency surgeries, twenty-six units of blood. Ilya died, but then he came back.
If only Shane could get his subconscious to understand that.
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- Part 1 of my anonymous heated rivalry fic
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28 Mar 2026
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corner of the world by berrycluv
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
31 Dec 2025
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Ilya doesn’t even realize when Arthur slips from his thoughts. There’s no sharp turn, no clear moment where the article stops being about a little boy who loves reptiles and starts being about the man lying beside him in bed. It just… happens. The way his mind always seems to find Shane eventually, like water finding its lowest point.
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a character study on shane’s undiagnosed autism
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26 Feb 2026
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Such a Pretty Crier by Bruja_oscura
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
29 Dec 2025
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Shane is still learning that he doesn't have to be perfect in his own relationship. Ilya is still learning the rules of Shane's bad days. So when Shane tries to push him away after a crushing loss, it leads to a tense argument. But ten years of rivalry are no match for Shane’s tears; the second he starts to cry, Ilya folds like a house of cards.
Or: Shane tries to starve himself as punishment for losing, Ilya tries to feed him, and it turns into a very soft night of pampering because Ilya is legally incapable of staying angry at a crying Shane.
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26 Feb 2026
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it's a long way down by carnalapples
Fandoms: Warhammer 40.000: Rogue Trader (Video Game)
27 Dec 2024
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Dying, Heinrix finds, is not so terrible. When he’s torn apart like this, he has Kavya freely; for a few moments, before the pain and the betrayal, he loves and he is loved without consequence.
Everything, of course, has a consequence. But in the beginning, it is worth it.
Spoilers for Act 3.
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24 Aug 2025
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and it feels like the start (of a movie i've seen before) by OceanSpray5
Fandoms: Lockwood & Co. (TV), Lockwood & Co. - Jonathan Stroud
29 Mar 2023
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Lockwood has never been able to stop wondering if he adapted parts of his parents that weren't so obvious to him every time he looks in the mirror. He's never had anyone left to tell him he walks with a stride just like his father's or his lilt while he speaks is just like his mother's.
He's never been able to remember how his mother threw his head back in a laugh the same way he does or the way his father ran his hands through his hair in frustration, messing it up until it stood in spikes in the exact same way his son does. He doesn’t remember clearly enough to draw the comparison himself.
He’s walked around with pieces of his parents he no longer recognizes for seventeen years, none the wiser of where they came from. So it takes a while for it to sink in, that the reason the things he does for Lucy feel like déjà vu, is because they're all the ways he's seen his father love his mother.
or, 5 times Lockwood repeats acts of service for Lucy that he's seen his father do for his mother and the 1 time George finally gets peace from their pining (and some of Lockwood's vulnerability as well).
For Locklyle Week Day 5: Love Languages
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28 Nov 2023
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Rest Your Weary Head by mliz18
Fandoms: Lockwood & Co. - Jonathan Stroud, Lockwood & Co. (TV)
18 Apr 2023
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"They cracked open the door to the second room, hoping for enough beds for two, only to be met with identical peeling wallpaper and an identical sagging queen bed.
They looked at the bed, and then looked at each other. "
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Five Times Lockwood and Lucy Happened to Share a Bed, and One Time They Meant To.Series
- Part 1 of Locklyle my beloved
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27 Nov 2023
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but when the sun came up i was looking at you by paperclipbitch
Fandoms: Lockwood & Co. (TV), Lockwood & Co. - Jonathan Stroud
27 Feb 2023
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“When did you last sleep?” Lucy stumbles at last, clumsy and more obvious than she meant it to be, but maybe there are no good opening lines at moments like this.
Another one of those slow, brittle blinks. “Thursday,” Lockwood says, his voice sounding far away, untethered.
She frowns. “Which Thursday?”
“A Thursday.” Lockwood tilts his head slightly, a statue coming to slow life. “We still have those, don’t we?”
-- or, Five Times Lucy Carlyle and Anthony Lockwood Accidentally Ended Up Sharing A Bed
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27 Nov 2023
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starry eyes sparking up my darkest night by agents_cxrter
Fandoms: Lockwood & Co. (TV), Lockwood & Co. - Jonathan Stroud
20 Feb 2023
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“So, you’re taking Lucy and not me for the manpower?”
“Er, partly.” Lockwood grimaces. “But mostly because the party is for married couples only and no offense George, but you’re not my type.”
Lucy chokes on an unfortunately timed sip of tea.
“I am offended, actually.” George says thoughtfully as he bites into his final slice of toast. “But I’ll get over it on my way to the archives to do some more research.”
Or: Lucy and Lockwood go undercover as a fake couple despite their very real feelings.
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26 Nov 2023
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At Jacobs, they call it the hangover. Classes didn’t teach about it so they had to make their own language. Obviously kids with the Touch as their primary get it the worst, but the rest of them aren’t immune. One particularly rough case, one too many moments of overexertion, and you’d be taking some of the ghost back home with you.
(or: Three times the trio takes care of their own.)
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26 Nov 2023
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13 Apr 2023
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When I Wake Up, There Are Only Your Eyes to Greet Mine by virgodream for k_crow
Fandoms: The Sandman (TV 2022)
31 Mar 2023
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Five times Sergeant Robert Gadling woke up to Captain Morpheus Apeiron. One time Morpheus woke up to Hob.
A very unlucky battalion finds itself in the command of one Captain Morpheus Apeiron. He doesn't seem particularly worried with their survival, but mostly with ending the war as soon as possible. Sergeant Robert Gadling seems to be the only thing keeping all these young and inexperienced soldiers alive. After one particularly heated fight between them, Hob ends up discovering there is much more to his Captain than meets the eye, but is he seeing Morpheus as he truly is, or through the prism of his own desire?
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This fic is part of the 1st Dreamling Nation Fic Exchange
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10 Apr 2023
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It has had many names over the years - Melancholia is the one he is most familiar with, but Depression is the modern day term.
Hob Gadling had hoped that for once, he would escape its clutches after his centennial visit from his stranger (now friend). Especially with the promise of another visit much sooner than one hundred years.
However, he's not that lucky - but this time, he has something he did not have before. A friend, who is not willing to be driven away.
UPDATE: Now with epilogue chapter!
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16 Mar 2023
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In 1689, Hob Gadling and Dream meet once more, after Hob has lost everything. That night, their meeting goes on longer than expected when the conversation turns to what it means to live, to lose, and to be the fathers of dead sons. Unable to bear the thought of sending a man who so echoes Dream's own grief back into the night alone, Dream breaks his own rule and invites Hob to stay with him for a time, at least until he can get back on his feet.
The story of two grief-stricken, divorced, and widowed fathers to sons they lost too young truly seeing one another and there, at their lowest point, doing their best to put themselves and each other back together.
In the upcoming sequel, "Keeping Sanctuary" we follow Hob and Dream from 1690 to the modern era, and see how a small change to one centennial meeting would alter their lives forever.
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02 Mar 2023
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One day, in spring, he comes to the Inn.
Hob looks up and he’s there, and the relief is blinding. He thinks tu m’as manqué, fuck, because you were missing from me feels more true than I missed you ever has. English missing was ruined for him the moment he learned the French way of it. Longing is meant to be a reflexive verb.
It would be a bad faith translation, even for him. He tells himself this is why he doesn’t say it.
He thinks at last, and that’s a doable one. So he smiles, says, “You’re late.”
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25 Feb 2023
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Dulce et decorum est by Moorishflower for maybemalapert (laconicisms)
Fandoms: The Sandman (Comics), The Sandman (TV 2022)
05 Dec 2022
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"This one is a special case," Burgess says. "He is a war hero. Do you understand? You will be on your best behavior. You know what happens when you are not."
Two years into his imprisonment, and Dream of the Endless has not given Roderick Burgess what he wants. Yet if he cannot have back his son, then he will have whatever else Dream has to give, and sell it to the highest bidder: body, powers, and all.
Hob Gadling, newly back from the Western Front, has barely slept since 1889, and is desperate for any sort of relief, even that peddled by mad old men claiming to be warlocks.
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11 Feb 2023
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Those who have yet to decide by Moorishflower
Fandoms: The Sandman (Comics), The Sandman (TV 2022)
02 Dec 2022
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"I’ve got a thing coming up next week," Hob says, "Rocky Horror themed, if you’ll believe it. Have no idea how they got that past Doctor Smythe, but here we are. Are you interested in coming with?"
Dream of the Endless attends a party, loves his boyfriend, helps his boyfriend into a corset, lusts after his boyfriend, and is allowed to have a queer identity, as a treat.
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- 18,130
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- 1/1
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- 141
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11 Feb 2023
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Hob is summoned to a Dreaming under siege, and finds Dream holding off the enemy on his own.
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10 Feb 2023