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  1. Public Bookmark 69

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    Ilya is such a fucking sleaze.

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    18 Jul 2026

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    Ilya is such a fucking sleaze.

  2. Public Bookmark 72

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    Less than eight weeks before their first wedding anniversary, at breakfast, Ilya told Shane that he wanted to fly into London earlier than planned.

    He was freshly showered, curls damp and water-darkened, after their morning run. Shane was already furrowing his eyebrows, finding himself revisiting departure times and flight change fees for their Business Class tickets and how to tell his mother than the meeting with Calvin Klein needed to be rescheduled, again, except:

    Ilya leaned forward, palms flat against the white granite of their kitchen island. “I want,” he said, bluntly, “to see Sasha.”

    Somehow, the “healing” process fraudulent therapists talk about includes, among other things, a vacation in London, old wounds, new tattoos, mind-altering substances, and a Berlinesque techno sex club.

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    18 Jul 2026

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    Less than eight weeks before their first wedding anniversary, at breakfast, Ilya told Shane that he wanted to fly into London earlier than planned.

    He was freshly showered, curls damp and water-darkened, after their morning run. Shane was already furrowing his eyebrows, finding himself revisiting departure times and flight change fees for their Business Class tickets and how to tell his mother than the meeting with Calvin Klein needed to be rescheduled, again, except:

    Ilya leaned forward, palms flat against the white granite of their kitchen island. “I want,” he said, bluntly, “to see Sasha.”

    Somehow, the “healing” process fraudulent therapists talk about includes, among other things, a vacation in London, old wounds, new tattoos, mind-altering substances, and a Berlinesque techno sex club.

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    Shane thinks about dying all the time. It's a lot funnier than it sounds.

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    17 Jul 2026

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    Shane thinks about dying all the time. It's a lot funnier than it sounds.

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    butcherbf

    Posts about #snuff and #forcemasc

    24sbug: Hi! Sorry if this is weird, I’m new to using tumblr like this. I’m not sure if it’s okay to message people, but you follow me back so I figured it’s probably okay. Please tell me if it’s not! Or don’t reply. Whichever. Sorry again if this is weird I just wanted to say hi

    24sbug: I really like your blog

    24sbug: I’m not sure if that’s like weird to say haha

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    15 Jul 2026

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    butcherbf

    Posts about #snuff and #forcemasc

    24sbug: Hi! Sorry if this is weird, I’m new to using tumblr like this. I’m not sure if it’s okay to message people, but you follow me back so I figured it’s probably okay. Please tell me if it’s not! Or don’t reply. Whichever. Sorry again if this is weird I just wanted to say hi

    24sbug: I really like your blog

    24sbug: I’m not sure if that’s like weird to say haha

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    Scent patches were mandatory for anyone participating in World Junior's, but a lot of the Russian guys Shane saw in the hotel or around the rink had them loosely attached to their necks or not quite centered over their scent gland. Shane had been on his way to his parents' car when the wind shifted, and he smelled that Rozanov, leaning against the wall and not-at-all-surreptitiously fishing a carton of cigarettes out of his pocket, must have been one of them.

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    06 Jul 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    Scent patches were mandatory for anyone participating in World Junior's, but a lot of the Russian guys Shane saw in the hotel or around the rink had them loosely attached to their necks or not quite centered over their scent gland. Shane had been on his way to his parents' car when the wind shifted, and he smelled that Rozanov, leaning against the wall and not-at-all-surreptitiously fishing a carton of cigarettes out of his pocket, must have been one of them.

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    Rozanov pins Shane down, fucks into him like he almost hates him, gets a hand around his cock, rough and deliberate, and says it low against his ear—go ahead, try it. Say her name one more time, I fucking dare you—and Shane opens his mouth and sobs into the pillow and nothing else comes out. Just tears and the blood under his nails from Rozanov's back. Then he finds the angle he's been finding since Nashville, and the name is gone entirely.

    That's also, more or less, the point.

    Shane hates him for that. He hates him the way you hate something that keeps being right about you.

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    Or: Shane spends nine years building a structure so airtight it functions as a personality, and Ilya Rozanov spends nine years being the single thing that doesn't fit inside it.

    Featuring crazy situationship sex, the complications of sometimes being a terrible person, and one unhinged fixation on Svetlana Vetrova, 31 photos deep, that was never about Svetlana Vetrova.

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    19 Jun 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    Rozanov pins Shane down, fucks into him like he almost hates him, gets a hand around his cock, rough and deliberate, and says it low against his ear—go ahead, try it. Say her name one more time, I fucking dare you—and Shane opens his mouth and sobs into the pillow and nothing else comes out. Just tears and the blood under his nails from Rozanov's back. Then he finds the angle he's been finding since Nashville, and the name is gone entirely.

    That's also, more or less, the point.

    Shane hates him for that. He hates him the way you hate something that keeps being right about you.

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    Or: Shane spends nine years building a structure so airtight it functions as a personality, and Ilya Rozanov spends nine years being the single thing that doesn't fit inside it.

    Featuring crazy situationship sex, the complications of sometimes being a terrible person, and one unhinged fixation on Svetlana Vetrova, 31 photos deep, that was never about Svetlana Vetrova.

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    “Oh, fuck off,” he snaps. “I don’t want to do this right now, Rozanov.”

    “Then why did you pick up?” Rozanov asks, voice still low. He asks it as if he doesn’t need an answer.

    Ilya calls Shane whenever he wants. Shane doesn’t know why he always answers.

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    07 Jun 2026

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    “Oh, fuck off,” he snaps. “I don’t want to do this right now, Rozanov.”

    “Then why did you pick up?” Rozanov asks, voice still low. He asks it as if he doesn’t need an answer.

    Ilya calls Shane whenever he wants. Shane doesn’t know why he always answers

  8. Public Bookmark 60

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    Post-cottage. Shane gets into an disagreement with his mom.

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    28 May 2026

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    Post-cottage. Shane gets into an disagreement with his mom.

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    "Rozy," Brian, the team doctor says, "talk to me, buddy. That puck clipped you pretty good, how’s the pain?"

    Ilya blinks. He clenches his jaw against a wave of nausea. He rests his cheek on the ice, and the cold helps a little.

    "Bad. Very bad." He swallows. "Is Shane here?"

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    or, in the final MTL/BOS game of the year, ilya takes a puck to the head.

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    25 May 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    "Rozy," Brian, the team doctor says, "talk to me, buddy. That puck clipped you pretty good, how’s the pain?"

    Ilya blinks. He clenches his jaw against a wave of nausea. He rests his cheek on the ice, and the cold helps a little.

    "Bad. Very bad." He swallows. "Is Shane here?"

    -

    or, in the final MTL/BOS game of the year, ilya takes a puck to the head.

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    Shane was there when Ilya got the call, his arm heavy across Ilya's stomach, like even in sleep he could tell something was trying to take Ilya away from him.

    When Boston realize Ilya wants out, they send him to the highest bidder. The highest bidder is LA.

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    25 May 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    Shane was there when Ilya got the call, his arm heavy across Ilya's stomach, like even in sleep he could tell something was trying to take Ilya away from him.

    When Boston realize Ilya wants out, they send him to the highest bidder. The highest bidder is LA

  11. Public Bookmark 69

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    Why are you here; why are we here? Ilya kisses the girl in front of him. The kiss lasts seventeen seconds, Shane counts, what are we doing? Ilya is dragging the tender, ugly parts of them out here for everyone to see. Seventeen seconds, or at least until Rose leans in and Shane insistently presses his mouth on hers to remind himself of what he wants.

    The kiss breaks. Shane has to leave, his body lurching. When he meets Ilya's eyes, he sees the gesture for what it really is: a reminder of his place.

    or; Shane tries. He really does.

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    15 May 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    Why are you here; why are we here? Ilya kisses the girl in front of him. The kiss lasts seventeen seconds, Shane counts, what are we doing? Ilya is dragging the tender, ugly parts of them out here for everyone to see. Seventeen seconds, or at least until Rose leans in and Shane insistently presses his mouth on hers to remind himself of what he wants.

    The kiss breaks. Shane has to leave, his body lurching. When he meets Ilya's eyes, he sees the gesture for what it really is: a reminder of his place.

    or; Shane tries. He really does.

  12. Public Bookmark 66

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    Did you hear about Laurette’s boy? Cliff, the oldest one. He got drafted to the Boston Raiders. Heard he’s doing well for himself.

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    10 May 2026

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    Did you hear about Laurette’s boy? Cliff, the oldest one. He got drafted to the Boston Raiders. Heard he’s doing well for himself.

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    Rush week confirms a lot of things. Ambitions, fears. Where do I fit? What if I don’t fit anywhere? Nervous freshman bitten-lip shit. Being an active, a senior, means having answers. Shane has no further questions.

    Or, Shane’s in a frat. Ilya rushes.

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    05 May 2026

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    Rush week confirms a lot of things. Ambitions, fears. Where do I fit? What if I don’t fit anywhere? Nervous freshman bitten-lip shit. Being an active, a senior, means having answers. Shane has no further questions.

    Or, Shane’s in a frat. Ilya rushes.

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    Shane had been up for hours already. He'd showered and shaved, then came back to bed and tucked himself under the covers, arranged them to look like he'd never left. His eyes were big and dark and too fucking awake for 6AM on a day they had nothing to do and nowhere to be.

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    28 Apr 2026

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    Shane had been up for hours already. He'd showered and shaved, then came back to bed and tucked himself under the covers, arranged them to look like he'd never left. His eyes were big and dark and too fucking awake for 6AM on a day they had nothing to do and nowhere to be.

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    Every Boston Raider knows that although their captain has a girl in every port, he’s got a soft spot for the one in Montreal. Dr. Shane Hollander knows it’s better to have a semi-regular source of casual sex than try to make a relationship work during residency. Ilya Rozanov knows that the doctor he’s fucking in Montreal is unaware that he plays hockey, and in fact probably thinks he’s Bratva.

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    19 Apr 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    Every Boston Raider knows that although their captain has a girl in every port, he’s got a soft spot for the one in Montreal. Dr. Shane Hollander knows it’s better to have a semi-regular source of casual sex than try to make a relationship work during residency. Ilya Rozanov knows that the doctor he’s fucking in Montreal is unaware that he plays hockey, and in fact probably thinks he’s Bratva.

  16. Public Bookmark 78

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    Bodies are easy, warm, and solid, not hazy like memories. Ilya likes his: likes how it looks, how strong it is, how fast it can go. What he likes even more is watching it collide with others: on the ice, in the club, on rumpled sheets of nondescript hotel rooms. Like a vulture addicted to flesh, Ilya circles the periphery of danger, searching for warmth, hooking his sharp claws into anything that touches. If sometimes those things leave him ravenous, so be it. He’s never one to beg again.

    Ilya moved to Ottawa for Shane. This is him in his first real relationship.

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    17 Apr 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    Bodies are easy, warm, and solid, not hazy like memories. Ilya likes his: likes how it looks, how strong it is, how fast it can go. What he likes even more is watching it collide with others: on the ice, in the club, on rumpled sheets of nondescript hotel rooms. Like a vulture addicted to flesh, Ilya circles the periphery of danger, searching for warmth, hooking his sharp claws into anything that touches. If sometimes those things leave him ravenous, so be it. He’s never one to beg again.

    Ilya moved to Ottawa for Shane. This is him in his first real relationship.

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    AU where one of Shane’s rookies comes out early on in his career. Organized in chronological order.

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    17 Apr 2026

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    AU where one of Shane’s rookies comes out early on in his career. Organized in chronological order.

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    Walking back to the restaurant in a daze he had sobbed at random, at the sheer look of Moscow in the night, thinking, this is literally it. I’ll never come back. And maybe he would, but so far down the line that all would be totally unrecognizable. The orange light, the blue light against the snow. His nose running. Cars buried in snow, cars buried in snow.

    Moscow, Shane's cottage, Boston, New York.

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    16 Apr 2026

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    Walking back to the restaurant in a daze he had sobbed at random, at the sheer look of Moscow in the night, thinking, this is literally it. I’ll never come back. And maybe he would, but so far down the line that all would be totally unrecognizable. The orange light, the blue light against the snow. His nose running. Cars buried in snow, cars buried in snow.

    Moscow, Shane's cottage, Boston, New York.

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    Roz: it’s weird with her
    Roz: idk if anyone else ever has this happen
    Roz: but I can’t get enough from her
    Roz: usually after sex with someone I am done
    Roz: but the more I have of Jane, the more I want
    Roz: weird, right?

    Hammer: sounds like you’re falling for her, Rozy

    Roz: no, no
    Roz: like, sometimes I want to see her even after sex
    Roz: or text her but not dick pics
    Roz: weird feeling, like horny but for talking or hanging out
    Roz: its confusing, hard to explain

    Cliff: you’re literally just describing liking a person

    Cliff Marleau's seen his captain through some crazy times and some wild crash outs. This is a little foray into some of the group chats and nights out with the boys. Especially when Cap is in his feels about his Montreal Girl.

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    15 Apr 2026

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    Roz: it’s weird with her
    Roz: idk if anyone else ever has this happen
    Roz: but I can’t get enough from her
    Roz: usually after sex with someone I am done
    Roz: but the more I have of Jane, the more I want
    Roz: weird, right?

    Hammer: sounds like you’re falling for her, Rozy

    Roz: no, no
    Roz: like, sometimes I want to see her even after sex
    Roz: or text her but not dick pics
    Roz: weird feeling, like horny but for talking or hanging out
    Roz: its confusing, hard to explain

    Cliff: you’re literally just describing liking a person

    Cliff Marleau's seen his captain through some crazy times and some wild crash outs. This is a little foray into some of the group chats and nights out with the boys. Especially when Cap is in his feels about his Montreal Girl.

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    “Shut up,” Rozanov snaps. He whips his head around, crowding Shane towards the wall. A sky-dividing sharpness to his anger, his mineral blue gaze. It fizzles out. “I did not say you are a girl.”

    Shane freezes. His heart opens before he can stop it. “Do you want me to be one?”

    or: Shane does not want Rozanov to make him ask.

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    12 Apr 2026

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    “Shut up,” Rozanov snaps. He whips his head around, crowding Shane towards the wall. A sky-dividing sharpness to his anger, his mineral blue gaze. It fizzles out. “I did not say you are a girl.”

    Shane freezes. His heart opens before he can stop it. “Do you want me to be one?”

    Shane does not want Rozanov to make him ask.

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