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    Life feels so chaotic for Shane sometimes, with all the loud noises and the unwritten rules he’s expected to follow, even though no one ever taught them to him. It’s why the bookstore feels more like home to him than anywhere else in Boston. It doesn’t ask Shane to be anything other than himself. Doesn’t ask for any more than he can give.

    He can just exist here.

    Shane likes slow, likes taking his time. And Ilya - without saying or doing anything in particular - makes Shane feel like that’s okay. Like he isn’t doing anything wrong by standing still sometimes.

    (Or, Shane works in a bookstore, Ilya plays hockey, and they both go to the same college. They fall in love in every universe.)

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    12 Jun 2026

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    Sharing a locker room with Ilya was… challenging. They’d already agreed that it would be best–for everyone–to avoid being in the showers at the same time. That had been a no-brainer. Ilya and Shane were both entirely too handsy when it came to showers. Even the thought of Ilya standing under the hot spray was enough to make Shane’s mouth water. So, the risk was mitigated. Shane would steer clear of the communal showers until Ilya was done. Easy. Simple. No looking at a wet, naked Ilya in front of his peers.

    Unfortunately, Ilya was hot no matter his state of dress. He was especially hot, right now, stood in the middle of the room with his Under Armour leggings clinging to his thighs, his shirt rucked up as he scratched his stomach and spoke casually with Carter Vaughn. Standing right in Shane’s line of sight. The asshole. He was probably doing it on purpose.

    Or: Shane and Ilya attend the All-Stars Weekend for the first time as boyfriends. They're trying their best to keep their secret hidden from their peers whilst also finding time to connect. Set after the cottage during the last year Ilya plays for Boston.

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    27 May 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    Kent gets his shit rocked (derogatory) and then Shane gets his rocked (🍆). Downloaded

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    “Hi Milana,” he murmured, voice gentle. “I’m Ilya, your father’s brother. Did your mama tell you I was coming over?”

    Milana nodded and pulled her bottom lip into her mouth, gaze contemplative as Ilya held out a hand to her. He didn’t touch her, didn’t broach the barrier of the doorframe, just held his palm out, a gesture of vulnerability, exposing soft skin. When he’d been a child, listening out for the sound of his father’s footfalls down the hall, trying to guess at what mood the man was in that day, if today was a day he would likely be hit, those gestures of vulnerability–upturned palms, tears on cheeks–had been the only thing he’d trusted. The wounded animal in his sternum reaching out for comfort, seeking safety in the fragility of others. Proof that he wasn’t the weakest one.

    Or: After spending Christmas with the Hollanders Ilya realises he has unfinished business in Moscow; namely, saying goodbye to his mother's grave and recovering the pieces of his history. Before meeting Shane at the cottage for their second summer together - and before upending his life and moving to another country once again - Ilya decides to return to his home city and attempt to lay his past to rest.

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    27 May 2026

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    Everyone in the NHL wants Shane Hollander. Maybe that should make Ilya feel proud, accomplished, even. Because he's the only one who has ever really had him. The only one who will.
    But really, it only seems to piss him off. Make him possessive.
    Shane kind of likes that.

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    22 May 2026

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    Shane releases what feels like his first exhale in forever—Ilya Rozanov, taken out by the common flu. Not ignoring him. Not ending anything. Still, the knot in his chest doesn’t ease completely with the vision of Ilya unwell and alone in Shane’s head.

    JANE

    Are you at your house?

    LILY

    Where else, Jane?

    JANE

    Don’t fall asleep. I’ll be there soon. 

    LILY

    No, am sick. I told you. 

    JANE

    I heard you. I’ll be there soon.

    Or, Ilya’s sick and Shane wants, and wants, and wants. 

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    17 May 2026

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    When Ilya moves to the Centaurs, the number 81 is already taken. So, in true Ilya Rozanov fashion, he picks the number 24. People think he's just being an asshole, which is true, but he also does it to have Shane with him all the time.
    Of course, years later, Shane transfers to Ottawa. And lo and behold, the player who had number 81 retired, so when Shane has to choose a number?
    81 is available.
    --
    Or, Hollanov end up switching numbers and driving each other insane.

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    12 May 2026

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    "You do realise half of our fans want to fuck you?" Shane exhaled, watching the fireflies dance in the evening sky. Ilya shrugged.
    "They want to fuck all of us, that's how it works. What, do you think they don't want to fuck you?" He lowered his voice, teasing him. "Because I read some interesting things on Twitter."
    "Shut up."
    "You are very popular with the girls. Good boy, bass player, good looks, gentleman, probably they think you are a beast in bed."
    ---

    Shane Hollander is the goody-two-shoes Canadian bassist of Ice Crawlers. Ilya Rozanov is their loud Russian drummer. As the band reaches unprecedented levels of success and fame in the early 2010's, these two can't stay away from each other - even though the last thing their careers need is a sexual scandal between two of the most popular rock stars of their time.

    Rockband AU!

    If you're like me and Hollanov hit you the same way Larry Stylinson did when you were 12, good luck and have fun.

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    08 May 2026

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    Shane works in a world where bodies are accessible to everyone. He is the exception.

    Ilya Rozanov has spent his life in a world where nothing stays out of reach for long.

    In Shane’s world, the rules change. For the first time, he can look, pay, return, obey, and still be left outside.

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    06 May 2026

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    At the age of 22, Shane Hollander has never had sex. Not because he doesn't want to, but because he's strict about only sleeping with someone he's truly committed to. Except for the past few months he's regularly making out with Ilya Rozanov, his best friend of three years, and it drives Ilya so crazy that Shane lets him go jerk off in the bathroom after nothing more than just kissing. But as the weeks pass and the want between them grows, Shane starts to realize that the person he's been waiting for might have been there all along.

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    28 Apr 2026

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    You weren’t supposed to see that,” Shane says, sheepishly.

    Ilya bites the inside of his cheek to keep from laughing. He wants to, god does he want to, but he knows better than that. The last thing he wants is for Shane to feel truly embarrassed or, God forbid, ashamed at what Ilya’s stumbled upon.

    “It’s just hockey cards, Shane. No big deal.” It’s a battle to keep his face neutral, to stop his playful, lazy grin from taking over his face, but he thinks he’s doing a good job of it.

    Shane bites his lip and nervously shifts from foot to foot. “Did you look inside?”

    “I may have peeked,” Ilya admits. “There are a lot of Pike cards. I did not know he was your favorite. I am concerned about your taste.”

    Or:

    Ilya discovers Shane's secret collection of hockey cards and is surprised to see just how many Ilya Rozanov cards Shane has.

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    27 Apr 2026

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    Ethan finally turned away from the game and made his way over to Shane to press up against his back as Shane slipped his shoes on. Shane turned in his arms to kiss Ethan, but as he brought his face closer, Ethan laughed and pulled back to look at him.

    “Wait, you’re not really gonna wear those ugly reading glasses to dinner, are you?”

    Shane’s face flushed as he reached up and took his glasses off before setting them on the side table next to the door. A loud noise startled him and he looked over to see that Ilya had tossed his game controller onto the coffee table haphazardly. He stood up abruptly, nostrils flared and mouth pinched into a tight line as he stalked off to his bedroom, muttering something in Russian along the way.

    or, Shane has a shitty boyfriend that Ilya can't stand because he's in love with him and everyone in the house knows but Shane.

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    24 Apr 2026

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    Shane knew the weight his relationship with Rose carried. It was perfectly balanced, like it was made just for the approximation of his body. He could lift it without strain. No push, no pull.

    He wished so badly for it to be her.

    That was how Shane found himself at Le Ciel, wrapped in the embrace of bright lights and loud bass. He took precautions to avoid situations that might breach his limits. Situations like this one. The sting of alcohol on the air, the scrape of Rose’s dress on his forearms, the empty pit that yawned open in his stomach at the sight of Ilya Rozanov plundering a woman’s ear with his tongue. It was all too much.

    It still wasn’t enough.

    --

    Or: When Ilya gets into a car accident after leaving the club, Shane rushes to his bedside. Rose connects the dots.

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    18 Apr 2026

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    Shane Hollander is a man who thrives on structure, routine, the solid ground of a ten-year plan. Ilya likes that about him, likes the embracing squeeze of having a life organized in tandem with Shane.

    No one would call Ilya a man who thrives on structure. But it’s there, if not in his DNA then in the patterns of his brain. A call-and-response of: they do this, I do that.

    When Ilya’s life is flayed open for the world to dissect, how will they push-and-pull their way back towards what was once a well-organized life?


    “I thought we could go through the schedules and figure out what days we’ll be in the same cities this season, or when either of us have a couple of days off in a row. Maybe make a shared calendar, so we c—”

    “A sex calendar? Your parents are arriving in thirty minutes, and you are proposing making a sex calendar?” Oh, this was delicious. He’d be able to eat out on this for years, if Shane was willing to give him that long.

    “It’s not a sex calendar! It’s just … when we might be able to see each other,” he finished, already sounding defeated.

    “And what are you planning on doing when we are seeing each other? Not fucking?”

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    18 Apr 2026

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    The problem is, no one knows how to market Ilya Rozanov's (in his own words) sexy Euro masculinity to an audience of white straight men.

    He needs the best. And if it happens to be his secret lover’s mother who despises his very existence, so be it.


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    See? That is what I need. Do not care that you are not professional. You are best
    This is Ilya Rozanov

    Yuna

    This is a fucking joke, right?

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    17 Apr 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    So amazing

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    While trying to write to his friend studying abroad in Moscow, Shane Hollander accidentally reaches Ilya Rozanov.

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    16 Apr 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    Genius level coding.

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    Shane Hollander is finally ready to come to terms with his sexuality... he just isn't sure how to go about that. So, thinking it might make things easier, he hires an escort to take him through the first steps.
    Enter Ilya Rozanov, who will give him everything he ever fantasized about, and maybe some more Shane didn't even dare dream of.

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    15 Apr 2026

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    And here is the kitchen, first place aside from the cottage where they'd cooked together. And here is the front closet, where Shane had hidden Ilya's birthday present three years ago only to have it fall on Ilya's head some time in April. And here is the bedroom, where on a night many Octobers ago Shane had looked at Ilya from across the room with a smirk and said No you come here and then he'd let Ilya—
    It's been an emotional day.

    A moment in time at the end of an era. Ilya helps Shane pack up the Montreal apartment.

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    14 Apr 2026

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    At eleven years old Ilya Rozanov's class is given an assignment:

    They will be randomly paired with a student at another school in Canada via email. In order to get full credit on the assignment, they must send at least five emails back and forth and gather enough information to write their project.

    After seven years, Ilya is pretty sure he's done enough for 100%

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    Shane and Ilya sending emails throughout the years. What happens when they meet?

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    13 Apr 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    Genius

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    A few months after the FanMail incident, Yuna Hollander decides to do what she does best. With the added benefit of having another son to lovingly manage, of course. The internet, unsurprisingly, loses its shit.

    Or, Shane and Ilya go on the press run to end all press runs, courtesy of Yuna Hollander.

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    12 Apr 2026

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    "I've been thinking," Ilya murmurs, breath hot against Shane's mouth. "We never tested how many times you can come in an hour. You said two. Now I think you could do four."

    Shane's head spins as all his blood rushes south. "This seems like an awfully complicated distraction," he says.

    He feels Ilya grin against his lips. "So? It's working."

    Shane wants to talk about Ilya's move to Ottawa. Ilya doesn't want to talk much at all.

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    18,637

    11 Apr 2026

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