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    Life feels so chaotic for Shane sometimes, with all the loud noises and the unwritten rules he’s expected to follow, even though no one ever taught them to him. It’s why the bookstore feels more like home to him than anywhere else in Boston. It doesn’t ask Shane to be anything other than himself. Doesn’t ask for any more than he can give.

    He can just exist here.

    Shane likes slow, likes taking his time. And Ilya - without saying or doing anything in particular - makes Shane feel like that’s okay. Like he isn’t doing anything wrong by standing still sometimes.

    (Or, Shane works in a bookstore, Ilya plays hockey, and they both go to the same college. They fall in love in every universe.)

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    12 Jun 2026

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    Sharing a locker room with Ilya was… challenging. They’d already agreed that it would be best–for everyone–to avoid being in the showers at the same time. That had been a no-brainer. Ilya and Shane were both entirely too handsy when it came to showers. Even the thought of Ilya standing under the hot spray was enough to make Shane’s mouth water. So, the risk was mitigated. Shane would steer clear of the communal showers until Ilya was done. Easy. Simple. No looking at a wet, naked Ilya in front of his peers.

    Unfortunately, Ilya was hot no matter his state of dress. He was especially hot, right now, stood in the middle of the room with his Under Armour leggings clinging to his thighs, his shirt rucked up as he scratched his stomach and spoke casually with Carter Vaughn. Standing right in Shane’s line of sight. The asshole. He was probably doing it on purpose.

    Or: Shane and Ilya attend the All-Stars Weekend for the first time as boyfriends. They're trying their best to keep their secret hidden from their peers whilst also finding time to connect. Set after the cottage during the last year Ilya plays for Boston.

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    27 May 2026

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    Kent gets his shit rocked (derogatory) and then Shane gets his rocked (🍆). Downloaded

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    “Hi Milana,” he murmured, voice gentle. “I’m Ilya, your father’s brother. Did your mama tell you I was coming over?”

    Milana nodded and pulled her bottom lip into her mouth, gaze contemplative as Ilya held out a hand to her. He didn’t touch her, didn’t broach the barrier of the doorframe, just held his palm out, a gesture of vulnerability, exposing soft skin. When he’d been a child, listening out for the sound of his father’s footfalls down the hall, trying to guess at what mood the man was in that day, if today was a day he would likely be hit, those gestures of vulnerability–upturned palms, tears on cheeks–had been the only thing he’d trusted. The wounded animal in his sternum reaching out for comfort, seeking safety in the fragility of others. Proof that he wasn’t the weakest one.

    Or: After spending Christmas with the Hollanders Ilya realises he has unfinished business in Moscow; namely, saying goodbye to his mother's grave and recovering the pieces of his history. Before meeting Shane at the cottage for their second summer together - and before upending his life and moving to another country once again - Ilya decides to return to his home city and attempt to lay his past to rest.

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    27 May 2026

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    Everyone in the NHL wants Shane Hollander. Maybe that should make Ilya feel proud, accomplished, even. Because he's the only one who has ever really had him. The only one who will.
    But really, it only seems to piss him off. Make him possessive.
    Shane kind of likes that.

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    22 May 2026

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    Shane releases what feels like his first exhale in forever—Ilya Rozanov, taken out by the common flu. Not ignoring him. Not ending anything. Still, the knot in his chest doesn’t ease completely with the vision of Ilya unwell and alone in Shane’s head.

    JANE

    Are you at your house?

    LILY

    Where else, Jane?

    JANE

    Don’t fall asleep. I’ll be there soon. 

    LILY

    No, am sick. I told you. 

    JANE

    I heard you. I’ll be there soon.

    Or, Ilya’s sick and Shane wants, and wants, and wants. 

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    17 May 2026