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    Stealth trans, autistic Shane Hollander faces his own personal nightmare when a sudden period outs him to his hockey rival/secret crush Ilya Rosanov.

     

    TLDR: Shane and Ilya stay in a hotel, and there's only one bed! Menstruation, coming out, smut and feelings follow!

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    Shane Hollander might be Canada's latest hockey phenom, but he's harboring a huge secret that could end his career. He's FTM trans. Shane is determined to keep his identity under wraps, but then Ilya Rozanov enters his life and keeping secrets becomes ten times harder.

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    Shane Hollander goes on LTIR just before the Sochi Olympics with no public statement and an outpour of fan theories and media speculation. For the next two years of radio silence, Ilya grapples with the ghost of a relationship that could never be but almost was, wondering what he’d done wrong, yes—but mostly just coming to terms with the fact that his worry fits best by another name; one that neither of them can afford to call it.

    In 2017, Shane returns to reclaim his position on the ice opposite Ilya, but things are different now. Ilya worries that there's someone else, and there is.

    Just not in the way he'd expected.

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    18 Jun 2026

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    "This is Ilya Rozanov," Hayden says. "You might have to hospitalise him if you want to play center anytime soon."

    "Noted," Shane says, sipping his drink to avoid that intense gaze.

    "You are Shane Hollander, yes? I have heard of you."

    "Yeah?" Shane feels himself bristle. His acceptance into a men's league last year as a trans man did get some low-level coverage. He stands straighter, ready for some insult about -

    "Mm, yes. My friend took me to see final of your league last year. You scored big hat-trick to win game." He takes a slow sip of his clear drink. "But backhand is a bit weak."

    "Weak backhand?" Shane scoffs.

    "Yes. Is okay, I will teach you. Maybe let you play center once or twice during season."

    "That's not happening." Shane feels anger running under his skin, but relief as well, that the guy was just chirping his hockey skills. "Thanks for your generous offer, though."

    t4t hollanov tboys play on the same hockey team in uni - out/early transition shane x stealth ilya

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    18 Jun 2026

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    The summer before his second season with the Centaurs, Shane Hollander is supposed to have his body and his life under control. He’s married, training hard, doing everything right.

    So the nausea, the bone-deep exhaustion, the aching chest and low back, the way his body feels wrong in all the old ways he thought he’d outrun?

    He blames stress. He blames the season. He blames anything but himself.

    Shane knows his body. He has spent years fighting for it.

    But one rushed doctor’s visit turns into an ultrasound, and suddenly he’s thirty-plus weeks pregnant with a baby he didn’t plan, didn’t want, and doesn’t know how to make peace with.

    Now he can’t outrun anything anymore.
    Not the dysphoria. Not the fear of the league finding out.
    Not the family he’s already carrying.

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    hi i need more trans!shane hollander. and as a trans man who wants to get pregnant someday obviously i had to make shane pregnant. without him knowing though. sorry bb

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