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    Life feels so chaotic for Shane sometimes, with all the loud noises and the unwritten rules he’s expected to follow, even though no one ever taught them to him. It’s why the bookstore feels more like home to him than anywhere else in Boston. It doesn’t ask Shane to be anything other than himself. Doesn’t ask for any more than he can give.

    He can just exist here.

    Shane likes slow, likes taking his time. And Ilya - without saying or doing anything in particular - makes Shane feel like that’s okay. Like he isn’t doing anything wrong by standing still sometimes.

    (Or, Shane works in a bookstore, Ilya plays hockey, and they both go to the same college. They fall in love in every universe.)

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    20 Jun 2026

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    Shane Hollander is a straight man. So what if he can't get hard every time he tries to have sex with a woman? So what if he drinks himself silly just so he has an excuse to sneak into his captains bedroom?

    He was straight.

    Right?

    Or

    Shane Hollander is convinced he's straight, Ilya Rozanov convinces him otherwise.

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    19 Jun 2026

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    Eight years after their divorce, Ilya and Shane have become experts at avoiding each other. They only speak when absolutely necessary, never hold each other's gaze for too long, barely make eye contact, and never talk about what happened. But ignoring one another becomes nearly impossible when they're still raising two children.
    One day, Ilya gets into what seems to be a serious argument with their oldest daughter, and Shane is forced to step in. Suddenly, everything they've spent years avoiding begins to surface.

    or,

    Shane was about to break an unspoken rule.
    Because every time he and Ilya got together to talk, they ended up fucking.

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    16 Jun 2026

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    “Ilya,” Shane whispers. “Ilya, baby, can you open your eyes?”

    He’s met with silence, and the frantic tremor of his heart turns into an earthquake. The ice beneath him seeps into his veins and freezes his blood. Panic claws at his chest, scaling his ribcage like a ladder and lodging in his throat. He can barely breathe around the terror.

    “Ilya, you need to open your eyes. You need to look at me.”

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    09 Jun 2026

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    Ilya liked Shane’s parents. He really did. David and Yuna Hollander were entirely devoted to their only child–maybe sometimes a bit intense, if not a little overbearing, in Yuna’s case–and their attentiveness had moulded him into a kind, hardworking, and thoughtful man. Truly, their son was a testament to the quality of both their character’s–Shane’s soft underbelly nurtured by his father’s patient tone and earnest gaze and his shrewdness and talent sharpened by his mother’s fierce mettle. Shane was the sum of his parent’s parts, yet entirely his own, and Ilya was very grateful to the tender, yet firm, hands that had shaped the man he loved. But right now, well, right now Ilya was not their biggest fan.

    Jane:
    My parents are going to be staying at my place after the game on Friday.

    Ilya missed Shane. Ilya really needed to have sex with Shane. Now the man's parents were in the way.

    Or: Ilya is finally seeing Shane for the first time since their summer at the cottage but Shane's parents crash their first evening alone in weeks. Set during that agonising final season Ilya plays for Boston.

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    06 Jun 2026