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    After Montreal, Shane believed he had given Ilya something that mattered. Six months of silence later, he begins to wonder if it was ever anything more than something taken.

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    If only—if only Shane can slide back to bed, to fall asleep beside Ilya and wake up beside him, to just pretend that the outside world does not exist. Shane would like to learn the shapes of Ilya’s routines, the things that make him laugh when he is tired, the expression he wears first thing in the morning before he remembers to hide himself from the world, yet safe in the knowledge that he doesn’t need to hide it from Shane.

    Somehow, without meaning to, his mind has leapt much further than that, to tomorrow, and every tomorrow after tomorrow, all the same with Ilya in his arms. Shane realizes, with a careless certainty like a dream, that he can do this forever.

    And oh, isn’t that a terrifying thought? To look at another person and discover that your mind and your heart have begun to create pieces of the future around them without your permission?

    Or: Shane confronts the truth that he has spent years running from, following the aftermath of his disastrous night with Rose. In the stillness of Tampa, he shows Ilya just exactly how much he means it.

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    22 Jul 2026

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    Shane trusted Ilya to catch the things he didn’t.

    Maybe he became too reliant on that, and that's how he let things get this bad.

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    Ilya Rozanov has a problem with self-harm, and Shane is slowly finding that out.

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    22 Jul 2026

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    Lily: You left your shoes here.

    Shane frowns, looking down at his feet that are only covered by his black dress socks. Fuck. He walked out without shoes? He hadn't even noticed.

    or, Shane leaves the Vegas penthouse without his shoes. He might also be having a panic attack.

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    22 Jul 2026

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    “It really fucking hurt to just be ignored for six months.”

    Ilya looks at him again, nodding as he runs his finger along Shane’s bare collarbone. He shifts so that he’s lying beside Shane more than hovering on top of him, but keeps touching him and doesn’t go far.

    “You can call me sensitive or whatever, but I don’t think I can do this if you’re just going to ignore me for another six months or however long after we say goodbye tonight.” Shane continues, trying to subtly wipe his wet eyes but of course Ilya notices.

    “Hollander-” He reaches up to wipe the tears away, but Shane lightly pushes his hand away and shakes his head.

    “I guess I’m not cut out for casual.” He whispers. “Because this has never really felt like nothing to me, and I can’t pretend that it is. You aren’t nothing to me.”

    or, the boys talk in Vegas because they can't fight their feelings anymore.

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