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  1. Public Bookmark 51

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    The nights were already cold and Berlin's streets were poorly lit, but Shane didn't mind. Berlin wasn't a pretty city; apartment blocks repeated themselves in washed-out mustard tones, aseptic blues and greens, off-putting reds. The windows of the newer buildings were so small he wondered if those rooms even got any light.

    Now that he thought about it, he could barely remember Hannover's architecture. He'd never paid attention. Hannover simply was.

    How many things in his life simply 'were'? When was the last time something had demanded his full attention?

    Or: Shane and Ilya meet in an erotic massage parlor in Berlin in 2012. They're both sex workers.

    Or: an exploration of desire as a world-building force.

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    19 Jun 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    How have I not already bookmarked this one? I really really thought I had. One of my absolute favorites, such a beautifully clear and intentional voice, the narrative style informs story in a really specific and emotionally resonant way. The feelings and sensory experience is so visceral and beautiful and their emotional evolution feels real.

    Excellent read

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    The best way to describe this work, I think, is as a novelization of the television series told from Ilya Rozanov's point of view. What happens in the series will happen, more or less, in this work.

    Please note, I did read both Heated Rivalry and The Long Game by Rachel Reid, but that was some time ago and my recollection of them is spotty at best. Because they are novels and this is a written story, I did NOT consult the books in order to reduce the chance that I would inadvertently plagiarize them. That means that where the television series leaves a gap in the narrative, I may fill it with something very different than what happens in the books. We will all end up at the cottage, but some of us are taking a slightly different path to get there.

    This novelization means that potentially triggering things that happen in the series (like mental health issues) will happen in this work. NOTE, HOWEVER, no new issues will be added in this work. No one dies. No one is outed. No one is assaulted. This is just the story of the show as if it were from Ilya's point of view.

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    29 May 2026

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    One of my all time favorite Hollanov stories. I love this characterization of Ilya very much

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    After I retold the television show Heated Rivalry from the point of view of Ilya Rozanov, my brain decided I needed to write the exact same thing, but from the point of view of Shane Hollander, so I not only did I need to match the show, but also my own prior work. WHEE!

    So that's what this is: a novelization of the television show that is ALSO a companion piece to Bad Thing.

    I did read both Heated Rivalry and The Long Game by Rachel Reid, but that was some time ago and my recollection of them is spotty at best. Because they are novels, I did NOT consult the books in order to reduce the chance that I would inadvertently plagiarize them. So where the television series leaves a gap in the narrative, I may fill it with something very different than what happens in the books. We will all end up at the cottage, but some of us are taking a slightly different path to get there.

    This novelization means that potentially triggering things that happen in the series (like mental health issues) will happen in this work. NOTE, HOWEVER, no new issues will be added in this work. No one dies. No one is outed. No one is assaulted. This is just the story of the show as if it were from Shane's point of view.

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    29 May 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    One of my all time favorite Hollanov stories. Immaculate from beginning to end. If you're wondering about the novelization of the show aspect specifically, yes it's worth it. Yes it's worth it 🔥

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    Yuna getting stuck in an elevator with Ilya for two hours doesn't change everything... but it changes some things. Like Yuna getting to be on a first-name basis with Ilya a full year before her son is.

    (Part 2 (the smutty part) is not actually essential reading if you are not in the mood for smut!)

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    26 May 2026

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    One of my all time favorite canon lateral au's

    Both Shane's autistic transition anxiety and difficulty changing course and his bamf decisive brilliant loyal jock natures are here

    Maybe my favorite Shane Characterization

    Nobody is being infantalized

    The parts that are supposed to be emotionally suspenseful are nail biting, the comedy is hilarious, and the emotional bits are gorgeous

    Really fantastic writing, so worth reading the whole series

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    Ilya Rozanov, a professional dom, lives in the space between. Between shifts, between countries, between versions of himself. Control is what keeps things from falling apart. Control, and distance.

    Shane Hollander lives the life that might have been his. He spends his NLH career closing distance, closing gaps, moving toward things instead of away from them.

    When a chance meeting at the animal shelter crosses their paths, something unexpected carries between them, like a call, waiting to be answered.

     

    *This work is a remix/ heavily inspired by Wolfbird (OpalApparition), including people and locations. In my mind, a “what could have happened if they met in a different way and made different choices.” It’s sweet, has (mostly/eventual) soft landings, and features many puppies who absolutely did not ask to be a part of this, and one very dramatic chiweenie who did. 

    Thank you to OpalApparition for the encouragement to write what I love.

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    24 May 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    Author knows dogs
    Author knows power exchange at its most emotionally intimate is about trust
    Author never shames sex workers or poor people
    Author writes both these adult professional men like they're adult professional men. Perfection.
    Characterization is excellent
    The writing is gorgeous, the sort of emotionally resonant prose that crawls into your chest and makes a home there

    I'm kinda stingy about my bookmarks and only bookmark things if I know I would be bummed out if I lost a fic and couldn't recommend this specific one as an ambassador to the entire fandom/ship

    That's just how my adorable audhd self utilizes bookmarks, like a dragon with a very particular horde

    So if you're considering reading this, this is writing worth reading, and if you're the author shuffling through your bookmarks, this is writing worth reading, thank you for writing it :)

    I know I probably should have made half of this a comment but the bookmarks on my own fic stress me out sometimes so maybe this will be useful or give someone a smile