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there is love that doesn't have a place to rest by Anonymous
Fandoms: Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
29 Jun 2026
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Ilya closes his eyes.
He blinks back his tears. He wants to nod or shake his head or something, but he can't.
This can't be happening.
He blinks and blinks and blinks again but he's still in the hospital and he still feels like shit and his mom is dead and Shane is far away and he thinks he's depressed and there is something inside of him that he doesn't know what to do with.
Fuck, he thinks, in russian and in english and in french, even. Fuck.Or, in 2020, Ilya has a (very) unplanned, (very) complicated pregnancy, Shane has to learn that sometimes things don't work out the way he planned, and some other things. Set in The Long Game, kind of.
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The body keeps the score (and I can't win without you) by Confusedmonkey
Fandoms: Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
04 Jul 2026
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There was nothing Ilya loved more than fucking Shane Hollander – except, as he’d finally said out loud, maybe Shane Hollander himself.
The time at the cottage was perfect – more than perfect. Lifechanging. Universe-shifting. He had a boyfriend. A family. Everything he’d ever wanted – except that now it was time to go home, and deal with the one thing he still didn’t want to talk about.
His heat.
His disgusting, miserable, painful heat – that he would handle alone. Like he always did. But then Shane was asking him why, and that was the question, wasn’t it? Why, why, why?
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i was young and sweet, and then something happened by taetaeloving
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
29 Mar 2026
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The teasing tone of his voice should be enough to convince Shane he is okay. He's inconvenienced Shane enough, it was time to manage his problems on his own. He can mask whatever is going on with him today, deal with it, and be better tomorrow.
He just has to make it to tomorrow.
His husband, unfortunately, has other plans. "We actually finished early. I'm gonna come back today instead of two days from now. I have a flight in two hours, so I should be home by evening."
The panic hits Ilya almost instantly. Evening is too soon, he thinks, I'll still be like this by evening. Shane is going to deal with my mess again. He won't even have time to rest from his flight. I can't be seen like this. I can't do this to him. I can't let someone else deal with my problems. I can't let someone else come home to this.
I'm just like my mother.
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When a poorly timed phone call and an open window leads Shane's parents to a massive misunderstanding, he's stuck pretending he's still dating Rose. Which works fine for a month, until Ilya's jealousy starts to flare and Shane's parents witness a fight entirely different from the one they have on the ice.
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"See? Shane's probably just in the kitchen,” Yuna murmured softly, putting her purse down on the side table beside the door. “Maybe he’s—”“Okay, you were maybe telling me the truth,” a voice suddenly called, cutting her off before she could finish her sentence. “At least partially.”
Yuna frowned, the deep, accented voice catching her off guard. Before she could piece together where she recognized the voice from, though, she saw Ilya Rozanov walking through her son’s apartment. He was barefoot, his hair slightly damp and his clothes casual. Sweatpants and a white T-shirt that clung to him after a shower.
From the kitchen, David heard his sons’ voice ring out, too. “What do you mean partially?” Shane responded, gesturing at his phone as Ilya showed him something on it. “That’s exactly what I told you.”
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Within Reach by fishiefishtheconsultant
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
21 May 2026
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“At home, there’s nothing stopping him. Out there, maybe there is.”
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Post-tuna meltdown: Ilya is trying to stay functional after losing Shane Hollander, but the way he’s coping is starting to turn into something he can’t fully control.-
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forgive me if i jump at the rattle of your keys by justhockey
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
11 May 2026
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Ilya knew, right from the very moment he met Shane Hollander, that he would never be good enough for him. He’d seemed so…pristine, when they first met. Untouched. And Ilya knew his unclean hands would only dirty him up. He’s always been selfish, though; his father used to tell him that.
So it’s no surprise, really, that Shane has finally gotten tired of it. Of him, always needing more from Shane than he deserves - always begging for more than he has earned.
Ilya would leave himself, too, if he could.
(Or, five time Ilya thought Shane would leave, and one time he knew he wasn’t going anywhere.)
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we only know the love we’re shown by justhockey
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
25 May 2026
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Ilya has always known Shane could do better than him. It shouldn’t come as a surprise that he’s finally found it.
Found someone else.
Because that’s what this is, isn’t it?
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Laundry by the_weight_of_small_things
Fandoms: Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
26 Apr 2026
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Shane Hollander has contracts, property, insurance, and a cottage full of expensive furniture; by every reasonable measure, he is a fully grown man.
Then Ilya Rozanov arrives at the cottage for the first time, wildly underpacked, entirely too beautiful, and somehow capable of making Shane’s carefully designed house feel less like proof of adulthood and more like the beginning of a life.
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Ilya’s first visit to the cottage makes Shane see a man he has known for years as someone he might actually get to keep.Series
- Part 1 of Adulting
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Echoes in the Mouth by the_weight_of_small_things
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
24 Jun 2026
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Before they get married, Shane has to reckon with all the names he and Ilya have used to survive each other. Last names sharp enough to hide behind, fake names soft enough to keep, first names dangerous enough to run from, and one shared name sturdy enough to build a life on.
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The night before their wedding, Shane discovers Ilya still has him saved in his phone as Jane.Series
- Part 25 of Adulting
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David set the phone carefully on the coffee table and answered.
“Hey, Ilya. I’m with Shane and Yuna. You’re on speaker-”
“There are pills,” Ilya said. The words trembled. “I need big favor. I need you to come take them from me. Please."--------------------------------------
What if after the fight in the long game a different sort of crisis cause Shane and Ilya to confront their feelings...-
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Goalie Eyes by goosie_grey
Fandoms: Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Heated Rivalry (TV)
05 Jun 2026
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"Is it normal for brothers to fight each other physically?" Shane asked tentatively.
"Yeah. It happens."
"What about breaking bones?"
"I mean, accidentally." Wyatt scratched the back of his neck. "When my brother and I were kids, he shoved me off a swing once and I broke my finger."
Shane stared out the window at Ilya and took a slow breath. His hands tightened against his thighs hard enough that it looked painful.
"What if like hypothetically one brother burns the other brother with a cigarette?"
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Alexei is coming to town, and Wyatt Hayes wasn't about to let his teamates deal with it alone.-
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Shane Hollander is a man who thrives on structure, routine, the solid ground of a ten-year plan. Ilya likes that about him, likes the embracing squeeze of having a life organized in tandem with Shane.
No one would call Ilya a man who thrives on structure. But it’s there, if not in his DNA then in the patterns of his brain. A call-and-response of: they do this, I do that.
When Ilya’s life is flayed open for the world to dissect, how will they push-and-pull their way back towards what was once a well-organized life?
“I thought we could go through the schedules and figure out what days we’ll be in the same cities this season, or when either of us have a couple of days off in a row. Maybe make a shared calendar, so we c—”
“A sex calendar? Your parents are arriving in thirty minutes, and you are proposing making a sex calendar?” Oh, this was delicious. He’d be able to eat out on this for years, if Shane was willing to give him that long.
“It’s not a sex calendar! It’s just … when we might be able to see each other,” he finished, already sounding defeated.
“And what are you planning on doing when we are seeing each other? Not fucking?”
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Shane knows about the sensitive spot behind Ilya’s ear. He knows how long it will take to walk from Montreal to Boston, until his feet are bloody. He knows what Ilya tastes like after he’s had a cup of coffee. He knows about all the women Ilya takes home. But Shane also knows Ilya talks in his sleep. These small intricacies of their love is what keeps Shane’s head above water. There’s only a hint of an ache when he hears Ilya’s name. Ilya kisses him and that ache is now more apparent. Ilya kisses him and he unravels. No one is to blame. It’s just the way these things go. But it wasn’t until that day in the locker room, when he heard the news, that he realized just how much he had to lose.
or, Ilya is lured away by his own sadness. Shane goes after him.
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it gets harder to see me (the closer you look) by cinemabarnes
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
24 Apr 2026
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ilya’s thoughts throughout the timeline of his and shane’s relationship.
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inspired by doors by noah kahan
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- Part 6 of my hollanov playlist <3
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The Kitchen Sessions by makemadej (santamonicayachtclub)
Fandoms: Watcher Entertainment, Buzzfeed Unsolved (Web Series)
12 Jan 2020
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How to make a business baby, starring the usual suspects.
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Sherlock has been shot in the chest; John has been shot in the heart. Though everything is broken, they do their best to heal the wounds that Mary left on them both.
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“You loved him.” Her voice was gentle as John turned startled eyes to her face. Her gaze hadn’t wavered. “Didn’t you.” It was not a question. “Of course you loved him. It’s all right to tell me.”
John’s hands had been locked together, his knuckles white in the lamplight. He’d cleared his throat, looking at them. “Yeah,” he’d said, his voice rough. “I did.”
“That’s got to stop.” Mary’s voice hadn’t changed, not precisely, or not in any outward way that he could detect, and yet it was completely different. She sounded entirely calm and still very gentle, but beneath that there was something new. Something rather like steel.
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“Grigori has never liked that Ilya plays hockey here," Svetlana says. "He has always wanted him to play back in Russia. When he hears about the Ottawa trade, he will be worse than before. You must not let Ilya do this, do you understand?”
“Would he?” Shane asks.
“Grigori is dangerous because he is persistent,” Svetlana says. “He wears people down. He makes them small. This is what he did to Ilya’s mama, and he now he does this to Ilya. Ilya can survive it because he is a world away. He will not survive it if Grigori is the only voice in his head all the time.”
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Or: Grigori Rozanov never develops Alzheimer's. Even from across the globe, he maintains influence over Ilya, his career, and, unknowingly, his relationship.
Being told that they can't come out makes Shane speed-run being ready to do just that and tell the world that he loves Ilya Rozanov.
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The Axiom of Equality by kooksie
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
31 Jan 2026
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Ilya hurts Shane.
It’s an accident, of course, but his mind goes to the only place it knows how afterwards: He deserves to hurt too.
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Sinking While Swimming by CaffeinatedFlumadiddle
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
09 Feb 2026
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“Maybe you don't have to-”
“Uh-uh. No backtracking now.” Hayden pointed a finger at him. “If you tell Shane, fantastic. Would love that, quite frankly, but until you do, I want those goddamn pictures, Rozanov. Am I clear?” Ilya wanted to make some quip about Pike trying to get a different kind of picture out of him, but given the circumstances... He just nodded. “Good. My kids tragically love the fuck out of you, so figure this out.” Ilya nodded again. “Alright then.”
Silence followed. Ilya eventually got up, and Hayden awkwardly walked him to the door.
“Ilya,” he said, surprising him with the first name. “I know what I say doesn’t particularly matter, and I am mainly just a fail-safe for this situation, but…” He opened the front door and clicked his tongue. “For what it’s worth, you’re a good guy and don’t deserve the shit your brain apparently puts you through.”
"I'm a married man, Pike."
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Ilya’s depression shifts into some self-harming tendencies, despite how well he can justify most of it. An unexpected cavalry comes together.
(AKA I found a story filled with sex and decided to hone in on my other favorite things: mental health and complex family dynamics)
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