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The fight was over. I killed someone. I KILLED SOMEONE!! I said I would never. What's my problem. And I couldn't save Junpei.
I loved him. And now he's dead...
I hung me head over the railing staring down at the black plastic bags holding the people that were killed.
The room reaks of deceased corpses.
"Hey kid." Nanami said.
My head perked up.
"Look kid I don't know what's going on in your head but just know that it's not your fault." He said.
'Don't give me that you were there' is what I was thinking but in real time I said nothing.
"C'mon kid let's go" he said ushering me out by patting my back.
I walked out with my head to the floor.
We made are way back to jujitsu tech in silence and when we got there I just went down to the room they had me in with the tv and couch. I sat down and looked at the movies on the coffee table. Memories of Junpei flooded my head as I felt my eyes begin to water.
"J-Junpei." I mumbled before covering my mouth as tears streamed down my face.
"Hey itadoriii~" I head a voice come from the corner.
"I-oh go-jo." I said trying to wipe the evidence that I was crying away.
"So how are you kid." He said walking to me.
"I-I'm fine." I said giving him a week smile.
"Really? Your eyes are pretty red." He stated as he sat down next to me.
I looked at him my face slowly breaking.
"Hey it's ok." He calmly said as I cried into his lap.
I cried for at least 10 minutes straight before I was able to calm myself down.
I sat up.
"T-tanks dad" I said soon after realizing what I said.
We both looked at each other and started to laugh.
"Haha, let's watch a movie Huh" he said.
"Oh yeah ha we should watch this one." I said pulling out the scary movie series.
"Ugh this movie is so bad." Gojo whined.
"I know. I know, but... we used to joke about it and I'd like to remember that." I said
"... alright what are you waiting for put the disc in." He said giving me a smile.
I didn't last long through the movie before passing out on the couch from exhaustion.
~0~
"Kid.... kid!... KID!" My eyes shot open.
I see sakuna sitting bashfully on his throne. You blame yourself don't you kid. He said.
I knew what he was doing so I didn't answer.
Have you ever heard of self harm?He said.
"Yes I don't live under a rock. Why!?" I question.
Maybe you should try it Y'know. I hear people in situations like this tend to act like that and I would like to see it for myself. He said with a smirk.
"What the hell?!" I said.
"Why would you want me to do that it would hurt you to." i ask in complete disbelief.
Well if I protect myself it wouldn't but that would mean I couldn't heal you.
"What the fuck. I don't even understand what you mean. Your trying really hard to put this on me but what if I don't want to." I said with an odd disgusted face.
i knew he was weird but this was just so odd it was almost cringy.
The way he said it was so... inhuman, although i guess he isn't really a human is he. He got close to me and soon he was right in my face.
It's not if you want to. It's if you should. He said.
"W-what do you mean?" I asked.
You see yuji you made some mistakes today. I know things. He said.
"Yeah, like what?!" I asked.
... I know you killed someone. He said.
"I-I well ofcorce you were there with me. You are apart of me." I said trying not to let the mention of it to bring me down to much.
Ha you can hide it but I know that's breaking you. Isn't it. He said.
This pissed me off.
"Is that it?!" I said.
Ha you wish.. y know you left one of my fingers at his house. He said.
"W-w-wait.. I- What" I stuttered tears forming in my eyes.
It's your fault Yuji. He said.
"I k-now" I stuttered.
Than do it~he hissed as he rolled up my sleeve and made a slit on my arm.
Blood trickled down my wrist as I started to hyperventilate.
"-Dori, Itadori, Itadori?! Oh thank god. You scared me kid." He said as he sat back and relaxed.
The movie was turned off and I looked at the time. It had been two hours so the movie was most certainly over.
"What happened?" I asked.
"I don't know you tell me. It seemed that you were having some sort of night terror." He said.
I came back to me. I scrambled up and lifted up my sleeve. My jaw dropped. There was a slit right were Sukuna cut me.
"Hey kid what are you looking at-" I cut him off by running out through the hall and into the bathroom.
'How. How did he do that?!' I thought. I put it under the water.
"Hahn!" I yelped. It stung like a sun of a-
Hey kid~ the mouth on the side of my face opened.
"N-no please not now" I pleaded.
Do it kid~ I've already started it for you. C'mon you know you deserve it. He hissed.
"No! No! Go away! Please!" I yelled.
Do it~
"no"
yes c'mon now. You deserve the pain. All the pain they went through.I was gripping my head until I found my hand reaching towards a blade.
I brought it to my arm. I made a slit. Than another and then a third before I realized what I had done. I dropped it.
"W-w-what d-did I -ju-ust." I stuttered.
C'mon kid you can't stop there it was just getting interesting. Think of how much pain you put them through. He said.
"look i don't want to" I said without relising i was picking it up and bringing it back to my arm, devoid of all emotion.
I made a slit, than another, than another, than again, again, again, again, again, again, and again. I kept going till I heard someone knock.
I dropped the blade.
"Hey yuji. You ok in there. You ran off so I thought I'd give you some space but i found some blood trickling towards the door so I was worried."
"I uh, I hit my head and it started to bleed." I said.
"Really do you need help here let me in." He said.
"Don't!" I yelled and he stopped.
"Would you rather have me get nanami he dose have more medical experience." Gojo asked.
"NO! No, sorry I think I got it. Thank you though, Gojo sensei." I said.
"Oh, alright then." He said.
I soon heard his footsteps fade into the distance I began to quickly wash my cuts and pull down my sleeves. I than rapped some ace bandage around my head to make it more believable.
I then cleaned the floor from my 'mess' and made my way back to my room we're I immediately passed out.