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    "Ilya's leaned across the railing with a cigarette in his hand. For a moment, they could be nineteen again. The whole of it all laid out before them, waiting to unfold.
    Then Ilya glances over at him, and it rushes passed. All of it—all the years and memories between them. Whenever he looks at Ilya these days, that first split second it feels like looking at someone he loves, someone he'll grow old with. Then his body remembers that's in the past now."

    Shane and Ilya, post divorce and attending one last MLH awards

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    02 Jul 2026

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    Shane joins the Centaurs and Ilya thinks he’s won the lottery. Maybe he did, but there are repercussions. For one, Hollander is impressive. Hollander wins games. But, he wanted to play with Shane.

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    01 Jul 2026

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    Shane tries to grab at the right words. "She's not - it's not that simple. Shane Hollander is me but it's also like - it's a thing people use to sell something. It's like a cardboard cutout of me."

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    27 Jun 2026

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    Getting information out of Ilya about his family was like getting blood from stone. Maybe harder. It had been one of the first things Shane had noticed about him. Any questions about his parents – the kind of typical things Shane’s mom had taught him to ask to make polite conversations – would result in brusque, emotionless answers or, worse, actual anger.

    But somewhere out there was Irina’s granddaughter. The only remaining blood relative that Ilya gave a shit about.

    And Ilya could never go back, which was Shane’s fault.

    So that bothered him.

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    24 Jun 2026

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