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    There are no subs in the NHL. Everyone knows that.

    Which is why Shane Hollander has never had any reason to question what he is, until Ilya Rozanov starts noticing things.

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    13 May 2026

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    When Dallas texts him, I’m flying in Tuesday, getting in at 11:45, Shane thinks of all the things he might do instead, alone. He thinks there is a world in which he could say, I can’t today, but the text is not a question, the ticket is already bought, Kent never asks him if he’s welcome first. Kent picks up and flies to another city, because he knows he’s welcome, he knows Shane will let him inside. There was a moment, back in September, when Shane might have asked himself if he wanted this—is this the man you want to sleep with? Is this the way you want to spend your time? Are you having fun? It doesn’t matter. This is the person who wants to be with him.

    He wonders if this is how Ilya felt about him. Impassive.

     

    Or: After an unexpected encounter just before the start of the 2016-17 season, Shane falls into a casual relationship with Dallas Kent. He doesn't meet Rose Landry. He doesn't set foot in Ilya's house outside of Boston. (There is no tuna meltdown.) He stops waiting for Ilya Rozanov to text him back. It's fine, until it isn't.

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    12 Apr 2026

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    Ilya’s heart is breaking. He doesn’t want the first thing he does, the very first thing, after Shane’s choices have been so brutally ripped away from him, to be something Shane is begging him not to do. But Shane is seriously injured, much beyond what they can handle with first aid at home or even if they found a discreet doctor to make a house call. He will need an MRI, a broken bone set, probably surgery. And evidence should be collected too, for the police. That part Ilya will not push him on. But he cannot let Shane risk his life for his pride and the fear of shame that has controlled him for so long. “I am sorry, moy lyubimyy,” Ilya says, “So sorry. But Marleau is calling ambulance, and you are going to the hospital.”

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    Shane and Ilya are spending Christmas together in Boston during Ilya's last season playing for the Bears. They're finally out, and they're in love, and soon they'll only live two hours apart.

    When Shane is assaulted, the plans they had built for their future collapse. Now the road ahead is a long, grueling process of physical and psychological recovery. What they had before-the sex, the playful power exchange, the easy trust-is gone, and they have to build something new, together.

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    16 Apr 2026

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    He answered with no preface, no pretense, just the bare facts. “I'm at the hospital with Shane. He wasn't waking up for me.”

    The line was quiet for a bit, almost long enough for Hayden to start thinking she'd put the phone down. When she spoke, her tone was serious.

    “What do you mean, not waking up?”

    “I got to Drapeau's place and tried to wake him up to get him in the car, but he wouldn't wake up. It was like he couldn't. And then,” he trailed off, unsure what to even say about what he found to his wife.

    “And then what?”

    He took a deep breath, reluctant to say it out loud, but he had to tell her. “I think something bad happened to him, Jacks. Like, really bad.”

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    Shane is sexually assaulted at a house party in Montreal. He, Hayden, and Ilya make their attempts to recover in the aftermath.

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    26 Mar 2026

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    “Dude, this is so dumb,” JJ said, looking over the documents, “but also the best fucking thing we’ve ever done. It looks so real.”

    Hayden grinned proudly, “Yeah? I got a friend who’s a lawyer to write them up.”

    JJ looked up at him impressed. “Prank commitment on point, man”

    Hayden’s grin widened.

    He could already imagine Shane’s face when he saw the official-looking divorce papers from Ilya Rozanov. Shane would open the envelope, read the first few lines, spiral for solid thirty seconds, and then notice the tiny line Hayden had hidden near the top of the page.

    April Fools, bitch.

    or - a really dumb prank + series of unfortunate events = angst with happy ending

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