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Till is a gentle, emotionally grounded boy who has always struggled with loneliness and human connection. Isolated at school and mocked as «Creepy Till», he retreats into solitude. He never learned how to make friends, every interaction he had was awkward, every attempt to connect clumsy. Though he has learned to endure judgment, attention terrifies him, and what haunts him even more are the recurring nightmares that have followed him since middle school, each ending with the death of a boy whose eyes he can never forget.
When a new student joins his class, Till is shaken to recognize those same eyes. Ivan enters his life like a storm. Raised in a home where love and violence were indistinguishable, he has grown up with a warped sense of intimacy. He is both drawn to and wounded by Till’s quiet distance, mistaking it for rejection and answering it with cruelty. What begins as hostility slowly reveals something deeper: a desperate need to be seen, to be loved, and to heal. This is a story about love distorted by pain, about two boys trying to bound from broken pieces. Through Till’s quiet empathy, Ivan begins to understand that hatred and violence are not love, and that love does not have to hurt to be real.
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24 Jun 2026
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All of me, huh? Could he do that? He'd done so much in secret for so long, it felt terrifying to drag it all into the light. But for Till? For himself and the chance that this time, maybe, they could be different?
"Yeah."
And then Till looked over his shoulder, caught Ivan's gaze and held it. "Thank you. I know I'm really late in saying it. But I'm also really, really happy that I still have the chance to say it at all."
Till believed Ivan died sacrificing himself for him. Ivan believed Till died in the fiery destruction of the Alien Stage.
And neither knew that the other survived.
Eight years later, Till has settled into caring for the children he'd rescued from the Alien Stage Museum with the help of the rest of the Rebellion, while Ivan continues working to fulfill what he believes would have been Till's last wish. When they're reunited, they have the chance to say everything they should have said once upon a time and to discover the mutual love that once eluded them. But only if they can overcome all the scars that mark them.
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- Part 1 of The Absence of Stars
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24 Jun 2026
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Till is a phenomenon, a famous actor, a living legend. When the new movie he is starring in has a global press tour, Till needs a translator to get him across the world and make sure his words are heard. And there is nobody more fit for this job than his close friend Ivan, a polyglot who is also the screenwriter of the movie.
In a whirlwind of tangled words, things always get lost in translation. But feelings? They are not so easy to hide behind the boundaries of language.Series
- Part 1 of Hollywood AU
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24 Jun 2026
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"And who would I be dating? You?"
"Sure. If that gets them to leave you the fuck alone."
Ivan just needed some help in dealing with his relentless underclassmen who wants him so bad and Till just so happens to have a light bulb moment.
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24 Jun 2026
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Naruto's arm was around his shoulder, entirely unnecessarily, as they sat at the table. He seemed perfectly at ease making charming conversation with Sasuke's family, as if this were all perfectly natural—as if Sasuke had actually invited him, rather than Naruto having gone behind his back to ensure he arrived at the family dinner looking like an invited guest. As if they were actually dating.
Sasuke shot him an annoyed look over the chrysanthemums.
Naruto turned. There it was: that slightly antagonistic look he always got when Sasuke challenged him, the one that said he was challenging Sasuke right back. He took a food tray from Mikoto, slipping into the conversation without missing a beat. "Well, you know we've been thinking about it since Sasuke and I got engaged."
Sasuke nearly dropped his pomegranate juice all over his grandmother's prized white tablecloth.
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Kingsley Amis regarding the male libido: “For 50 years, it was like being chained to an idiot”
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20 Jun 2026