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    “I’ve always wanted to be watched,” he had admitted to Hayden. “It’s always been like… a exhibitionist fantasy of mine for someone to see me and Ilya together. Maybe we could start there?” He’d said to Hayden, who had been beet red with embarrassment for the awkward way he’d brought up the possibility of casual sex with his best friend of a decade. “I don’t know how I feel about like, a full on threesome right now.” Shane had laughed awkwardly, scratching at the back of his neck. “But… maybe we start with that.”

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    23 May 2026

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    At seven years old, Shane and Ilya swapped bodies for fifteen minutes, just enough time to change everything. That first swap, and all the ones that followed, marked the beginning of the most epic love story the hockey world has ever seen.

     

    Or, they were soulmates, baby ;)

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    23 May 2026

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    Ilya and Shane get outed via instagram live… as friends. The world reacts as their friendship becomes the most talked about thing in the hockey world.

    Being openly friends affords them more freedoms to be together, but all the more easy to lose it all.

    AKA

    Shane has a touch of Hudson Williams to him

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    22 May 2026

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    “Terrible name, by the way,” Ilya told Svetlana. “We will need to think of new one. This is not 1970’s porn. He is pretty and innocent. Sweet.”

    “Oh,” Svetlana said, craning her neck to stare at Ilya’s laptop. “Oh. He is just your type.”

    “I don’t have a type,” Ilya lied. If Ilya did have a type—and he did, maybe a little, because if a man didn’t have a preference, he didn’t get to have an opinion—it was this. Muscular but not in an obsessive bodybuilder sort of way, a strong brow, and an ass that Ilya could practically see jiggle when spanked.

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    16 May 2026

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    Shane Hollander just loves to be filled up. Ilya Rozanov lives to please his man.

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    15 May 2026

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    “This might have been a bad idea.”
    “You think so?”
    “Hollander’s pissed.” Marlow said, stating the obvious.
    “No he’s not.” Ilya answered easily. “He’s just nervous.”
    “About what?”

    “About asking if he can watch you fuck me.”

     

    -OR-

    Ilya and Marlow have been hooking up for years - though it was never personal (until it was too late).

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    08 May 2026

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    Rozanov made a dismissive noise. “No, no, I will pick you up. Send me your address.”

    “I’m not giving you my home address.”

    “Why not!”

    “Because you’ll probably post it on social media to psych me out before our next game.”

    That made Rozanov laugh. “It is good idea,” he said. Stopped laughing. Started again. Blew out a breath like he had to get himself together. “I might do this to you,” he allowed, “but you have nice boyfriend living with you now. I would not do this to him. You are safe.”

     

    In which Ilya Rozanov adopts himself into Scott and Kip's household and refuses to leave. Kip finds this very sweet. Scott is going to kill him.

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    03 May 2026

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    It turns out ‘slut’ isn’t an offensive term – not if you’re Shane Hollander.
    5+1 of Shane discovering his new favourite term of endearment.

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    02 May 2026

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    Shane and Ilya are different behind closed doors.
    A multi POV fic that allows other characters to get a glimpse behind the wall.

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    02 May 2026

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    After the tuna melt meltdown, Shane meets Rose Landry, has several deeply inconvenient revelations, and decides to do the only sensible thing: win Ilya back with sincerity, logistics, and a frankly alarming amount of emotional effort.

    Ilya, meanwhile, mistakes every tender gesture for the kind prelude to an inevitable goodbye.

    Or: Shane is living in a romcom. Ilya is living in a Russian tragedy.

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    02 May 2026

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    01 May 2026

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    A series of somewhat haphazardly connected social media fics that take inspo from pop/stan culture

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    01 May 2026

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    Ilya flopped onto the blanket next to Shane, dripping wet.

    “So,” he said. “You like sexy role play, yes?”

    Shane, who had just taken that moment to take a sip of ginger ale, promptly choked on it, spilling fizzy liquid all over his stomach and crotch.

    “Jesus Christ,” he rasped, as Ilya laughed at him, the fucker. “Who starts a conversation like that?”

    Shane and Ilya's intimacy at the cottage leads to some revelations that Shane had been repressing. Ilya is excited to give him exactly what he wants in every way.

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    27 Apr 2026

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    Vegas, MLH Awards, 2014: Ilya Rozanov wins MVP and decides to make Shane Hollander experience Vegas.

    Boston, November, 2016: Ilya calls Shane his husband while making him a tuna melt. Weeks later he's traded to New York.

    New York, March, 2017: Scott Hunter is forced to realize he is incredibly fond of Ilya Rozanov, and knowing what he does, Shane Hollander is on really fucking thin ice.

    or: the fic where Ilya and Shane get married in 2014 and Ilya is forced to care about Scott when he's traded to New York in 2016. So he noticed things. And he's there, on the ice, when Scott kisses Kip for the whole world to see.

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    27 Apr 2026

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    Stick to your guns, Ilya thinks. Sex. With Hollander. That’s simple. Straightforward.

    Except nothing about this night has been straightforward. The more time he spends with Hollander, the more he wants him - and not just the sex. He wants it all: the reading glasses, earnest ramblings, moral compulsions. The sweetness Hollander tries to hide. The way he holds back from almost everyone, even from himself, but never from Ilya.

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    or: After Vegas, Ilya knows he should end it with Hollander. He likes trouble, yes. Doesn’t mean he likes feeling scraped raw by wanting impossible things. Then they are marooned together at an airport for a very long, very strange night during which Ilya begins to suspect – shakily, reluctantly – that they might be… something.

    NOW COMPLETE!

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    26 Apr 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov has been drafted by Boston, the number one pick overall, but his father doesn't want him moving to America and so takes steps to block his visa. He's going to have to go back to Russia and stay there forever and that, thinks Shane Hollander, is wrong.

    It's so wrong that Shane can't stop himself from doing something about it. Even though that something is the most reckless, the only reckless thing he's ever done in his life. He marries Rozanov in secret, to keep him out of Russia and put him on a path to Canadian citizenship.

    Shane's got a five-year plan to get him there and when you have a plan nothing can go wrong. Right? Right. When you have a solid plan and a marriage that's on paper only there's no risk of feelings getting involved. Not on Rozanov's part and certainly not on Shane's.

    Right???

    (or, the story of how Shane Hollander fell in love with his own husband)

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    26 Apr 2026

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    25 Apr 2026

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    22 Apr 2026

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    At the 2021 All-Star Games in Winnipeg, Manitoba, Ilya comes to Scott with a proposition.

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    21 Apr 2026

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    “How fast were you driving?” Shane asked.

    Ilya groaned, rolling his eyes. “A normal speed.”

    “You can’t have been driving a normal speed. I was driving at a normal speed, and you beat me here.”

    “Yes, second time tonight I beat you.”

    Shane glared at him, but went and opened his front door anyway. As soon as it clicked shut, Ilya was pressing him up against the wall, his mouth on Shane’s neck.

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    or: they got through the immediate storm of ilya being outed. now shane must learn to be a little bit braver, and ilya must learn to talk a little more

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    18 Apr 2026

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