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He learned about the roommate in increments. Bits and pieces.
Josten. Neil.
Maths.
He ran. At five in the morning, like a crazy person.
He didn’t bring people over. No friends, no partners, no nothing.
No wonder, Aaron said once in a passing sentence, He’s a bit of an asshole.
Or: Neil is Aaron's roommate. Andrew is fascinated even from afar.
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- Part 1 of Open Secrets
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10 Jun 2026
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Neil swallows back blood. “Andrew.”
“Abram,” Andrew returns.
“I’m losing my mind. I think I’m losing my mind.”
“You aren’t,” Andrew says, so easy, so certain. “You’re tired. You’re scared. That’s it.”
Neil grits his teeth. “I’m,” he exhales shakily. “I’m – seeing things,” he admits.
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In which Andrew gets into a car accident one week into the off-season, and everything is fine right up until he starts dying every night in Neil’s dreams. Things get worse, and then they get better.
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Or, how trauma and triggers persist even after decades of safety, and how Andrew and Neil navigate them and take care of each other throughout it all.
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Bookmarked by milo80
09 Apr 2026
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The cocky curl of his lips was all the confirmation Shane needed.
You really did time it, you fucker.
Ilya’s decisive goal came two point six seconds before the end of the game.
Not accidentally. He did it to spite the Montreal Metros. Shane most of all.
It was cruel. Ilya Rozanov, with his Russian pride and mannerisms was cruel.
Except for the times when he came to Shane’s hotel room. Or when Shane went to his. It was insane how Ilya always changed behind closed doors. How his smile turned genuine, how the weight of expectations lifted from his shoulders, and only the sweet lust remained, cradling Shane in its attentive arms.
Ilya on the ice, wearing the colours of his team, and Ilya in the bedroom, wearing nothing, were two different people.
TL;DR: Fuck toxic masculinity, everyone is allowed to cry!
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28 Jan 2026
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“Game is over,” he says. “You won. I lost. I was annoying. Normal.”
“That’s not—” Shane starts, then stops, because he actually doesn't know how to finish that thought without sounding like an idiot. His jaw works, teeth grinding together.
That's not what I meant. That's not the point. You said I was boring and you were right and I need you to say it again so I know where I stand, so I know what you think of me, so I can stop waiting for the other shoe to drop.
He settles for: “You were kind of an asshole.”
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16 Jan 2026
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Oscar was happy for the team.
He wanted to toast the win, to see everyone’s faces of joy and feel the thrill of being part of it. He wanted Lando to hand him a bottle of champagne without a word, and share that quiet understanding that they'd done it, together. A smile on his face that would match Lando’s.
Just like last year.
But Lando had crashed into him. Tom had dismissed it on the radio. The mechanics had done a shit pit stop. And he’d finished P4.
Bookmarked by milo80
09 Nov 2025
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As it turns out, being roommates with your ex-friend-with-benefits complicates things. Especially when you keep breaking your own rules.
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Bookmarked by milo80
07 Oct 2025
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house rules
seasy33
Summary:As it turns out, being roommates with your ex-friend-with-benefits complicates things. Especially when you keep breaking your own rules.
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There are many people awake at midnight in Paris and somehow Jannik has ended up with the misfortune of being one of them.
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24 Jul 2025
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se poi, se poi, se poi
kayashkSummary:
There are many people awake at midnight in Paris and somehow Jannik has ended up with the misfortune of being one of them.
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Neil hasn’t had a panic attack in four months.
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or it's the one year anniversary of when shit went down and neil is totally okSeries
- Part 2 of sunrise, abram
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Bookmarked by milo80
02 Jan 2025
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hold me close, in fact bury me
djhedySummary:
Neil hasn’t had a panic attack in four months.
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Second Time's The Charm by neiljokesten (vykio)
Fandoms: All For The Game - Nora Sakavic
11 Oct 2024
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“I’ll give you a hint,” Andrew says. He rolls his eyes and turns Neil to face the house again when he tries to look at Andrew for the hint. “I hate him the most in the world.”
Neil stops at the threshold just before they cross it to turn towards Andrew. “Me.”
Andrew is grateful for the old t-shirt he borrowed to cover his chest, because the flush creeping across his body is sudden. It is embarrassing how quickly and confidently Neil answered, but more embarrassing that he guessed himself first.
Andrew manages a cool, “That’s bold,” which is not a denial.
Neil blinks slowly then says again, “Me?” This time, it’s a question, and Neil’s whole face transforms with it. His mouth falls into an ‘o’ as Andrew watches him process this in real time. “This is you confessing to me?”
“Don’t make this weird,” Andrew says flatly.
Neil sobers up, serious now. “It’s not weird,” he says. “At all.”
But somewhere in there, wires get crossed and a message gets lost.
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Bookmarked by milo80
08 Dec 2024
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Second Time's The Charm
neiljokesten (vykio)Summary:
“I’ll give you a hint,” Andrew says. He rolls his eyes and turns Neil to face the house again when he tries to look at Andrew for the hint. “I hate him the most in the world.”
Neil stops at the threshold just before they cross it to turn towards Andrew. “Me.”
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in a manner of speaking by likearecord for RainbowObsidian (secretandarling)
Fandoms: All For The Game - Nora Sakavic
30 May 2021
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In Andrew's defense, blind dates are terrible and almost all of Kevin's friends are even worse.
Nine times out of ten, calling in a favor to get Aaron to switch and tank it for him would be fine.
Unfortunately, Andrew found number ten.
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- Part 1 of In a Manner of Speaking
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Bookmarked by milo80
08 Dec 2024
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in a manner of speaking
likearecordSummary:
In Andrew's defense, blind dates are terrible and almost all of Kevin's friends are even worse.
Nine times out of ten, calling in a favor to get Aaron to switch and tank it for him would be fine.
Unfortunately, Andrew found number ten.
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Neil is touch-starved. Badly. He decides to say 'fuck it' and hookup with some random guy he barely knows because that's better than nothing, right?
The problem comes when Neil isn't sure if he can make it past the foreplay before breaking into tears.
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Bookmarked by milo80
20 Nov 2024
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Touch without Taking
coritkyoSummary:
Neil is touch-starved. Badly. He decides to say 'fuck it' and hookup with some random guy he barely knows because that's better than nothing, right?
The problem comes when Neil isn't sure if he can make it past the foreplay before breaking into tears.
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crash positions by likearecord for HereBeChickens
Fandoms: All For The Game - Nora Sakavic
11 Feb 2024
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“I have rules,” Andrew says.
“I’m leaving in two months,” Neil tells him.
“Perfect. Tomorrow night?”...
Looking for a reason, a reason to stay.
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Bookmarked by milo80
30 Sep 2024
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crash positions
likearecordSummary:
“I have rules,” Andrew says.
“I’m leaving in two months,” Neil tells him.
“Perfect. Tomorrow night?”...
Looking for a reason, a reason to stay.
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There’s very little Andrew likes less than being tricked, but not knowing things does make the cut. He stands, throws his messenger bag over his shoulder, grabs his coffee, and stomps over to slide into the chair across from the guy. He looks up at Andrew with a flash of calculated flight or fight in his eyes, but he quickly smooths this over and affixes a look of polite interest on his face. “Can I help you?”
“Are you on Grindr?” Andrew asks. Bluntly.
“Uh,” the guy says, looking more confused. “I don’t know. What is it?”
“It’s a hookup app gay men use.”
“Oh,” he says, frowning. “No, I’m definitely not on that.”
“Because you don’t do gay men?”
The guy shrugs. “Because I don’t do hookups.”
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- Part 1 of Catfish
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Bookmarked by milo80
17 Sep 2024
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Catfish
likearecordSummary:
“Are you on Grindr?” Andrew asks. Bluntly.
“Uh,” the guy says, looking more confused. “I don’t know. What is it?”
“It’s a hookup app gay men use.”
“Oh,” he says, frowning. “No, I’m definitely not on that.”
“Because you don’t do gay men?”
The guy shrugs. “Because I don’t do hookups.”
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Roughness was necessary between them. Andrew deserved this. He deserved Neil. That panic rising at the back of Neil’s heart wasn’t panic, it was the devil's cocktail and it was just as dangerous as it was delicious.
"Neil," Andrew said.
He could hear his blood pulsing in his ears. Somewhere, somewhere along the line, someone had hit him, and a few more times and a few more times after that and slowly, something got knocked loose. Did Neil like this, or did he convince himself he wanted it because to survive, he needed to contort his mind? To love, he had to be damaged.
“No,” he said.
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It's not yes. Not this time.
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13 Sep 2024
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i just stare and flinch
coritkyoSummary:
Roughness was necessary between them. Andrew deserved this. He deserved Neil. That panic rising at the back of Neil’s heart wasn’t panic, it was the devil's cocktail and it was just as dangerous as it was delicious.
"Neil," Andrew said.
He could hear his blood pulsing in his ears. Somewhere, somewhere along the line, someone had hit him, and a few more times and a few more times after that and slowly, something got knocked loose. Did Neil like this, or did he convince himself he wanted it because to survive, he needed to contort his mind? To love, he had to be damaged.
“No,” he said.
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It's not yes. Not this time.
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louder than bombs (i break) by mitigates for Mickey_99
Fandoms: All For The Game - Nora Sakavic
08 Sep 2022
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A 5+1 of Andrew learning Neil’s five spots he liked to be touched in bed and the one spot he needed to be touched outside of bed.
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14 Aug 2024
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louder than bombs (i break)
mitigatesSummary:
A 5+1 of Andrew learning Neil’s five spots he liked to be touched in bed and the one spot he needed to be touched outside of bed.
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After an upbringing lacking in mundanity, Neil just wants to live a “normal” life. He’s got a home, a circle of friends, a job — why not give casual sex a shot?
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Bookmarked by milo80
09 Aug 2024
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Trigger
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After an upbringing lacking in mundanity, Neil just wants to live a “normal” life. He’s got a home, a circle of friends, a job — why not give casual sex a shot? -
it'll have to drown me before it can breathe easy by LuckyDiceKirby
Fandoms: Hades (Video Game 2018)
04 Oct 2020
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Zagreus hardly sleeps anymore, but when he does, he finds his body does remember: all the ways Meg has killed him, the whip wrapped around his ankle, her heel against his throat. Thanatos’s hands cradling the back of his head, dragging him gently down.
It’s almost lonely in the house. They don’t touch him then.
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25 Oct 2023
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it'll have to drown me before it can breathe easy
LuckyDiceKirbySummary:
Zagreus hardly sleeps anymore, but when he does, he finds his body does remember: all the ways Meg has killed him, the whip wrapped around his ankle, her heel against his throat. Thanatos’s hands cradling the back of his head, dragging him gently down.
It’s almost lonely in the house. They don’t touch him then.
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Pope can see his mother study him.
“You two boys look out for each other, don’t you?” she says, and she looks like she’s comforted by the thought. Pope, on the other hand, is not, because this feels like it could head into dangerous territory very quickly.
(or, Pope is pining, JJ is hurt, and they're both kind of stupid).Bookmarked by milo80
06 Dec 2022
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Wasting Your Time by shutupanakin
Fandoms: Minecraft (Video Game), Video Blogging RPF, Dream SMP
08 Feb 2022
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“Wh— what?” Tommy choked out, his voice hoarse from the lack of use all day.
The man rolled his eyes, as if he didn’t just ask a completely impolite question. “I said, do you have any booze?”
Tommy sat still. He reached into his jacket pocket, his hand finding only a plastic pen. Could he stab this man with a plastic pen?
Tommy pulled said piece of plastic out, visibly holding it up. “I have a pen.” Something about the bemused look on the man's face made Tommy click it, and again, repeatedly.
click click click click click click click click—
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or; Tommy planned on dying. He meets Wilbur instead.
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- Part 1 of Jubilee Failed
- Part 1 of shutupanakin (writing edition)
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Andrew and Neil just spend some time together after practice. It's chill, y'know?
Bookmarked by milo80
04 Sep 2022