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    I Laugh Like Me Again by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid  

    09 May 2026

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    It's Shane Hollander's first season in Ottawa, and the whole Centaurs roster is playing better than they ever have. So why won't the press focus on that? Why do he and Ilya keep having to answer questions about their marriage, and not get to talk about the incredible start to the season that their team is having? Maybe if they do one podcast, with hosts who are normal people, they can just tell their whole story and focus on bringing the Stanley Cup to Ottawa.

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    or, Shane and Ilya do a sports podcast run by lesbians for members of the LGBTQ+ community, and the internet reacts.

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    06 Jul 2026

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    The Destruction of Montreal by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid  

    12 Feb 2026

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    “Ilya, you’re playing the Voyageurs next, in Montreal. How are you feeling about that?” An ESPN mic is held to his face.

    Rozanov grins. “Really good. About time. I know we have been winning a lot, but is always the most fun to beat Montreal.”

    “The situation’s kind of changed though, hasn’t it?”

    “Is true.” Rozanov looks almost thoughtful. “It used to be the most fun to beat them because they had the best player on their team. Now…” Rozanov trails off. He chances a look to the side, as if to check if someone’s there or not. “Now is going to be fun because they are very stupid.” Rozanov’s face is very hard. Serious. Angry. Scary.

    Or: Signing with the Montreal Voyageurs should have been the best day in Jordan Bicker’s career. If only it weren’t for Ilya Rozanov…

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    06 Jul 2026

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    i love you (say it back) by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid  

    18 Mar 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov has been saying I love you into the void his whole life.

    To his mother’s cold hands at twelve, making promises she can’t hear. To his teammates through fist bumps in tunnel rituals that cost nothing because they ask for nothing. To a sleeping man, in Russian, because his native language is the only container safe enough for what he actually feels. To a country he is slowly losing the ability to love back.

    He keeps saying it. No one says it back.

    Until they do.

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    06 Jul 2026

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    nothing that i don’t already know by

    Fandom Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)

    03 Mar 2026

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    hockey twt socmed fics ft the neutral zone podcast

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    05 Jul 2026

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    so burn the bed (i’ll face the wind and fill my head) by

    Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid  

    29 Mar 2026

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    Shane never flinched on the ice. Not at chirps, even when the words other players used hit too close to home. Not at hits, even if his whole body had been flattened to the boards and protested against each movement onwards. Not at the lights overhead, nor the flash of cameras around him. Not at the cheers and boos of the crowd, nor the discordant scream of a whistle blowing. It didn’t fade to the background, didn’t quiet when he had the puck, but he got through it. He lived in it. He made it his home. But that was hockey. That bad was so interwoven with the good of it that Shane could hardly call it that anymore. This…this was a different kind of bad.

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    After his talk and breakup with Rose, Shane decided that he wanted to explore his sexuality with someone who wasn’t Ilya for a change. He went to a man’s apartment in Montreal and left feeling different. He wasn’t sure how, or why, or what to call it. All he knew was that it wasn’t good, and that he didn’t want to look at it. Fortunately or unfortunately for him, he had people in his life who wouldn’t let him disappear, no matter how hard he tried.

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    04 Jul 2026