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  1. Public Bookmark 14

    Don't You Say a Word by

    Fandoms: Panic! at the Disco  

    03 Nov 2013

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    Brendon can never walk into a room and just be there; he has to be everywhere, all at once.

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    17 Jul 2026

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    what a pity that it is (to write you in a song) by

    Fandoms: Panic! at the Disco  

    19 Mar 2015

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    Ryan’s been working at this Hot Topic for exactly three weeks and four days, and if he’s honest, he has the exact hour he started buried somewhere in the file cabinets in his brain. It’s the worst job he’s ever had. Brendon is a stranger who decides he needs Ryan's help with impressing a girl he likes. It goes exactly as expected.

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    03 Jul 2026

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    cemetery drive by

    Fandom Panic! at the Disco

    04 Jul 2026

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    26 Jun 2026

  4. Public Bookmark 66

    Swimming Into You by

    Fandoms: Panic! at the Disco  

    24 Aug 2013

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    A college AU. Brendon's this close to being homeless on the streets after he fails to secure a new apartment before his eviction date. Luckily his Biology partner, Ryan Ross, (whom he may or may not harbor slightly more than platonic feelings for), steps in and saves his ass.

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    16 Jun 2026

  5. Public Bookmark 9

    Lover Lover Lover by

    Fandoms: The Heart Rate of a Mouse Series - Anna Green  

    01 Jan 2023

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    “Do you always cry when you bottom?” He asks, and I guess it’s also kind of an answer. He moves his hand to my hair again, and I sigh, closing my eyes in a half-hearted attempt to feign exhaustion. It’s too late to sleep again, though. That’s the problem with morning sex marathons: sleeping afterwords fucks up your whole day. “Seriously, I know you didn’t the first time, but then back in New York, I remember...” He trails off, moving his hand down to lightly press on the bruise he left just under my ear last night. The one that’s probably going to be there more often than not for the rest of my life, if we get our way.

    I look up at him again, still warm and feeling a little more exposed than before. “Only with you.” I confess quietly.

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    I have a lot of thoughts on Ryans relationship with bottoming throughout the series, and this is honestly just an absurdly nsfw exploration of a headcannon that got really out of hand. Takes place between Ryan coming back to Brendons house in Chicago at the end of book 3 and the dinner at Jons in If You Want to Be Common.

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    04 Jun 2026