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Amargosa: from the Spanish amargo, meaning 'bitter,' likely shortened from agua amargosa, 'bitter water.' The name is used for locations in the Mojave Desert.
or: Shane hates how he sounds, how his voice goes a little high and comes out too flustered - Ilya must know that what he means is ‘I want something. I always want something from you.’ That he can’t ever help himself.
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he will try to remember which apologies come faster the second time. He can never quite recall whether 'I swear to God' shifts before or after the rhythm does. He only knows there's a moment where the sound turns obedient, where Shane's voice changes shape, and Ilya can still feel it in his hands even when he isn't touching him.
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Shane leaves that Vegas penthouse suite feeling wretched, and like an idiot, and like he never wants to see Ilya Rozanov again.
Except, well. Then there are zombies.
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12 Jul 2026
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bro you think you're just idly reading the zombie AU and then you're IN LOVE WITH THE ZOMBIE AU!!!!
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here at the end of all things by nomadsland
Fandoms: Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Heated Rivalry (TV)
09 Jul 2026
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A knee injury ends Shane Hollander's nineteen-year NHL career.
Ilya Rozanov keeps checking in.
Shane pencils in "big gay midlife crisis" between physiotherapy sessions.
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10 Jul 2026
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stickhandling by moonlitgarden
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
11 Jan 2026
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Women flock to Rozanov; he’s the gravitational centre in every room. Shane gets it. He’s felt it, the shark pull of his orbit. He’s been swallowed up into the belly of desire. What he doesn’t get is how easy it is for Rozanov. Even with Shane’s teammates pooled around him on the dance floor his hands get clammy when a girl in a sequined skirt makes a move on him. Shane used to think maybe he was just awkward; maybe he needed a couple of beers in him to loosen up, but he couldn’t do that during the season.
Then Ilya Rozanov kissed him and the craving was so clear in Shane’s mind he was able to visualise every sharp edge of it, and he knew he wanted to be on his knees.
2013. It’s been two years since he and Rozanov hooked up in Nashville and exchanged phone numbers. It’s a month till Boston comes to Montreal and Rozanov’s promise of ‘next time’ could go into fulfilment. Shane Hollander wants to play hockey. He wants to play it well. The other thing is a thing he cannot allow himself to want.
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07 Jul 2026
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“I’m trying to figure out,” Rose wonders aloud. “Are you always a complete prick? Just with women? Or just when you lose a game?”
Ilya barks a laugh, shocked and almost delighted, and his smile spreads wide enough that Rose can see all those pearly whites of his that are so much nicer than she expected any hockey player’s to be. “All the time,” he grins, “all the time. However much of an asshole Hollander has told you I am, double it.”
She answers truthfully, shrugs her shoulders in her tiny silver dress. “He hasn’t mentioned you at all.”
After a shitshow of an evening in a Montreal nightclub, Ilya wakes up the next morning in Shane’s bed. Only, he’s not in Shane’s bed — Rose Landry is, and he’s in Rose Landry’s body, and she’s in his. Well, what the fuck are they supposed to do with that?
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New York, 2010. Shane comes to pick up a drunk Hayden from the bar.
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04 Jul 2026
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“It would be so fine, man,”
just me finding the courage in the fandom, man