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“Go?” Rozanov repeats, and Shane thinks he manages to nod, thinks he manages to spin some kind of excuse that he knows Rozanov doesn’t really buy, but he needs to go. He needs to get out of here. He needs to find somewhere quiet and calm where he can ride out this panic and painful tightness until he can catch his breath again. He needs-
He needs to go.
“I’m sorry,” he says, turning heel and resisting the urge to just book it right for the front door only because he’d rather not have to explain to Hayden why he returned from a hookup with Boston Lily in men’s clothes that he certainly didn’t leave in.
It’s not until he makes it halfway up the stairs to Rozanov’s bedroom that it occurs to him in a cold rush that it isn’t just anxiety that makes it this hard to breathe.
“No,” he tells himself firmly, white knuckling the bannister and trying to take a deep breath just to prove that he can.
It wheezes.
(how the tuna meltdown is averted through the power of food allergies and anaphylaxis)
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13 Jun 2026
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( i am done ) trying for beauty. by hcneymooners (romqntics)
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
09 Jan 2026
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Ilya glances at Shane, at the way the dying light is catching in his hair, refracting. At that spiderlily mouth, slightly open and curling coyly, two teeth peeked through the dark gap like an American Girl doll. At that shoulder, bare and pale and close enough to touch if Ilya just leaned forward, if he just reached out and took another liberty.
To touch another person is to say: I know you will die, and I am doing this anyway.
His mother used to say something like this. About painting.
Every portrait is an act of faith, Ilyushenka. Faith and futility both.
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contrary to personal preference, ilya gets a roommate.
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29 May 2026
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you're the risk (i'm gonna take it) by spilledmilkwaterfall
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)
23 Apr 2026
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"Go away. You’re scaring off paying customers.” Shane almost laughs — Hayden has no idea how true that statement is.
“What if I am the paying customer, Pike?”
Shane looks up, startled, and finds Rozanov’s eyes boring into him. The intensity of it is too much, he needs to look anywhere else, so naturally, he chooses Rozanov’s lips. They’re full, pink, a bit chapped, and Shane wonders what that would feel like against his own lips. Or his tongue.
No. He can not be thinking these things. Especially not about Rozanov. He looks down, fiddling with the zipper of the money bag.
“In fact,” Rozanov says, and Shane can hear the smirk in his voice. “I will pay the rest of the money you need. How many kisses does that get me?”
The Montreal High Metros need to raise money. They start a kissing booth. Naturally, Ilya Rozanov gets involved.
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21 May 2026
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Ilya makes comments about Shane talking too much.
Shane takes him seriously and attempts to stop talking.
It doesn’t go well.
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19 May 2026
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he turns off the big light by gurlsrool
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
31 Mar 2026
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Ilya knows firsthand that the world isn’t comfortable. It’s loud, bright, demanding, a harsh place in direct opposition to everything he’s recently learned about autism.
Is it so wrong that he wants Shane to feel safe here? To carve out a space where, even if only for a few hours, he doesn’t have to grin and bear anything? He can just be?
Or: Ilya Rozanov has a lot of good ideas. Telling his fuck buddy that he should consider getting an autism diagnosis isn’t one of them.
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