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  1. Public Bookmark 27

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    It was purely an artistic pursuit at first.

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    Or: What if your coworker was your muse. And also the love of your life.

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    07 Jul 2026

  2. Public Bookmark 35

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    Samira doesn't care about sports, or hockey, or the Penguins. Jack has an idea to make her start caring.

    in which Jack Abbot severely underestimates his girlfriend's libido and has to manage 1 orgasm per Penguins point

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    07 Jul 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 20

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    There is one thing that never fails to quiet the static in Jack's brain.

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    05 Jul 2026

  4. Public Bookmark 25

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    Jack shifts, drawing her focus back, and he's still watching her, now with his arm lifted in invitation. It doesn't matter that they're in a poor excuse for a sauna nor that they cuddle plenty every single day. Anytime that Jack coaxes her in like this, she jumps at the opportunity. She presses against his side, then shivers at the feel of their bare bodies being flush. She went more years than she'd like to admit being totally touch-starved. Sometimes the ripples of relief still surprise her.

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    Their air conditioner may have broken down during a heat wave, but Samira and Jack still can't keep their hands off of each other.

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    04 Jul 2026

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    With PTMC short-staffed, Jack has worked himself to the bone. Samira tests a theory that she can get Jack to take care of himself if he thinks he's taking care of her.

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    They eat with the faint murmur of the ED as a soundtrack. She pulls apart small pieces of her egg and cheese english muffin. Abbot wolfs down the burrito and studies the remains of the wrapper, as though his own hunger has surprised him.

    Her lips twitch with sympathetic amusement. How oblivious he’s been to his own needs. There’s a strange delight too, in finding Ellis was right. He’ll listen to her. He’ll give in, if it’s her. The thrill down her spine is electric. She wants to know how far she can push this. Exactly how close she can get before he says no or sees through her. How good would he be to himself if she asked it of him? Will he let her love him in this transitive way? Care for yourself because you care about me and I care about you.

    Well. Samira Mohan is nothing if not data-driven.

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    01 Jul 2026