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    He answered with no preface, no pretense, just the bare facts. “I'm at the hospital with Shane. He wasn't waking up for me.”

    The line was quiet for a bit, almost long enough for Hayden to start thinking she'd put the phone down. When she spoke, her tone was serious.

    “What do you mean, not waking up?”

    “I got to Drapeau's place and tried to wake him up to get him in the car, but he wouldn't wake up. It was like he couldn't. And then,” he trailed off, unsure what to even say about what he found to his wife.

    “And then what?”

    He took a deep breath, reluctant to say it out loud, but he had to tell her. “I think something bad happened to him, Jacks. Like, really bad.”

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    Shane is sexually assaulted at a house party in Montreal. He, Hayden, and Ilya make their attempts to recover in the aftermath.

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    15 Jun 2026

  2. Public Bookmark 75

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    Ilya sees the post at 11:47 AM.

    What the fuck, Svetlana had texted, and below that, Did Shane get hacked? I hope he deleted your dick pics if so.

    And then, because Svetlana knows he’d rather throw himself into the Rideau Canal than check social media when there’s breaking news about him, there’s a single Instagram link. A post from @shanehollanderhockeyplayer, which is still, Ilya maintains, an absurdly long and unwieldy username for a man with over a million followers.

    Ilya clicks the link. He’s expecting to see four candid photos, a well-crafted statement from Farah, a bold declaration of the rumors are true, and fuck you very much.

    Instead, he sees three paragraphs of Shane Hollander, his fiancé, love of his life, publicly breaking up with him.

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    Or, Shane Hollander realizes that getting kidnapped isn’t anything like what it is in the movies. Neither is getting blackmailed. It’s less like a bang and more like a whimper.

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    15 Jun 2026

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    Shane gasped and stumbled backwards. “Three weeks? You decided-” his hands flew to his mouth. “How could you do this without talking to me? This is what? To punish me because I won’t come out on your timeline?”

    Ilya felt a stab of anger. “You won’t come out on any timeline!”

    Shane blinked at him. “I literally drove here tonight because I wanted to know if you would accept six to twelve months!” 

    “A timeline,” he barked. “This is our lives, Shane. I want to be with you fully now. I know you are scared, but you need to be brave, and I am so deeply fucking unhappy being your dirty little secret.”

    “That’s not fair Ilya, it’s going to be complicated for me. I’m already the only Asian captain in the league! The media, sponsors, the Voyageurs? It’s going to need to be carefully managed-”

    Or: After the Boxing Day fight, Ilya loses faith in the idea that Shane will come out quickly and decides to make a wild move and agrees on a trade to Vancouver. Can these two idiots in love find their way back to each other?

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    15 Jun 2026

  4. Public Bookmark 37

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    This was supposed to be a one chapter fic, but I’m splitting it into two. I have been working on this for more than a month and really want to publish at least some of it. (I have finals right now so I’m sorry if it takes a bit for the rest of the story to come out). Anyway, please mind the tags! This is a very disturbing and graphic fic! Ps. I’m sorry Yuna, but I need more evil Yuna fics😔

    Shane and Ilya are doing great! Ottawa made it to the playoffs, and pretty far too! No Stanley cup this year, but thats okay! Shane is doing great… really.
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    Shane freaks out during sex, which leads to Ilya finding out a secret he was never supposed to know.

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    09 Jun 2026

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    I want to wake up to you tomorrow. If you don’t want that, that’s okay, but give me my agency, Ilya. Believe me when I say I want you or let me try to pick up the pieces without you.

    Five months ago, Ilya walked out of Shane’s life and their marriage. Shane has been trying to pick up the pieces. A late night phone call could either unravel everything or be the start of a new beginning.

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    05 Jun 2026

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    divorce but they want to save it