hetrez

this is not my beautiful house, this is not my beautiful wife



Recent works

Recent bookmarks

  1. Public Bookmark 99

    Tags
    Summary

    But anyway the point is that the rest of his life blew up with his house. Their families came out to the funeral and, well, they didn't really get it. It wasn't simple to them. What could be more simple than Emma's name carved into stone, Holland isn't too sure, but it is what it is. They tried to get Holland sent to some hospital for queers and tried to take Holly from him and neither of those things happened, but he's never going to see his parents again or his brothers.

    But now there's Healy.

    Now, March has never felt this way about a man before and he got in his head about it for a while until he saw Healy knock out their client's soon-to-be ex-husband with one punch and then throw March over his shoulder like he was a half-empty sack of potatoes and his dormant and grieving libido woke up and went, "Okay, this one! It's this one! Gender is a social construct, as you very well know, and you want this one to rail you into next Sunday, please and thank you!"

    so march has a vagina and everyone always makes that so complicated. he and his wife thought it was pretty simple, all things considered. maybe healy will too?

    Series
    Language:
    English
    Words:
    3,893
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Collections:
    1
    Comments:
    24
    Kudos:
    716
    Bookmarks:
    99
    Hits:
    4,279

    03 Jul 2026

  2. Public Bookmark 77

    Tags
    Summary

    “You are crazy,” he says. “Crazy and stupid stupid stupid. Not same Grace I saved planets with.”

    “Alright, Rock, I get—”

    “Is not too much,” Rocky says firmly, leaning in until he’s nearly met my forehead, until my eyes go blurry with the task of adjusting to how close he is. I couldn’t even fit my glasses between us to put them on. “Hugs and cuddles through xenonite suit, only touch through many layers. Is not enough. Better to be under you skin, between you ribs. Hear you heart right up close, noisy, alive. I would prefer.”

    "What?"

    "What, question?"

    /////

    Grace is worried that Rocky secretly hates hugs. In an attempt to reassure him, Rocky says a bit too much.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    1,427
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    64
    Kudos:
    692
    Bookmarks:
    77
    Hits:
    2,708

    29 Jun 2026

  3. Public Bookmark *

    Tags
    Summary

    "There is no point in any of this rumination. You are gone. You are nothing now but a muse, something that I can conjure upon command and listen. You are nothing more now than a lullaby, a prayer, a dissonant, augmented, ugly, beautiful melody."

    Rocky and Grace part ways for their respective planets. It should feel like a victory. It doesn't.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    9,422
    Chapters:
    3/3
    Comments:
    348
    Kudos:
    1,172
    Bookmarks:
    333
    Hits:
    8,196

    29 Jun 2026

  4. Rec 52

    Tags
    Summary

    It’s obscene in a way that has no human equivalent. I think seeing human genitals on him would’ve shocked me less, because at least that’s something you might reasonably show to another person. But this, the place that is both mouth and everything else to him, that I’ve seen exactly once and then never again because it’s viewed as so private and intimate that even an Eridian’s mate does not get to see—that’s something else. The only time he would reveal himself like this to someone else would be to lay an egg, and even then it would be something you don't draw attention to, something necessary but shameful.

    And now he’s showing me.

    Not only that, he’s offering.

    /////

    Or: Just because the mission is over doesn’t mean Rocky and Grace are done exploring.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    8,607
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    68
    Kudos:
    457
    Bookmarks:
    52
    Hits:
    3,212

    29 Jun 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    SCREAM

  5. Public Bookmark *

    Tags
    Summary

    After the Taumoeba leak, after I decided to die after all and turned my ship around to save Rocky, after Rocky's frantic calculations about food supplies, Taumoeba multiplication rates, and human caloric intake needs, after we realized that with some rationing and luck I would make it, but that we were headed toward the unknown territory of trying to rapid-prototype me a life support system and synthetic food supply on an inhospitable planet: after all of that, after everything, I shouldn't have been surprised that it only took a few months on board the Hail Mary for things to get weird.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    31,917
    Chapters:
    10/10
    Comments:
    813
    Kudos:
    1,914
    Bookmarks:
    487
    Hits:
    18,607

    29 Jun 2026