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    Shane skated away, his shoulders slumping, realizing he had arrived too late.

    Ilya had already found his place among the older, objectively “cooler” boys. He knew this feeling all too well. No matter how hard he tried to belong, he always seemed to be the one left out, an overly excited, obnoxious nuisance.
    Dejected, he made his way to the right side of the rink, where his mom had said she’d be if he needed anything. Reaching the barrier, he opened the small gate and sat down on the bench, his hockey stick clattering dramatically beside him. Struggling to get a grip on his laces through his reinforced gloves.

    The excitement had already melted away, now he just wanted to see his mom and maybe have a cup of warm chamomile tea to cheer him up. Directing his gaze back down at his half-untied skate.
    A cold spray of ice hit his face. Shane squeezed his eyes shut, trying to escape the sting of the particles.

    “Ух ты, Shane! You are here!”

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    Or: Ilya and Shane are long-time childhood friends who have experienced all their "firsts" together

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    21 May 2026

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    After coming out to Rose, Shane decides he doesn't want to lie anymore, even if he isn't sure coming out will mean he gets happily ever after with Ilya. When coming out to the Voyageurs leaves him wondering what his future in Montreal might look like, he lets himself be a little selfish, he lets himself wonder if there might be somewhere else he might be happy. If Montreal wants to get rid of a generational player, he's not about to stop them, especially if it means he can get a little closer to joy.

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    Or: Shane Hollander leaves Montreal in search of something better.

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    23 Feb 2026

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    “Alexei, I fucking told you to never call me again, you fucking piece of—”

    “Am I speaking with Ilya Grigorievich Rozanov?”

    Ilya went silent immediately. That was not his brother’s voice. Nor was it Katia’s, his sister-in-law. It was an aristocratic, cold voice. He went completely still.

    “Yes.”

    “I’m calling from the Child Services Department, Ilya Grigorievich,” the woman continued, and Ilya frowned deeply. “Your brother Alexei Rozanov and his wife died yesterday in a car accident.”

    Twice in his life, Ilya had felt like this. The ice around his heart melted just enough for the numbness to vanish and give way to a sharp, stinging pain. It lasted only two seconds before he managed to compose himself. He didn’t want to feel anything for Alexei, so even if Katia’s death carried a trace of sadness—she was a mess, but she always tried to smile at him and cook warm meals for him when he visited Russia—, he dismissed the feeling entirely.

    “So what?”

    “You are the only living family member of their daughter. Your brother named you as her legal guardian, Ilya Grigorievich.”

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    28 Jan 2026

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    Ilya and Shane get outed via instagram live… as friends. The world reacts as their friendship becomes the most talked about thing in the hockey world.

    Being openly friends affords them more freedoms to be together, but all the more easy to lose it all.

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    Shane has a touch of Hudson Williams to him

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    20 Jan 2026

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    Shane has spent half his life in the spotlight and until the day that woman walked into this house, he'd never been vulnerable with a complete stranger before. And he had been so vulnerable.

    The idea of a massive audience getting that close a look into his life makes him shake even now. His story is In Print. He's got an early copy but nothing can be changed. He won't be able to look back after it's released to the rest of the world.

    He should probably wait to open the magazine until he's not alone.

    He doesn't. And what he reads make his mouth drop.

    The First Husbands of Hockey
    How Two Rivals Teamed Up for Their Longest Game Yet

    Shane and Ilya do their first cover story together. This is that cover story.

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    15 Dec 2025