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    When Hayden's parents are injured while Jackie is away and none of his usual babysitters are available, new Ottawa resident Rozanov volunteers to watch the kids for the week. And to Hayden's shock, he finds himself desperate enough to agree to it.
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    “What about your wife?” Ilya wondered, his question soft to make sure he didn’t upset him again. “Can she not watch kids while you visit your parents?”  

    Hayden, for a moment, furrowed his brows. He never heard that gentle of a tone from Rozanov before. Ever. He thought about snapping again, but frankly, felt a bit too tired for it. Instead, he just shook his head.

    “She’s not even in the country,” he admitted. “And I can’t bother her after ruining her vacation last year.”  

    Ilya’s lips twitched, something akin to respect showing for a moment. “Alright, fine,” he muttered, sighing. “I take them.”  

    He blinked, scoffing. “What?” he responded in confusion.  

    “The kids, I take your kids,” Ilya clarified, gesturing between them. “How long will you be gone, a week? Two?” He leaned over, sorting through the other cart without permission to look at the snacks in comparison to what he already had at his house.  

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    10 Jun 2026

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    5 times the Centaurs (and Harris) stand up for Shane +1 time they didn't need to.

    Weakly, he protests, “Hey, I wasn't going t–”

    “I'm letting you off easy,” Evan says, pulling his hand back. He folds his arms over his barrel chest and glowers down at the man. “I get paid handsomely to protect that man. I take out guys bigger than me to make sure that he's good. His husband is also a big scary Russian who does not play about him. He's bound to come looking soon. So I'm giving you an out, pal. Take it.”

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    07 Jun 2026

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    After Shane gets traded to Ottawa, Ilya and him try to keep the relationship a secret by leaning into the rivalry that has followed them around for the entirety of their careers.

    But they underestimate just how competitive they are and it gets so bad that the team has to call an intervention.

    They try to pass it off as a mandatory team building session.

    It does not go well.

    No one is surprised.

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    07 Jun 2026

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    Montreal comes into Ottawa looking for blood.

    They get a rookie with a mouth on him instead.

    It’s supposed to be just another tight, physical game against the Voyageurs. Hard checks, ugly chirps, Rozanov bleeding a little for dramatic effect, the usual. Shane thinks he’s prepared. Ilya is, as always, one mildly illegal hit away from throwing hands. Bood is having the time of his life.

    No one, however, is prepared for Luca Haas.

    Nineteen. Polite. Painfully earnest. Carries art supplies in his backpack. Has never had an on-ice fight.

    Until he does.

    A story about rivalry, locker room insanity, rookie feral awakenings, and the exact moment Ottawa realizes their baby has teeth.

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    03 Jun 2026

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    Kiyoomi closes his eyes, slowly. He prays that the ground opens up and swallows him whole. He prays that a whole earthquake rocks Tokyo and brings the place down on him, specifically. He prays that some higher power decides to strike him with lightning right this minute.

    “Actually,” he says, grinding it out through clenched teeth, “you haven’t seen any other kids around, have you?”

    It's Kiyoomi's last resort to ask a stranger for help finding his sister's missing kids, but it's not like this night can get any weirder, and Miya Atsumu's kind of hot.

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    Kiyoomi closes his eyes, slowly. He prays that the ground opens up and swallows him whole. He prays that a whole earthquake rocks Tokyo and brings the place down on him, specifically. He prays that some higher power decides to strike him with lightning right this minute.

    “Actually,” he says, grinding it out through clenched teeth, “you haven’t seen any other kids around, have you?”
    It's Kiyoomi's last resort to ask a stranger for help finding his sister's missing kids, but it's not like this night can get any weirder, and Miya Atsumu's kind of hot.