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    Cardiac tamponade: pressure on that heart that prevents it from filling and beating adequately.

    Shane thought he knew two things: his move to Ottawa would cause chaos, and that the Ottawa Centaurs were nice.

    As it turned out, he only knew one of those things.

    (Or: the Cens are still a team of professional hockey players. They're going to fuck up.)

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    What should a wife be to a husband? What should a wife be that Shane isn’t?
    Maybe Ilya wants someone who will let him take charge. Shane isn’t that kind of person; he desperately clings to control with everything he has. He folds his clothes before sex and cleans his windows after Ilya fucks him against them. He controls his food portions, nutrition, his training schedule, image, and public appearances. He’s competitive. He would never roll over and take anything he didn’t want to.
    The thought makes his stomach clench. The one place he doesn’t cling desperately to control is in the bedroom. He lets himself be molded, shaped, and coaxed into anything Ilya wants when they fuck. Giving up that control, is that all that Ilya likes about him?

    Or: Shane starts making a different kind of plan after the conversation where Ilya says he could marry Svetlana.

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    Bookmarker's Notes

    holy characterization 🥹
    its very hard to write shane feminization and keep it in character and this fic NAILS IT

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    Shane did not have an eating disorder. He didn’t have a “food problem”, he was just a dedicated athlete. He wanted to be the best, and to do that you have to make sacrifices. So maybe he doesn’t drink pop that isn’t diet, and maybe he skips lunch, and maybe when he doesn’t know exactly what’s in his food he has a panic attack. So what? It didn’t mean anything.

    Ilya thought differently.

    or; 5 times Shane didn’t need help + 1 time he got it.

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  4. Rec 67

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    shane has a scar on his arm he regrets.

    it sits there alone, the ones around it long since faded and blended back into the supple skin of his inner forearm, but this one stands out.

    it's ugly and keloid after all these years, dead center in the middle, standing tall but not proud. a constant reminder of a shane hollander that died lifetimes ago.

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    A memory loss fic where Shane gets hit hard in the head and wakes up in the hospital. He thinks he is 27, sneaking around with Ilya and still in the closet, only to learn that they are married.

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    Tears spilled down his mother's cheeks. “No, honey, you’re not twenty seven. You're twenty nine. Almost thirty.”

    Shane snorted. “That can’t—”

    “It is, sweetheart. And Ilya is…”

    She glanced at the door where two large shadows stood just beyond the frosted glass window. The shorter one embraced the much, much taller one.

    Shane’s heart started beating frantically in his chest. His head pounded as he tried to take in what he was hearing, tried to process what the fuck his mother was saying to him.

    “Ilya,” he squeaked. “Ilya is what?”

    “Ilya is your husband.”

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