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    In the meanwhile, his fascination with Shane Hollander hasn’t waned. If anything, it’s stronger—the first thought he has when he signs his contract is that it will be much easier to orchestrate meeting him now that he’s a model, as well. The very thought makes his chest clench in excitement.

    The folder on his phone of Shane’s pictures grows steadily, so much so he starts to become a little concerned with himself, but he brushes it off. His obsessions were rarely harmful. Just… intense. Something about Shane Hollander intrigues him, and each time he learns more about him or finds a picture he hasn’t seen before it’s like a hit off a cigarette.

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    04 Jul 2026

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    His mother told him the story every so often; a ten-year-old Shane in Loblaws staring up at the endless supply of colorful cereals, stuck between one with white marshmallows and another with honey-granola oats; a too-tall shadow with a deep Russian voice asking which was better; he handed Shane the one with granola then turned to Yuna; “You give, or I take." 

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    04 Jul 2026

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    “—okay, that’s unusual,” the first commentator’s voice is saying over the footage. “Hm. Ladies and gentlemen, it seems that, thanks to some last-minute additions to the broadcast, we’ll be able to get an audio feed straight from the arena today!” 

    Ilya frowns. Who the fuck was stupid enough to get mic’d for this fucking game? Some idiot rookie from Toronto, probably. They really don’t teach kids how to handle anything these days. 

    “That’s right!” The second announcer pipes up with an annoyingly fake cheery voice. Ilya immediately wants to send a puck straight into his windpipe. “We just got confirmation that Captain Shane Hollander himself will be wearing a microphone during tonight’s game.” 

    Ilya sits up and spins to face the TV screen fast enough to give a lesser man whiplash.

    Shane doesn’t get injured when Ilya comes back from Russia in 2017, so Ilya follows through on his plan to end things between them. A year later, despite being miserable, he still believes he did the right thing for both of them.
    Except the Voyageurs have been acting weird around Hollander lately. And wait, what do you mean he’s mic’d for this game?

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    02 Jul 2026

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    Everyone knew that love could heal. With just a kiss to the cheek or forehead, it could heal papercuts and little scrapes. And there were rules, of course. It could only be healed by a kiss, the press of lips to skin of the injured person. The more kisses shared between two people, the more potent the magic became. The love had to be mutual and genuine. The intensity of love altered what one was capable of healing. Stronger love could heal wounds that were deeper, concussions and diseases and gashes large enough to need stitches. Nothing much bigger, though.

    Unless you were soulmates.

    Soulmates were supposed to create such a bond that they could heal anything that afflicted their soulmate. The love between soulmates still had to be there, but the magic was more potent. The stronger the bond between soulmates, the more they could heal. There were even a handful of cases where a person had brought their soulmate back from the dead. A love so pure, so strong, so genuine, that it reached beyond death, that it pushed air into lungs and restarted a heart. All healed with a true love’s kiss.

    These were just stories, though. And, besides, soulmates didn’t exist anymore.

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    02 Jul 2026

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    Their first vacation at the cottage is going perfectly. They're official boyfriends, they've told each other they love one another. Ilya doesn't think he's ever been this happy in his life. He's never been so close to happily ever after.

    Then, he convinces Shane to try his favorite fruit, and Ilya is swiftly reminded of why exactly he doesn't get happily ever afters.

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    02 Jul 2026

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    “Ilya–” Shane breathed, high and wheezy. “You can’t– You can’t leave me! Please, God, please, don’t take him. Please, please, I can’t lose– I can’t–”

    A blaring alarm yanked him out of his panic like a fish out of water. He shot upright, flailing his limbs that were caught in something soft. Blurred splashes of colour steadily painted a picture of a bedroom he’d recognise anywhere. It was brighter now, light pouring in through partially shut curtains. His breath was heavy and he struggled making sense of how the hell he’d ended up in bed when just a moment ago, Ilya had–

    “Hollander.” Ilya slurred, narrowing his eyes at him. “Turn that thing off.”

     

    Or, Shane is stuck in a time loop that resets whenever his fiancé dies.

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    02 Jul 2026

  7. Public Bookmark 7

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    Shane didn’t know much of anything, anymore.
    He knew that the pain was a constant.
    He knew that he was tired, more so with every hour, every day that he was trapped here.
    He knew that it had been at least three days since he’d seen the stars, maybe longer if the men who’d taken him were as good at concealing time from him as they said.
    Shane knew that he was probably going to die without ever seeing the stars again.

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    02 Jul 2026

  8. Public Bookmark 19

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    Lily’s eyes grow impossibly darker, her grip on Jane’s wrist tightening slightly. “What did you say?”

    “Nothing. Never mind. Sorry, forget I said that.” Jane tries to wriggle out of the hold, but Lily presses down harder to keep her still.

    “You want me to teach you how to touch yourself?”

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    college roommates hollanova au where jane asks lily to help her figure some things out

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    01 Jul 2026

  9. Public Bookmark 47

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    “I should kill you, you know,” the man remarked conversationally, his head tilted to the side as if he was puzzling something out.

    Shane stepped back automatically, about to make a break for the door, but before he could take another step, the man was right there in front of him - standing almost nose to nose.

    “Don’t you know is rude to leave mid conversation? At least you could actually try to run away properly…”

    A shiver ran down his spine at just how calm the blond sounded. Truly as if this was utterly mundane, and maybe to him it was.

    “What did I do to you?” Shane asked, aware of how petulant he sounded.

    (...)

    “Well,” the blond drawled, “is not what you did, but what you saw.”

    “Oh, I see,” he said, though truly he didn’t see at all.

    (...)

    “What…what are you?”

    The blond thankfully disregarded that question. “I think, Hollander,” he purred Shane’s last name in a way that made breathing a supreme effort, “you should be thinking about what I’m going to do with you instead.”

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    01 Jul 2026

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    Ilya frowned slightly. He felt oddly wrong-footed and no closer to understanding the in-joke everyone else at the table seemed to be sharing. It brought back latent feelings of inadequacy, from years of wading through a language that still didn’t feel like his own.

    “So what then?”

    “What do you mean?” Dykstra looked even more confused than Ilya by now, both Wyatt and Bood seemingly content to sit back and watch this exchange happen, Hazy looking slightly wry and Boodram openly grinning.

    “Like, what makes it special?” Ilya clarified.

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    Ilya learns about the concept of a birthday blowjob and, consequently, how tragically under-blown his teammates are.

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    01 Jul 2026

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    “Tell me why I should take you instead, Hollander,” Rozanov ordered. He pronounced every syllable in his last name and purposely drew it out.

    "You want silence. Think about the silence that comes from permanently ending a bloodline. Think about the silence that comes after the scream of a mother who has lost her only child. If you want her to suffer the way you have, then let me take her place and let her live with that. Take me instead of her.”

    Rozanov appeared to be considering the offer. He angled his head at Shane before speaking, “Shane Hollander, do you want to pay the debt your family owes to me by taking the place of your mother?”

    “Yes,” Shane replied without hesitation.

    Or: Mob Boss Grigori Rozanov is murdered in a hit and his son Ilya Rozanov seeks vengeance against those who have wronged his family. Revenge will cost Shane Hollander his freedom, his life, and more after he offers to take his mother's place on Rozanov's hit list.

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    01 Jul 2026

  12. Public Bookmark 77

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    Current omegaverse fics in the drafts:
    Rival Clans, Prisoner/Captor A/B/O - currently at 21k, multi-chapter

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    01 Jul 2026

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    The blackouts are getting worse.

    They aren't dangerous, in the long run, just strange. Strange because they only ever happen when Shane is at home; never on the road, at the rink, or even when in public.

    His blackouts only ever happen in his condo.

    Shane doesn't even realize something is happening at first. He'll get home after practice or a game, exhausted, and the second the front door closes behind him something in his body loosens. A warmth spreads through him and his thoughts will go fuzzy at the edges. His inner omega will start purring low and smug in the back of his mind.

    Nest, it says.

    Once the thought hits, the urge becomes almost unbearable. He usually makes it to the bedroom before the rest hits. Shane will crawl into bed still half dressed, burrowing instinctively into the blankets, dragging pillows close against his chest while warmth floods his body in thick, heavy waves. His painfully organized nest will become messy, Shane digging around until the chaotic placements feels perfect.

    And then—nothing. Absolutely nothing. Hours vanish, sometimes even entire evenings.

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    01 Jul 2026

  14. Public Bookmark 72

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    Naim finds himself cornered by the entity who looks like Ryan. Unexpectedly, the entity genuinely wants him.

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    01 Jul 2026

  15. Public Bookmark 50

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    Shane, an omega who is hiding his status, does not expect the first person to learn of it to be his alpha roommate, Ilya, in an anonymous meetup for a heat week sharing arrangement.

    "Why don't you sit down, Ilya?" Shane said as he held up his hands in front of him as though Ilya was some sort of wild animal.

    "WHY? Where's the omega that's staying in this room?" Ilya demanded, then remembered to tone his alpha voice down a little.

    "PLEASE JUST SIT. I'll explain. I promise," Shane said.

    Ilya did remember that his rut energy levels were a tad high as he dropped the prosecco on the table with a thump and sat down heavily in the dining chair near the door as Shane took the other seat.

    "Shane… That scent… The omega. Is he in the ensuite? When are you leaving?"

    "N-no…He's not…"

    "Why are you in a bathrobe?"

    "Ilya…You're making this conversation very difficult…"

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    30 Jun 2026

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    Shane Hollander Walks Ilya Rozanov Like A Dog

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    30 Jun 2026

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    Hollanov A/B/O

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    30 Jun 2026

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    Ilya knew that he was bad at being a vampire, and he liked it this way. He knew that he was cursed, that he was a monster, but not inherently evil. He didn't have to be rotten like his father as long as he held onto his principles and the knowledge that he had to stay away from humans, no matter how drawn he felt to them.

    Four Lessons. Four Beliefs. A simple construct of rules. Quite easy to follow.

    Or at least they had been, until Ilya met the head of the Montreal Coven, a vampire named Theriault. It had been a day like any other, an assignment to build connections with the Coven for his father's dealings. Nothing special. Until Ilya laid eyes on Theriault's thrall.

    Just like this, all of Ilya's lessons and rules were blown to pieces.

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    30 Jun 2026

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    When Ilya casually suggests marrying Svetlana, Shane remembers he's The Shane Hollander and calls Ilya on his bluff.

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    30 Jun 2026

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    While in the cottage, Shane and Ilya recount when they each knew they were in love.
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    The real moment happened when his iron chest alchemized to mercury under Ilya’s gaze, and Rozanov became his Ilya. Instead of two hot, muscular bodies they were these timeless souls staring deeply into each other. It was the moment Shane looked at Ilya and saw every past and future iteration of him all at once: the little boy with curly blond hair on a slanted and melting rink in Russia, the mischievous rookie who messed with the press, the middle aged hockey coach who accidentally taught their kids Russian curse words. 

    And that moment happened to be completely inconsequential. 

    Shane can’t help but laugh when it hits him.

    “What? Shane, tell meeee,” Ilya pleads, tired of waiting patiently for his answer. His head is on the pillow next to Shane’s and his eyes are scanning Shane’s face, trying to read the answer inside of his skull. Shane thinks maybe he could. 

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    30 Jun 2026

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