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    Shane hates losing control and the last several months-years if he's being honest-have been nothing but him trying to grab onto any choice he can make for himself. In the wake of being outed, exiled from the team he's dedicated his life to, and losing everything he's worked so hard for just because of who he fell in love with, Shane does the only thing he can: he runs until he feels like he's far enough away that he can't hear anyone else's opinions.

    It's time for Shane to make a decision, just once, he wants to choose something for himself.
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    chapter one can be read as a standalone

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    26 Jun 2026

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    Irina Orlova (formerly Rozanova), a woman who survives a suicide attempt and rebuilds her life after an abusive marriage. With Ilya at her side, she starts over, finds her way back to ballet, and becomes the kind of mother who will do anything to keep her son safe.

    Long before Irina meets Shane Hollander, Ilya has already made his obsession clear. Shane is the hockey player he watches, talks about, and admires from a distance. Then, in the middle of winter, Shane ends up beside Irina on a flight to Moscow. Irina recognizes the chance for what it is. So she brings Shane to her son's restaurant and quietly lets fate do the rest.

    What follows is Irina watching Ilya discover a new kind of joy, one that is not tied to food but to love.

    OR: AU!Irina Orlova (formerly Rozanova) survives. She plays match-maker in the dead of winter.

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    25 Jun 2026

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    A series of Ilya and Shane struggling to get people to take their relationship reveals very seriously at all.

    The fics in this series are set in the same universe, so these are the SAME Shane and Ilya. Although they can be read in any order, Totally Real Canadian Boyfriend™️ takes place roughly 5 years before Pour Decisions.

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    24 Jun 2026

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    Shane sees his ex at a cafe and texts what he thinks it’s a dud number to look busy, little does he know it belongs to Ilya. Shane uses the thread to use as a reminder for stuff he has to do. Ilya enjoys reading what this mysterious man does until he gets a text at 3am.

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    22 Jun 2026

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    "Rozy," Brian, the team doctor says, "talk to me, buddy. That puck clipped you pretty good, how’s the pain?"

    Ilya blinks. He clenches his jaw against a wave of nausea. He rests his cheek on the ice, and the cold helps a little.

    "Bad. Very bad." He swallows. "Is Shane here?"

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    or, in the final MTL/BOS game of the year, ilya takes a puck to the head.

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    28 May 2026