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drawn in by strange_ghost
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
12 Jul 2026
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"He saw the corners of Ilya's lips curve up ever so slightly in that infuriating, tiny hint of a smile. “Goodbye, Shane Hollander.”
Shane could only ogle as Ilya walked away. Fuck. His ass was fat. This was so bad.
Shane Hollander, star athlete, D1 hockey team captain, campus heartthrob, was being completely undone by a brooding Slavic art major that he would probably crawl on his fucking knees and bark for."
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Shane is ready for another boring semester where he has to pretend like he cares about anything other than hockey. Until he sits down next to a mysterious Russian art student who also happens to be the hottest guy Shane has ever seen.
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20 Jul 2026
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Merlin figures out he is immortal, and he does not take it well. Arthur finds him just as he pours the poison down his throat.
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17 Jul 2026
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I knew you'd haunt all of my what ifs by allmylovesatonce
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
22 Jun 2026
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Five years ago, Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov quietly went their separate ways. They handled their heartbreak differently. Shane cut off his family and friends and focused only on hockey, not that it helped, his game has totally fallen apart. Ilya had the support of the Centaurs, even if they didn't know why they were supporting him.
But when Ilya announces his retirement at the end of the next season, it shakes Shane back to reality. He has one season left to play against the man he still loves; and then, would he ever see him again? As Shane starts to piece his life back together, the biggest missing piece is still Ilya.
Ilya had planned to just enjoy the last season he'd play of professional hockey and obviously try to win another cup. But when Shane reaches back out, he has much more to consider. He never expected to talk to Shane again, but he can't deny that it's everything he's wanted in the last five years.
Can they salvage what they had? Should they even try? How can Shane and Ilya be a part of each other's lives again?
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- English
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16 Jul 2026
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this is not enough (i am not enough) by blankjournals
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
08 Jan 2026
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Shane's breath catches on a sob, and he muffles the sound with his hand. Everything feels like too much. He’s naked, and he can feel entirely too much on his body, inside his body, and he hates how it's starting to feel gross. His head is pounding, and he can't even focus on placating his mind when his lungs are also screaming in his throat for breath.
Ilya hears, and his hands reach out to hold Shane, tension lying in every part of his body. “Shane—”
“Don't touch me,” Shane snaps, more desperation than yelling as he rips his arm out of Ilyas's grasp. His tears have nowhere to go now, and they finally spill over, hot and humiliating, down his cheeks.
Ilya freezes in place, hand hovering mid-air. A myriad of emotions flicker across his face: confusion, hurt, fear. Ilya takes an unconscious step back like someone shoved him. His body curls in on itself, trying to make himself appear smaller.
He looks... terrified. Like, Shane just called him a monster, and he believes it.
OR: inspired by the fight in the long game when ilya had told shane he could have sex with other men because he did not believe in cheating.
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- Part 2 of missing scenes from TLG 📖
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15 Jun 2026
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tied up in the third (and sent to overtime) by aquilanovae
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
03 Apr 2026
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"He thinks about it later though, back in his hotel room alone. The thought of being tied up, being tied up by Rozanov, and fucked until he can’t take it anymore. Maybe even past what he can’t take anymore. That’s…
Well. Shane isn’t the risk-taking type, but what has everything to do with Rozanov for the past five years been except a very bad idea?"
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shane: *asks to be tied up and fucked stupid*
ilya: this is my fucking superbowledit: now includes ilya's pov
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- Part 1 of my kink is you
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26 May 2026
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cardiac tamponade by asthestarsforetold
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
29 Apr 2026
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Cardiac tamponade: pressure on that heart that prevents it from filling and beating adequately.
Shane thought he knew two things: his move to Ottawa would cause chaos, and that the Ottawa Centaurs were nice.
As it turned out, he only knew one of those things.
(Or: the Cens are still a team of professional hockey players. They're going to fuck up.)
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26 May 2026
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cortisol, oxytocin, vasopressin by rhodenia
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
22 Apr 2026
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Apparently, Shane’s no better than a skittering lab rat, except he doesn’t press a button when he’s hoping for scraps—he knocks on Rozanov’s door.
Or: Rozanov is never going to love him back, so Shane decides to go to war with biochemistry. He buys a psychology book with a five-step guide to help him do it. If only he could actually stick to the plan.
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- English
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- 44,408
- Chapters:
- 5/5
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10 May 2026
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When I Walk Into The Room, I Do Not Light It Up. Fuck. by TeaTimeAllOverTown
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
03 Apr 2026
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He can’t tell Ilya though. He can’t tell Ilya that his team might not be right for Shane. That this perfect solution is making Shane a worse hockey player, a bad teammate.
That maybe Shane Hollander of the Voyagers really was his full name. That Shane Hollander of the Centaurs might not exist.
He can’t say that. He can’t ruin everything. He can’t dim the shine in Ilya’s eyes, the bounce in his step, the color in his cheeks he didn’t have the last few years.
Ilya sacrificed hockey for their relationship for two years, played on a crappy team and watched Shane win. It’s Shane’s turn to sacrifice, to figure out how to make this work and let Ilya lead this time.
Or:
Transitions are hard for Shane. Joining his husband's team turns out not to be an exception to that rule.
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- English
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03 May 2026
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Rather than give him the joint, Ilya takes it back between his own lips and sucks in a deep breath, the tip glowing as he does so. Then, before Shane can process it, he’s reaching up and sliding one large hand around the back of Shane’s neck, pulling him down so their lips meet.
Shane gasps softly, and Ilya takes the opportunity to blow smoke into his open and waiting mouth.
Oh, God. Are you there? It’s me, Shane Hollander. We’ve had our differences, but I think I’d like to convert for real this time. I’m ready. Open the pearly white gates. I’m coming up.
Shane goes to a house party, gets high, then gets on his knees. bon appetite
now a multi-chapter saga bc i couldn't help myself- Language:
- English
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- 93,547
- Chapters:
- 5/5
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- 2,335
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26 Apr 2026
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The Boy From New York City by Traincat
Fandoms: The Amazing Spider-Man (Movies - Webb), Fantastic Four (2015)
28 Nov 2018
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Central City, California is beautiful, but it’s not where Johnny wants to be – and he’s not who he wants to be, either. Inspired by the recent return of Spider-Man, Johnny convinces the newly minted Fantastic Four to return to the Baxter Building, the site of the incident that gave them their powers. But not everything is what it seems, and worse yet, Spider-Man wants nothing to do with the Human Torch.
In the wake of Gwen’s death, Peter has finally put the mask back on, but nothing’s the same as it once was, and the thrill has gone out of Spider-Man. The Fantastic Four’s arrival only makes everything worse. The Human Torch is good looking, he’ll give him that much, but Peter has no plans of making friends. A series of strange attacks and a fateful encounter on the docks may not leave him much choice.
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- English
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- 84,499
- Chapters:
- 10/10
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- 2
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- 312
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24 Mar 2026
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the way that i love you (is the way that you taught me) by jellyrose222
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
04 Feb 2026
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Shane doesn’t like to ask for what he needs, but when Ilya is around, he doesn’t have to.
or five times Ilya fixes it without making Shane feel bad, and one time he doesn’t.
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15 Mar 2026
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Dinner Tonight? by FriPie
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
11 Feb 2026
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There was nothing standard about Shane and Ilya's relationship, so it really shouldn't have been so surprising that they had their first date over a decade after meeting each other.
It also shouldn't be surprising that it took roughly five minutes before it turned into a competition.
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- 15,122
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15 Mar 2026
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corner of the world by berrycluv
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
31 Dec 2025
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Ilya doesn’t even realize when Arthur slips from his thoughts. There’s no sharp turn, no clear moment where the article stops being about a little boy who loves reptiles and starts being about the man lying beside him in bed. It just… happens. The way his mind always seems to find Shane eventually, like water finding its lowest point.
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a character study on shane’s undiagnosed autism
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- 8,630
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- 1/1
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11 Mar 2026
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Three times Ilya can't resist marking what's his, and one time Shane decides to return the favor.
Or: Shane and Ilya's first season together on the Centaurs. Includes teasing teammates, introspection, therapy, personal growth, lots of sex and an attempt to bring home the Stanley Cup.
(Also: A story about learning how to accept your true self and all the joy that can come from that.)
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- English
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- 12,650
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- 4/4
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- 934
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25 Feb 2026
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Public Bookmark 2034
Mystery Work
Part of PBTR private fics
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This is part of an ongoing challenge and will be revealed soon!
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04 Feb 2026
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all the things he did by blankjournals
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
29 Dec 2025
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4 times Shane was strict with Ilya and the 1 time he wasn't ft Ilya having an emotional crisis over it.
OR: inspired by the tweet: ilya actually love having a strict boyfriend. like no his bitch do not let him have friends NO he not allowed to be out past 11 and NO U CANNOT SIT HERE!!!
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02 Feb 2026
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Sit Tight, I'm Not Far Out From You Tonight by hudsinmonger (louislittletomlintum)
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)
05 Jan 2026
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"Is this like - a prank?" Shane finally asked, looking down at the underwear again. For such a small piece of fabric they felt like they were drawing their own gravitational pull in the room, had their own centre of gravity. There was a little heart charm on them, sitting in the middle front hem as a decoration.
"No," Ilya answered steadily, and when Shane looked back up his eyes were still locked on him.
"Then what is it?" Shane asked, touching the fabric again and dragging them a little to the side, like maybe they were hiding something that would make him understand.
"A present. For you," Ilya explained, in that bored tone like he'd said it all before. Which technically he had, but it didn't make Shane understand it any better.
Shane must have looked even more confused, because Ilya tutted and spoke up again.
"To wear, Shane, you have heard of underwear, yes?"
or the one where ilya buys his fwb, totally casual situationship shane a pair of panties to try
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31 Jan 2026
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Ilya’s hand wraps around his bare wrist and squeezes. Shane barely stops himself from collapsing to his knees.
The pressure lights up every receptor of his touch-starved nervous system, wrenching a small, pained noise from the back of his throat. Every muted sensation comes flooding back so intensely that it almost hurts. He needs Ilya to hold him down until there’s nothing inside him but quiet. He wants to sink into him and disappear.
It takes Shane an entire beat to remember where they are. Fighting against the fog in his mind, he manages to drag his gaze up to meet Ilya’s.
There’s a slow-dawning horror and understanding on Ilya’s face.
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Or: Shane is in subdrop after their encounter in Vegas. Ilya fixes it.
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31 Jan 2026
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“Game is over,” he says. “You won. I lost. I was annoying. Normal.”
“That’s not—” Shane starts, then stops, because he actually doesn't know how to finish that thought without sounding like an idiot. His jaw works, teeth grinding together.
That's not what I meant. That's not the point. You said I was boring and you were right and I need you to say it again so I know where I stand, so I know what you think of me, so I can stop waiting for the other shoe to drop.
He settles for: “You were kind of an asshole.”
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31 Jan 2026
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and i need somewhere to land (i might as well fall) by rwrb_uncut
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)
16 Jan 2026
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“Hollander? You are still here?” Rozanov called, breaking the TV static silence filling Shane’s head. He blinked.
“Uh. Yeah, just leaving,” he answered, surprised by how steady his voice sounded. Good, that was good. He knew he couldn’t show Rozanov any weakness if he wanted to keep coming back.
But did he want to come back if it made him feel like this?
“Door is too heavy? Or I fuck you too good, you cannot move legs,” came Rozanov’s taunting response. Shane could practically see the tilted smirk on his face, cigarette smoke wafting around his freshly-showered curls.
“Fuck off, Rozanov,” Shane muttered.
_____________________Or, I wrote something to add to the pile of subdrop!Shane in Vegas fics because legally by law I had to
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Bookmarked by atomicblonde
31 Jan 2026