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    Ilya's eyes snapped. Something hot behind them. "You think you are better than me?"

    Shane shook his head. It was like comparing apples and oranges, he wasn't sure how to even measure who was better. "No, and you know that's not what I meant. It's true, I'm more likely to get called up before you, and-"

    Ilya propped himself up, nose now inches from Shane's. Shane couldn't help looking at his lips, flushed from running. To his horror, Ilya seemed to notice, and he started grinning.

    "I think I will catch you." Ilya said, casually. "I cannot let you play without me. Would be no fun."

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    Baseball au. Shane Hollander is a tightly wound pitcher who has been dreaming about the major leagues since he was six. Ilya Rozanov is a cocky shortstop who is infuriatingly good at reading him.

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    14 Jul 2026

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    Baseball AU ❤️⚾️
    done

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    “What the fuck, Ilya? You’re a fucking serial killer.” He backs up into the bedroom slowly, the way you’d retreat from a raging bear, until his back hits the sliding glass door, cool against the broad span of his shoulder blades.

    Ilya tuts, a feral look in his eyes, “Not a serial killer, a spree killer. You should know this, Hollander. Is it not your job to catch men like me? Or are you too busy turning a blind eye to the abusive assholes you work with, too busy covering up their crimes?”

    What’s the difference between a cottage and a cabin? The amount of spree killers present, apparently. Shane’s place has quickly gone from quaint lakeside cottage to a nightmare cabin in the woods.

    It doesn’t help that the killer happens to be the man Shane loves, or that his chances of survival are dwindling by the minute. Turns out, red flags just look like ordinary flags when you’re wearing rose-coloured glasses, though one would think a homicide detective would be able to sense when he's being stalked.

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    09 Jul 2026

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    ch 11- new boat and ‘i love you’

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    “He thinks you like me. ...Do you like me?”
    "...You are difficult to not like. It is very easy to fall for you."

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    Ilya thinks Shane Hollander's boyfriend is an asshole, and he doesn't think that just because he's head over heels in love.

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    09 Jul 2026

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    ch5 - dead dad, ‘ilya, baby’, flirting at the party

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    Ilya had ended their relationship, or whatever it had technically been, only weeks after Shane was seriously injured on the ice. He’d visited him in hospital, said he would maybe, maybe, come to his cottage that summer, and then never did.

    They don’t speak again. Not properly... at least not in any way that counts. Time passes anyway. Seasons move on.

    Now it’s August 2018, and suddenly they’re back in the same space again.

    So what happens now? What's Ilya supposed to do with something that doesn’t feel finished?

    Especially when Shane has… moved on.

    Because, boo! There’s Casper.

    CHAPTER 10 - SHANE'S POV - PART I

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    09 Jul 2026

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    ch 18 - ‘active ally’, playoffs, treehouse, sketchy call

    casper a D1 manipulator its literally so subtle and i fucking hate him oh my GOD

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    Rozanov's so… professional. He's all grown up and not at all like the boy he once was. The polite smile never leaves his face even when he's looking at Shane.

    "You are very lucky," Rozanov tells him, "That your concussion is only mild. Seeing me is a not so good thing, okay?"

    Shane sighs through his nose, pouts. "Yeah… okay. But… I haven't seen you in a million years. Why are you a doctor now? You should be playing hockey—" He wiggles a little, grins sideways— "With me."

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    or, after wondering what happened to Ilya after the NHL draft, Shane discovers he's been in Montreal the whole time, and more than that, is an entire doctor instead of the hockey player he should've become.

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    24 May 2026

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    medical / neurologist x hockey player
    ch8 - christmas yuna pov