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    Dazai is a struggling writer in the 80s, drowning his depression in alcohol and sex, trying to escape his past.

    Chuuya is a bartender at a queer bar, which he frequently sings at. But despite his passionate demeanor, he is constantly trying to fulfill his meaningless life with alcohol and his music, searching for something better.

    Dazai stumbles into a bar that he had never seen before, unaware of the atmosphere around him. He silently watches as Chuuya begins to sing on stage. Dazai watches him, unsure of the feelings that arise within him as he watches this strange, yet intoxicating, redhead perform.

    A story of two men searching for something more in life as they navigate sexuality, their haunting pasts, and battling the society around them during the height of the AIDS epidemic in the 80s.

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    10 Jul 2026

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    Dazai was standing on a clock tower, waiting for the midnight chime before jumping. But chuuya hacked the clock a few minutes before midnight.

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    10 Jul 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 17

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    exes don’t hate each other with their bodies wrapped together…right?

    "..Don't say my name like that," he murmurs, voice low, strained. "...or don't stop."

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    10 Jul 2026

  4. Public Bookmark 66

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    Chuuya closed his eyes but as soon as Dazai pulled away, he punched Dazai into his face.

    "WHAT THE FUCK?" he yelled at Dazai.

    "It wasn't on purpose" Dazai said with a straight face. Showing no emotions whatever.

    "WHAT'S THAT SUPPOSED TO MEAN?" Chuuya tried hard to pretend he didn't like any of that.

    "That's just how the ability works if the opponent is too strong. So you either kiss or kill" Dazai spit out a convincing lie.

    ["How long can I continue this pretending game?"]

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    10 Jul 2026

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    “You’re so stupid,” Chuuya grumbles, pulling the wire of the plug out of the vacuum. “I can’t believe the kids at the Sheep are way better at doing chores than you.”

    Dazai’s expression falters, not that Chuuya can see it.

    “If Chuuya wanted someone to do chores, maybe he shouldn’t have invited me to stay at his house in the first place,” Dazai says. He said it with the instinctive desire to joke, and while his smile steadily remains, it now feels empty over his lips.

    It's not that Dazai doesn't want to do house chores, it's mostly because he doesn't know how. He would rather let Chuuya think that he's being lazy than stupid though.

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    08 Jul 2026