WatchingFireworks



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    It started, as so many things do, with a tweet.

    “Hey, Hollzy! Look at this! It’s so you and Roz,” Evan Dykstra said, shoving his phone in Shane’s face. Shane squinted at the slightly blurry screen, willing his eyes to focus on the small font. He never brought his glasses to practice (much to Ilya’s chagrin), but he also never anticipated reading whatever stupid meme the Centaurs decided was vital for his desolate knowledge of pop culture.

    Me and the bad bitch I pulled by being autistic, it read, followed by a photo pulled from Centaurs socials of Ilya and Shane smiling at each other like idiots at a team event.

    Shane read it a second time, then looked up at Dykstra, who looked incredibly proud of himself. Clearly, Ilya was supposed to be the ‘bad bitch,’ because no one had ever put those two words in the same sentence as Shane Hollander.

    “Funny, D,” Shane began, “but I’m not autistic.”

     

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    Shane Hollander realizes he might be autistic. He is the last person to do so.

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    19 Jul 2026

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    Shane thinks this is probably the first - and last - time in his life that he’s ever been excited about grocery shopping. But it’s their first time doing it together, as a couple, out in public where other people can see them. Where, finally, they don’t have to pretend to be something they’re not.

    It’s such a small thing - insignificant to most people, probably - but it’s a luxury Shane never thought he would be allowed to have.

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    16 Jul 2026

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    Shane holds his hand in the grocery store. He bumps their knees together under the lunch table after practice. He kisses Ilya for good luck before physio. Each and every little thing feels like a victory worthy of a rallying speech and dragging the boys out for drinks. Ilya supposes that him and Shane together, in public, still playing hockey, is probably the biggest victory of their careers.

    After transferring to the Centaurs, Shane is surprisingly affectionate. Ilya isn't going to let anything change that.

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    16 Jul 2026

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    Ilya eats a mango and Shane makes hot cocoa. Also, Shane publicly professes his love, but that’s just to make a point.

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    16 Jul 2026

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    Ilya knows firsthand that the world isn’t comfortable. It’s loud, bright, demanding, a harsh place in direct opposition to everything he’s recently learned about autism.

    Is it so wrong that he wants Shane to feel safe here? To carve out a space where, even if only for a few hours, he doesn’t have to grin and bear anything? He can just be?

    Or: Ilya Rozanov has a lot of good ideas. Telling his fuck buddy that he should consider getting an autism diagnosis isn’t one of them.

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    16 Jul 2026