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    Shane has never questioned how much Ilya loves him.

    What he questions is whether Ilya understands what love asks of him.

    After months of thoughtless habits, crossed boundaries, and conversations left unfinished, the cracks in their long-distance relationship become impossible to ignore. Neither of them wants to lose what they've built. Neither of them really knows how to stop hurting the other.

    A story about emotional intimacy, learning to communicate, and discovering that love isn't just something you feel. It's something you practice.

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    25 Jul 2026

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    There really was no way he would have been able to break up with Shane tonight. He is a weak, weak man. He is a weak man who needs to get the fuck out of here before he goes back on Twitter and causes problems, or before he does something else insane like sniffing through Shane’s underwear drawer or running a reverent hand across his yoga mat. All around him is Shane Shane Shane and Shane is not here. Shane is at Montreal General Hospital in unknown condition, possibly alone.

    Ilya is putting his shoes on before he fully realizes that he’s decided to go to the hospital.

     

    Shane Hollander is carted off the ice after getting hit by Cliff Marlow. An exhausted and still-grieving Ilya Rozanov spirals, makes some stupid choices, and accidentally finds himself hanging out with his situationship’s parents.

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    22 Jul 2026

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    On the morning of September 11, 2001, Shane Hollander attends a breakfast meeting inside the North Tower of the World Trade Center.

    Hundreds of miles away, Ilya watches the news, sees the tragedy and realizes that the man he loves, secretly, desperately, and without ever having said the words aloud, is somewhere inside.

    With the phones down, the airports closed, and no one but Shane’s parents and Ilya's agent knowing what they are to each other, Ilya begins the impossible journey to New York.

    Shane, meanwhile, is trying to get out alive.

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    19 Jul 2026

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    Maybe if the video ended there, Shane thought, it would be okay. Okayish. Still incriminating. Still a fucking disaster. Still embarrassing, to have his breakup with this beautiful actress filmed and disseminated on Reddit of all fucking places, but not a nail in his coffin, burying him alive. But the video didn’t end there.

    “Can I ask if you’ve ever been with another guy?” she had to ask.

    And he, tears visible in his eyes, had to nod.

    Just once. Just a single nod.

    Why did he have to nod?

    “Have you ever told anyone that before?” He shook his head. “Was it different? With a guy?”

    “Of course.”

    Of course.

    “Was it better?”

    “Yes.”

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    Shane’s conversation with Rose is secretly recorded. Months later, after the All-Star game and Ilya’s confession in Russian, the video gets leaked online. Shane is outed to the world while Ilya is in Russia, and must now finish the 2016-2017 season with the entire world in on his secret.

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    16 Jul 2026

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    “Who are you talking to?” Sveta is looking with a raised eyebrow, at Ilya’s delighted face.

    “Ah, I am talking to my catfish.”

    “What do you mean, your catfish?” Ilya angles the phone so Sveta can see the shirtless picture on the screen.

    “This guy is pretending to be Shane Hollander on Grindr. It’s pretty funny. He’s cropped the face out, but he’s using pictures from the billboard next to my apartment.”

    Or: Ilya Rozanov is sure he's being catfished- why would the real Shane Hollander be on Grindr, talking to random university of Ottawa students? But the more he talks to Wayne, the more he starts to like him, and the more he wishes Wayne would just come clean so they can finally be together.

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    13 Jul 2026