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Halo by Suoulvr
Fandoms: Wind Breaker - にいさとる | Nii Satoru (Manga), Wind Breaker (Anime)
19 Apr 2026
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Sometimes he thought about dying.
Can “sometimes” mean every day?
He doesn’t know.Nirei thinks he wants to die. Maybe.
He longs for too much. He desires too much.
And yet, he wants to die.They look at him. They greet him.
And he smiles.He thinks about the pills he used to steal from his mother so he could sleep, even if just a little.
To die, even if just a little.They touch his hair.
They kiss him.He thinks about how his ribs tighten, as if they wanted to crush something soft and fragile inside.
He breathes the same. He smiles the same.They laugh with him.
He laughs with them.
And he thinks about the balcony in his room.
The height.
The fall.The air hitting his face.
They desire him.
He despises himself.
Or they despise him, and then he tries to desire himself.
Nirei is miserable.Series
- Part 3 of Nirei angst
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Morning by Suoulvr
Fandoms: Wind Breaker - にいさとる | Nii Satoru (Manga), Wind Breaker (Anime)
25 Aug 2024
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Less than an hour to go, and Nirei could pull out his stomach with his bare hands, draw an X on his throat and rip out his vocal cords, pull out every single eyelash, and rot in that room.
He was sure that if his mother saw him like this she would let him skip school, maybe he should pretend he was sick, he had always been very sickly and there was a chance his mother would believe him.
Or he could go back to begging her on his knees, throw away the last dignity he had left, cry and puke his guts out.
"Dear, it's time to get up!"
Series
- Part 2 of Nirei angst
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Dying by Suoulvr
Fandoms: Wind Breaker - にいさとる | Nii Satoru (Manga), Wind Breaker (Anime)
22 Jul 2024
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He's good at reading people and it's sadly obvious how they look at him with pity, the same look they give to the people they help, he shouldn't be the one receiving the same look, when he's supposed to be at their side, to be at the same level, to be their ally.
He knows this because Suo or Sakura would never receive a look like that, even if Sakura caused an imminent need to help him, not even when they were helping Anzai with his unfortunate situation. Nirei could never see that kind of look directed at any of his classmates except him, it hurt him, just a little, it felt like a needle stuck in his skin, small and harmless, it could almost be ignored, but it never goes away, in fact, in the moment someone touches the
needle, the pain returns.Or
How Nirei spends his entire life thinking about dying.
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- Part 1 of Nirei angst
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Kuroo's house was quiet, contrary to what was expected from the safe and reliable image he had formed over the years, Kuroo's house is really quiet, although it was the least he expected after years of screaming, broken glass and pillows to minimize the arguments, after all his family of four ended up becoming Kuroo and whoever was there, Kuroo and the few times his father tried to act like what that man was, his father, Kuroo and his grandparents when they found the time to be with him, or most of the time Kuroo and kenma, games, not very quality food and meaningless disputes, but still silent, kuroo wished that it were nostalgic for when it was a noisy house, but along with the noise came violence. And maybe it was a bit boring and lonely, he preferred silence a thousand times.
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Or basically kuroo dealing with silence, the reasons for it and the consequences of it
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Reo was used to inappropriate touching, it was a constant thought in his mind that weighed heavily, cutting off his breathing and making his eyes blurry.
or how Reo burns from the touch of others.
Recent series
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Nirei angst by Suoulvr
Fandom Wind Breaker (Anime), Wind Breaker - にいさとる | Nii Satoru (Manga)
19 Apr 2026
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angst about Nirei Akihiko from WIND BREAKER!!
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“What am I going to do without you?”
“Never,” Martin replies, turning his face to kiss hungrily at Juhoon’s lips. Juhoon thinks that maybe Martin misheard him but the thought doesn’t hold. It’s hard when his mind keeps slipping back to Martin, how he looks, how he smells, how he feels. Martin keeps saying it, “never, never, never,” until Juhoon has to kiss him again.
Heartbreak wants to take hold of Juhoon, to ruin this moment, but it is powerless against the soft purrs and whimpers falling from Martin’s lips between kisses.
or Juhoon wishes upon a star, and that star is more than happy to grant his wish!
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23 Jul 2026
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Martin reaches over instead of doing something normal and plucks a leaf from the grass beside them, presses it gently to Juhoon’s cheek where the tear was.
It’s absurd and weirdly soft.
“It’s fine,” Martin says, suddenly serious. “This is an ancient method.”
Juhoon blinks at him. “Huh?”
“Before tissues,” Martin says, nodding. “This is what they used.”
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Juhoon and Martin’s relationship begins to collapse the moment it stops being uncomplicated.
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- Part 1 of undertow
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22 Jul 2026
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Martin closes his eyes and presses his tongue against Juhoon’s skin more firmly.
"You know," Juhoon murmurs, his voice rough, "I'm starting to feel like you're trying to eat me."
Martin's laughter escapes before he has time to organise it into something clever. "I think," he says, "if I ever did… I don't think you'd ever make it to my stomach."
"What?"
"My body would keep you somewhere higher up."
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21 Jul 2026
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Martin gets with three different guys to figure out what he actually wants.
With his roommate James trying to keep him sane, Martin spends his twenties learning how to love the hard way.
"You only care about this relationship when you’re writing about it." — Seonghyeon, the painful first love.
"We have a good thing going here. Don't ruin it by wanting to hold my hand where people can see us." — Keonho, the passionate, secret relationship.
"Why would I scream at you for being tired? You don't have to fight for my attention." — Juhoon, the peace and quiet.
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21 Jul 2026
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“Oookay. I guess I’ll come back another time-” Zanka grabbed his arm, hard. It felt like his wrist was cracking under the pressure, and he groaned. Feels good.
“Zanka, my guy, I didn’t think you were in the mood but-”
Zanka looked up at him blank-faced. “Kill me.”
What?
or: after Jabber saves Zanka from a suicide attempt, he tries some unusual ways of getting him back to normal.
Bookmarked by Suoulvr
19 Jul 2026