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    The AU where Phil stopped posting Youtube videos in the summer of 2009, before he ever knew who Dan was. Phil's life heads into a different direction that leads to the stable life he has at 35 years old. Phil is stuck in an unfulfilling relationship with a busy lawyer. Everything changes when Phil unknowingly inserts himself into a rookie lawyer, Dan Howell's, life. The wheels of fate that stopped moving in the summer of 2009 are in motion again and Phil sees what his life should have been like for all of these years.

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    21 Apr 2026

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    Chapter 21

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    This story follows 19-year-old Dan Howell as he is institutionalized following a suicide attempt, and 23-year-old Phil Lester, who is a psychology student coming to Mendley Sanatorium to study a patient (Dan) as a part of his PHD dissertation. The two boys have an instant connection. Between lying, mental health, and professional scrutiny, the two boys have to navigate their connection and the effects it has on their work, both together and individually. Dan is a tortured soul with scars as deep as the ocean, and Phil is a gentle soul with a soft spot for poets.

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    14 Apr 2026

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    Chapter 21

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    Phil stays quiet, his lips pressed together, until they’re all sat in their living room, Dan next to Phil on the sofa with far more space between them than they usually have, looking around helplessly.

    “Just what exactly do you remember?” he asks Dan.

    “Uh,” makes Dan. “I know my name is Dan. They told me.”

    Dan has a ski accident and loses his memory. Phil can't do anything but offer him a home - Dan finds that said home is quite obscure.

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    19 Jun 2026

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    He looks like he does on screen, black emo hair a little like a very attractive bird’s nest, with yellow-checkered cat ears on his head, but unmistakably Phil. Dan is shocked, genuinely, that not everyone here falls head over heels for this man immediately. Surely they must. Surely they’re just doing a better job than Dan is at keeping it in. Maybe he’s not gay, maybe this is just what Phil does to people.

    “Hi,” Phil says. “You’ve got nice whiskers.”

    Dan chose the safety of a girlfriend over Phil, and now he meets Phil in real life for the first time at a YouTuber meetup. And for the first time. And for the first time. And for the- It's a time loop fic.

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    29 Apr 2026

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    Chapter 11

  5. Public Bookmark 46

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    Phil has known so many versions of Dan across time, and he has loved them all in their own ways.

    But none of them was this one: his Dan, sprawled beside him in a Las Vegas hotel room two weeks after his twenty-first birthday, who is sharp and unsure and sometimes infuriating, who gives hickeys to his older self and then pretends it was nothing. This one, tonight, is the one Phil loves most of all.

    A canon-inspired time-travel AU featuring secrets, yearning, self-hatred, self-love, a three-way in Vegas, and Phil Lester's unwavering belief in the red string of fate.

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    07 May 2026

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    Chapter 7

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