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    Ilya Rozanov starts working at Hot Topic in the mall right across from Hollister, where Shane Hollander works as a "model".

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    12 Jun 2026

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    Shane Hollander is the sweet, loyal, quiet househusband omega. His beta husband can't get him pregnant, so he turns to a porn star for help. He discovers he likes a bit of real domination, especially on camera. Over time, their casual arrangement becomes more and more intimate, until they can't deny it any longer ...

    The smut is a vehicle for feels.

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    Fic basically complete but I'm aiming to upload chapters more or less daily. Not sure of final chapter count yet as it was written free-form and then I'm chopping it up.

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    11 Jun 2026

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    A world without marriage or sexuality labels, everyone is just waiting to shake hands with their soulmate. I put the canon in a blender and added a little recognition from elfquest. (Soul meets soul, when skin meets skin)
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    Then Rozanov leaned in and Shane felt his breath catch in his throat. They weren't touching but the proximity alone was enough to make Shane's whole nervous system sizzle.

    “Can’t you feel it?” Rozanov whispered, his voice rough with desire.

    “No,” Shane lied.

    “I ache to touch you,” Rozanov almost moaned. His voice was so soft and full of need. Shane could feel his own body respond to it. He knew exactly how Rozanov felt.

    But he didn’t want to feel this way about this man. It should have been someone else. Anyone else.

    “We are nothing,” Shane said. “Go away, Rozanov.” And then he got into his car and drove away. He didn’t look in the rear view mirror as he left because he did not want to see the look on Rozanov’s face.

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    11 Jun 2026

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    Ilya let out a quiet laugh, shaking his head. “I want to be perfect for you, Shane. To make up for all the time we lost.”

    “I don’t want perfect,” Shane said quietly, stroking Ilya’s cheek. “I want something real. Something that we fight to make work, because we want it so much. Because being together is so much fucking better than being without each other.”

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    Ten years ago, Shane and Ilya loved each other in secret and let each other go anyway.

    Now Shane, captain of the Ottawa Centaurs, is a single dad to four-year-old Ollie, and good at pretending he doesn’t think about the man he lost when they were younger and terrified of the fallout of being caught. Then one chance meeting turns into drinks, lingering looks, old feelings, and suddenly Ilya Rozanov is everywhere again.

    Some things, it turns out, never really leave you.

    As Shane and Ilya fall back into each other’s lives - and into something softer, steadier, and openly theirs this time — they realise maybe they’re finally ready for the life they used to dream about.

    Or: two hockey players who were each other’s first love reconnect ten years later and slowly build the family they always wanted.

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    11 Jun 2026

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    Shane Hollander is a university student trying his best. He is managing three jobs, two majors, and one sexuality crisis that threatens to upend his hockey career before it even starts. When his best friend, Rose, begs him to come with her to an exclusive BDSM club to let loose and experiment, Shane cannot believe it when he caves to her demands and agrees. Oh and it just so happens that unbeknownst to Shane the club is owned by a Russian mob boss. But really, what could go wrong?

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    Or the one where organized crime boss Ilya meets hockey-playing uni student Shane and big feelings and kinky shenanigans unfold

    Updates 2-3x per week <3

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    10 Jun 2026