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    “Are you– are you full though?”

    “I’ve taken the safe amount,” he says, which Dan understands means ‘no’. “Do you need anything else?” Phil adds, glancing at him. “Uhm– a shower maybe?”

    So he knows. Great.

    The only thing worse than coming in your pants like a pubescent school boy at the thought of being drained of every last drop of blood, is the guy who was sucking your blood to notice.

    Dan really needs some money to pay his rent. Phil really needs blood to survive. It's a pretty good deal, and Dan gets a lot more than he bargained for.

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    12 Jul 2026

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    When you watch a man shave his face in the morning, mutter to himself while he looks for his shoes, bang his shin into the coffee table for the second time in a week and cry out in irritation—how can you help but love him?

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    In a sense, Dan has known Phil all his life. Others have known him longer, known him since he took his first breath in front of a live television audience, but it seems to Dan that no one has known him better.

    or: phil’s life is a tv show, and he’s the only one who doesn’t know. dan—actor, fan, hot for a badly dressed bottle blond—auditions for a leading role. this goes about as well as dan howell + reality tv stardom could possibly go.

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    28 May 2026

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    oh my god they were flatmates / the fuckboy!phil au we all deserve

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    09 May 2026

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    There aren’t many fundamental truths to the universe that Dan recognizes, but this one he knows for certain: if things had been different, if they’d never met, Phil would have been fine without him. Dan most certainly wouldn’t have been. It doesn’t mean anything. It’s just a fact, like the sky being blue, or London being perpetually bleak.

    Phil isn’t fine. Dan feels a bit like his whole world has pitched sideways. The worst part is Phil hasn’t seemed to notice.

    (Phil versus therapy. Or, more accurately, Dan versus Phil versus therapy.)

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    26 Apr 2026

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    October, 2009: Dan is meeting Phil for the first time tomorrow. He just has to get through this night.

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    “The precious desire burning deep in Dan's gut is intoxicating and he should be so much more scared than he is. He’s still plenty terrified, but maybe just this once he can allow his heart to want this. He’ll pick up the shattered pieces later.”

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    formidable: (adj.) causing you to have fear or respect for something or someone because that thing or person is large, powerful, or difficult

    (title and inspiration from Formidable by twenty one pilots)

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    20 Apr 2026