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    A/U : A world where Hollanov breakup before they even get together

     

    There is no version of "them" that survives the real world. Shane has convinced himself of that. He’s traded the possibility of holding Ilya’s hand in a silent art gallery for the right to hoist a trophy in a screaming arena. He sees the end coming even if Ilya doesn't, so he steps up to be the villain the one to call timeout on their impossible fantasy. But looking at the wreckage in Ilya’s expression as he says the words, Shane realizes he hasn't saved them from anything. He’s just destroyed the only thing that mattered.

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    09 Jul 2026

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    In a world where pressure, fame, and the ice leave no room for mistakes, the choices made off the rink can change everything.

    Just one month after the Cottage, Shane Hollander is trying to hold together the life he built, caught between family expectations, public scrutiny, and a relationship that has survived for years in silence. In Ottawa, Ilya Rozanov faces a new beginning of his own, carrying the weight of being one of the league's best players—and feelings he has never learned to name.

    Just right there, a Brazilian young guy arrives: young, magnetic, and impossible to ignore. The rookie doesn't just challenge the game—he unsettles the fragile balance around him.

    Behind his talent and confidence lies a past shaped by pressure and choices that were never entirely his. As boundaries begin to blur, the lines between friendship, loyalty, and desire slowly disappear. Because the deepest wounds are rarely left on the ice. And not everyone is ready for what it costs to lose.

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    08 Jul 2026

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    Shane Hollander has every aspect of his life under control: his diet, his training, his sexuality.

    But when he’s forced to share a room with his rival for the number one draft pick, Ilya Rozanov, he begins to question every rule he thought he had perfected.

    Including the one where he would never want a man. Or worse, Ilya Rozanov.

     ——

    Or: one year of college changes the trajectory of Shane Hollander’s life.

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    08 Jul 2026

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    After hearing Ilya break down in Russian, Shane flies to Vienna because he doesn't know what else to do.

    Ilya spends six days trying to figure out what that's supposed to mean.

    There are several thousand kilometres between them, one shared location pin, and two men who keep saying "I love you" in ways the other can't decode.

     


    Playlist and pictures to all relevant (and irrelevant ;) ) places in Chapter 5 — now completely spoiler proofed!

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    08 Jul 2026

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    “I didn’t come out today because I owe anyone an explanation. I came out because I refuse to let the man I love stand alone while the world decides his worth. We've spent years hiding and even denying our feelings for one another because we were afraid of what people would say. We thought we were protecting each other. That ends today. I’m done caring about anyone except me and him.”

    *******

    A leaked photo leaves Ilya exposed, and the league wastes no time deciding what to do with him.

    Ilya is willing to lose everything if it means Shane gets to keep his career.

    Shane takes exactly one look at the world trying to shame the man he loves and decides that if Ilya's name is going to be in every headline, his will be too.

    The only thing more dangerous than outing Ilya is giving Shane a reason to fight.

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    06 Jul 2026

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    It’s not going viral because Jane’s true identity was exposed—or even because Ilya was blatantly sexting in public. That part’s as expected as Shane doing yoga or any human being on earth breathing.

    No, the texts are going viral because no one can believe how bad this “Jane” is at sexting.

    The women of the world are outraged. The men of the world are baffled. No one can understand why Ilya Rozanov, whose abs have their own fan club, is wasting his time on ‘a piece of cardboard that wished to be turned into a real girl’ (this particular joke has 300k likes and counting).

    Or: After a social media trend mocks Shane's sexting skills, he tries to improve them. It goes about as poorly as you'd expect.

    Now available in Russian

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    06 Jul 2026

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    Shane and Ilya haven’t spoken to each other since they broke up over a misunderstanding at the 2017 All-Stars game. Ilya was traded from Boston to LA and they both tried to move on. But, in December of 2019, when Ilya ends up on injury reserve, he decides to make an unannounced trip to Montreal. He could have never foreseen the global pandemic just around the corner of that decision, and as the world crumbles around them, they find themselves isolated at the cottage for the longest offseason of their lives.

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    What happens when the systems you have carefully built to keep yourself hidden and emotionally regulated are no longer available to you? What happens when the identity you built your life around becomes the thing you must let go of? What happens when isolation exposes the truth about yourself and everyone around you and there’s nowhere else to hide? What does Shane do then? What does Ilya do then? What ripples does that create beyond their relationship? What shape does their life become when honesty is no longer optional?

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    05 Jul 2026

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    No matter the trope.
    No matter the universe.
    No matter the setup.
    They find each other.

    “Great, I just need some info from you.” Shane flipped to a new page in the order book and pulled out his favorite pen. “What’s your name?”

    The man tilted his head, smiling almost indulgently at him. Shane waited patiently, then smiled awkwardly when there was no name forthcoming. “You don’t know?” the man said.

    “Your name? No, I don’t– sorry, have we met before?” Shane asked, suddenly embarrassed. He didn't remember seeing this man in the shop before. Oh god, had they gone on a date and he forgot? It had been awhile since he went out with anyone, so it must have been quite a long time ago if that was the case. But Shane was sure he would remember someone who looked and sounded like that.

    The man’s smile widened. “I must just have one of those faces,” he said. “My name is Ilya.”

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    05 Jul 2026

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    Shane Hollander was traded to the Ottawa Centaurs without ever being outed. His relationship with Ilya Rozanov is still a secret to most people.
    Everything was going just fine, until they both get added to the Centaurs WAGs group chat.

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    Chapters:
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    05 Jul 2026

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    They lie in silence for a few moments, the only sound being the steady and slow beating of Shane’s heart on the monitor. He’s perfectly content to just bask in Ilya’s presence and form until the doctor comes back, but eventually, he can feel Ilya staring at him. So he opens his eyes and sees an expectant look on his husband’s face. 

    “What?” Shane questions.

    “Are we going to talk about it?”

    Shane’s brows draw down in confusion. “Talk about what?”

    A mischievous grin splits Ilya’s face. “That I am your emergency contact.”

    “Oh, my god,” Shane groans. “You are not going to make this a thing. It’s not a big deal.”

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    Or, hockey injuries are temporary. But having Ilya Rozanov as your emergency contact is forever.

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    04 Jul 2026

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    He figures Ilya would be pretty surprised if he showed up to his house out of the blue. Surprised enough to be put off, probably. Shane is way too bad of a liar to think of any plausible excuse. If this is really happening, if Shane is actually by some miracle getting another shot at this, then he’s going to have to play this smart. His impatience to see Ilya again will have to be tempered. He’s not sure how time travel works, but he has the sneaking suspicion that one wrong move could unravel everything.

    Ilya is alive.

    Just the thought of it is enough to make Shane crack his first smile in a year.

    --

    AU in which Ilya dies in the Centaurs' plane crash. A year later, careless with grief, Shane drives his car into a blizzard and wakes up in Boston, in 2016. When faced with the opportunity to do it right this time, and keep Ilya for good, Shane knows that every decision he makes will be crucial. It's terrifying, but Ilya once told him that he's brave. Now it's up to Shane to prove it.

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    04 Jul 2026

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    "Ilya Rozanov is not playing for Boston anymore, and he's not your boyfriend." Now, that was cruel. Ilya didn't approve.
    Shane's shoulders slumped. "He's not?" He murmured, bottom lip sticking out in a pout. The defenseman just earned himself a few penalty rounds for the next training. Ilya hadn't decided how much, yet. A lot, probably.
    "No," Dykstra shrugged, like it wasn't a big deal at all. "He's actually your husband."
    "My husband?" Shane's jaw dropped at the same time as his eyes went wide; like he'd missed his own wedding or something.

    or, in which the Ottawa Centaurs win the Stanley Cup, Shane Hollander gets wasted, and Ilya Rozanov is reminded how much he's in love.

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    03 Jul 2026

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    shane gets outed by a sports news paper reporter. what will happen, how will people take it, how will he take it.

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    30 Jun 2026

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    "We have newest member of the team with us today, as you all have seen.”

    Shane glanced up again, watching as the captain gestured vaguely toward Shane without looking at him. “Shane Hollander.” The name came out of his mouth like it was laced with poison.

    Shane became very aware of many eyes turning to him now. He felt a few claps on the back and tried to force a tight smile. But his eyes wandered back up to Ilya Rozanov, who was looking at him with so much quiet contempt, that Shane started to understand the phrase ‘if looks could kill.’
     

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    OR: Ilya spirals into a deep depression when Shane breaks things off with him definitively after a horrifying run in with their feelings (and tuna melts).

    They go no contact for close to a year until Shane is unexpectedly traded to Boston the following season.

    Shane finds his new captain is a version of Ilya he's never seen before: dark, icy, and distant.

    But their newfound proximity mixed with old feelings creates a complicated dynamic that they can't ignore forever.

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    30 Jun 2026

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    The first sound Ilya hears is a thin, discordant symphony of beeps and whirs. Something vibrating. 

    The next thing he hears is…wet. A sort of shaking, gargling sound, that feels like the ugliest crying he’s ever heard. And through it, Shane’s voice. 

    “I’m with him now, mom. He’s— he’s not fine. He’s not. I know—”

    Ilya wants to ask who's not fine, but he can’t feel his own body, his mouth, enough to ask.

    “Yeah,” Shane is saying, only slightly calmer. “I know. He wasn’t breathing—"

    Ilya knows there's a link, between the clinical musicality of medical settings, Shane’s audible, awful distress, and his own physical incapacity. It’s just, it’s so tenuous, and the air around him is so thick, so heavy. It would be easy, to sleep, a little. 

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    Footage of the last game between Ottawa and Montreal is everywhere; it’s breached containment from the sports world, and now it seems like everyone is baying for Montreal’s blood. Except, Ilya is oblivious. Not exactly blissfully so, but as the fight for accountability within the league rages on without him, Ilya just wants someone, anyone, to tell him what happened.

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    29 Jun 2026

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    Shane Hollander works at a coffee shop, plays hockey, keeps his head down, and doesn’t ask questions he doesn’t need the answers to.

    So when a new regular starts showing up—quiet, watchful, Russian-accented, and conducting invitation-only meetings in the back—Shane notices. When that same man takes an unsettling interest in Shane’s closing shifts, his routines, and his safety, Shane does what feels sensible: he adjusts his behavior and keeps his mouth shut.

    Ilya Rozanov orders an Americano. He reads, but only in Russian. He worries when people work late alone.

    They are operating with very different definitions of danger.

    If he didn’t ask questions, he couldn’t be lied to.

    The rules were simple.

    1. Do not ask questions you don’t need the answer to.
    2. Do not share personal information freely.
    3. Do not be alone with Ilya Rozanov.
    4. Do not give him a reason to think you’re afraid.

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    Chapters:
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    29 Jun 2026

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    After the Tuna Melt Incident, Shane and Ilya gradually started drifting apart. Texts became more scarce, hook-ups less frequent and feelings pushed aside until, in the moment of absolute panic, Shane ghosted Ilya fully.

    Now, three years later, Shane Hollander and Rose Landry are engaged. Shane's life finally seems to be going in the right direction. No distractions, great girl, lots of hockey.

    And then the new season starts and trades between teams happen.
    And Ilya Rozanov, whom Shane promised himself to forget, is suddenly on the same team.
    And, worst of all, he becomes the Alternate Captain.

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    28 Jun 2026

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    Based on a tumblr post from @notahungrywish, ending with:

    Just Shane casually assuming he'll always have to share and never be enough for Ilya and Ilya horrified to realize just how resigned Shane is to assuming Ilya will never be satisfied with him the way Shane is with Ilya.

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    27 Jun 2026

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    Shane Hollander is on vacation.

    This is, objectively, a great idea. There is sun. There is a private villa. There is Luca, who fits into Shane’s life with the ease of something long-established. Brotherly, familiar, and currently eyeing the entire resort like it’s a personal challenge.

    There is also Ilya Rozanov.

    This was not mentioned. This was not in the plan.

    It’s fine. They’re fine. They’ve always been fine. Years later, different lives, perfectly capable of sharing a beach, a drink, and conversation that slips a little too easily into something familiar.

    Fine enough not to think about it.

    Around them, things stay uncomplicated. Luca is already making decisions Shane will have to deal with later. Marley is encouraging him. Svetlana is watching like she already knows how this ends.

    And Shane, who is absolutely, completely fine, starts to realize something mildly inconvenient:

    nothing else ever really measured up.

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    27 Jun 2026

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    Remember when Hayden Pike punches Ilya after Shane said not to, right before the announcement of the Irina Foundation? Remember that that was the second time Hayden laid his hands on Ilya in the first month of knowing him?

    Or, Shane gets rightfully fed up after the first month of Hayden's behavior towards Ilya. Punching Ilya was the final straw, so he tells Hayden to pretend he never found out. It sets off a chain of events landing him, happily, in Ottawa a year earlier and with a better support system for both him and Ilya.

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    2,081
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    148,530

    27 Jun 2026

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