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    Ilya Rozanov wakes up from a medically induced coma, sixteen months into a mission to save the dying sun, and he can't remember a single one of his crewmates.

    He's immediately drawn to one of them, though. Too bad Hollander won't give him the time of day.

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    02 Jul 2026

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    Shane sees his ex at a cafe and texts what he thinks it’s a dud number to look busy, little does he know it belongs to Ilya. Shane uses the thread to use as a reminder for stuff he has to do. Ilya enjoys reading what this mysterious man does until he gets a text at 3am.

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    30 Jun 2026

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    Ilya was standing in the tunnel to his right; he was quiet now, eyes glued to one place. Shane looked over, watching as Marleau wrapped his arms around Rozanov from behind. Watched the way Ilya’s body slowly lowered to the ground as a guttural cry tore out of his mouth.

    OR

    You're really going to have to trust me on this one.

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    10/10
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    28 Jun 2026

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    Remember when Hayden Pike punches Ilya after Shane said not to, right before the announcement of the Irina Foundation? Remember that that was the second time Hayden laid his hands on Ilya in the first month of knowing him?

    Or, Shane gets rightfully fed up after the first month of Hayden's behavior towards Ilya. Punching Ilya was the final straw, so he tells Hayden to pretend he never found out. It sets off a chain of events landing him, happily, in Ottawa a year earlier and with a better support system for both him and Ilya.

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    Chapters:
    18/18
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    28 Jun 2026

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    “Can’t hang out tonight, Hayd. I have plans.”

    “Bullshit,” Hayden responds. “You never have plans.”

    Objectively, this used to be true. Nowadays Shane has many, many plans, between his nightly plans to look at Ilya’s penis through Skype and his various long-term plans laid out helpfully in his notebook, Canva (For Ilya’s sake. He is a visual learner), and more recently, Excel. Shane loves that excel sheet. He’s colour coded it.

     

    In 2017, Shane Hollander spirals and proposes to his boyfriend of 4 days (or 7 years, or 9 years, or not his boyfriend at all, depending on how you look at it), which leads to a lot of plans, weird theories in the Montreal Voyageur locker room, some Twitter drama, and Ilya Rozanov entering his WAG era.

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    Chapters:
    8/8
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    28 Jun 2026

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    In Vegas, after they’d said everything right up to the edge of I love you, Shane and Ilya came up with a plan. It was long term, with many, many steps. There might be a spreadsheet somewhere that Shane won’t admit to.

    But it’s a plan, nonetheless. Over the summer of 2014, they tweak it and add things important to the both of them. There are even many, extensive, contingency plans.

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    Thanks to Shane's small lie the first time they hooked up, Shane and Ilya are together years earlier. Now, they have to figure out what to do about it.

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    Chapters:
    14/14
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    28 Jun 2026

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    Ilya let out a quiet laugh, shaking his head. “I want to be perfect for you, Shane. To make up for all the time we lost.”

    “I don’t want perfect,” Shane said quietly, stroking Ilya’s cheek. “I want something real. Something that we fight to make work, because we want it so much. Because being together is so much fucking better than being without each other.”

    ***

    Ten years ago, Shane and Ilya loved each other in secret and let each other go anyway.

    Now Shane, captain of the Ottawa Centaurs, is a single dad to four-year-old Ollie, and good at pretending he doesn’t think about the man he lost when they were younger and terrified of the fallout of being caught. Then one chance meeting turns into drinks, lingering looks, old feelings, and suddenly Ilya Rozanov is everywhere again.

    Some things, it turns out, never really leave you.

    As Shane and Ilya fall back into each other’s lives - and into something softer, steadier, and openly theirs this time — they realise maybe they’re finally ready for the life they used to dream about.

    Or: two hockey players who were each other’s first love reconnect ten years later and slowly build the family they always wanted.

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    Chapters:
    16/16
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    28 Jun 2026

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    Based on a tumblr post from @notahungrywish, ending with:

    Just Shane casually assuming he'll always have to share and never be enough for Ilya and Ilya horrified to realize just how resigned Shane is to assuming Ilya will never be satisfied with him the way Shane is with Ilya.

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    28 Jun 2026

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    I think I will run until I am too exhausted to panic. Then, and only then, will I go to the hotel. I’ll tell Hayden I was working out, overdid it a bit, then shower and go to sleep. I’ll delete Il–Rozanov’s–number, find a nice girl to date…It will be fine. It will be just. Fucking. Fine.

    That’s the last thought I have before I feel a flash of pain, and then darkness.

    ——————————

    Or: After running away from tuna melts and an uncomfortable level of vulnerability, Shane is hit by a car. A targeted hit-and-run by a Boston fan leaves Ilya alone to face the prospect of coming out to their teams, the MLH, and Shane’s family.

    Ilya will do anything to be by Shane’s bedside.

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    27 Jun 2026

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    After Ilya Rozanov returns from attending his father's funeral in Russia, Shane Hollander is in his living room.

    Or

    What if Ilya and Shane get to have a soft launch of being boyfriends more on their own terms?

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    27 Jun 2026

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    “I think we need a plan.”

    “I thought we have a plan?” Ilya asked, gruffly, his brow furrowing in confusion.

    “I just mean…” Shane’s face was serious; his eyes were doing that puppy-dog thing that Ilya couldn’t resist, where they looked earnest and soft and serious all at once. "What if we didn’t wait to come out? Rather than waiting until we retire. Maybe, I don’t know, stopped hiding quite so much and just… let people figure it out, eventually.”


    Changing the Narrative, or; Hollander and Rozanov's Guide to a Gentle Take-Off

    Shane and Ilya are done hiding. Coming out, however, is another story. Between family, friends, fans, teammates, and a league still grappling with inclusivity, changing the narrative might just prove more complicated than they expected.

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    26 Jun 2026

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    Shane knows the plan to wait to come out until they retire isn't ideal, but he doesn't have a better one. He thinks that he and Ilya can make it work, until his mom points out how long they will have to live their lives in the shadows.

    But once he realizes that, he immediately knows that he can't come out. It would ruin his legacy.

    He's pretty sure that's why he doesn't want to come out. No other reason. Right?

    He is sure that's all it is until Ilya asks him if he would be safe if he came out. And he can't answer.

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    or Yuna does the math on the retirement plan and when she points this out it opens Shane's eyes.

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    also known as this author had (1) idea for a scene and had to reverse engineer a multi-chapter fic to make it happen.

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    Chapters:
    14/14
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    1,125
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    26 Jun 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov boards a plane putting more distance between him and his father and the pressure of life in Russia.

    Shane Hollander boards the same plane with a carefully planned routine and excitement over a break from his sometimes overbearing, but always loving Mother.

    Somewhere between Toronto and Vancouver they discover they have a lot in common and become friends.

    They were supposed to be rivals. They were not supposed to fall for each other. Too bad nobody told them that.

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    Chapters:
    54/54
    Comments:
    333
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    1,085
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    38,234

    26 Jun 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov has been drafted by Boston, the number one pick overall, but his father doesn't want him moving to America and so takes steps to block his visa. He's going to have to go back to Russia and stay there forever and that, thinks Shane Hollander, is wrong.

    It's so wrong that Shane can't stop himself from doing something about it. Even though that something is the most reckless, the only reckless thing he's ever done in his life. He marries Rozanov in secret, to keep him out of Russia and put him on a path to Canadian citizenship.

    Shane's got a five-year plan to get him there and when you have a plan nothing can go wrong. Right? Right. When you have a solid plan and a marriage that's on paper only there's no risk of feelings getting involved. Not on Rozanov's part and certainly not on Shane's.

    Right???

    (or, the story of how Shane Hollander fell in love with his own husband)

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    Chapters:
    22/22
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    805,680

    25 Jun 2026

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    Tumblr keeps deleting these so I'm posting them here for now.

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    18 Jun 2026

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    When Ilya asked for something inexpensive for his birthday, he expected flowers and cake. Maybe a self-made card.

    He did not expect 365 emails. Or rather, the promise of them.

    Ilya is promised that for the next 364 days, he will receive an email every morning, each containing a song that reminds Shane of their seventeen years together—from first meetings and first fights to weddings, championships, and everything in between.

    A year of music. A year of memories. A year of Shane loving him as intensely as ever.

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    Comments:
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    11,488

    18 Jun 2026

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    Ilya enlist Bood to plan a barbecue to announce a new secret member of the Centaurs.
    This follows the week leading up to this barbecue.

    Or as i like to call it Ilya just wants to cause chaos by not telling anyone

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    Chapters:
    13/13
    Comments:
    253
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    32,948

    18 Jun 2026

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    It took a moment for Ilya’s brain to catch up.

    “My father knows about me and Shane?”

    “The whole world knows about you and Shane! Did you not hear me?”

    Or: Shane's phone is stolen in Sochi. They're outed and and have to go on the run together to get out of Russia before being caught by the Russian authorities.

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    Chapters:
    4/5
    Comments:
    344
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    38,547

    18 Jun 2026

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    When Ilya begins spiraling through depression and mania, the carefully controlled story of Shane and Ilya's "friendship" starts to fall apart. As Ilya's mental health worsens, Shane and the community around them struggles to keep him safe. What follows is a public breakdown, a disappearance, world shattering news, and the crumbling of a public image. Can they navigate not only the depression and escalating mania, but most importantly everything that comes after?

    or: A story on how mental illness during depression, mania, treatment, and recovery effects Ilya's life and everyone around him.

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    61,641
    Chapters:
    9/11
    Comments:
    127
    Kudos:
    351
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    171
    Hits:
    11,699

    18 Jun 2026

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    Shane leaves that Vegas penthouse suite feeling wretched, and like an idiot, and like he never wants to see Ilya Rozanov again.

    Except, well. Then there are zombies.

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    95,670
    Chapters:
    3/3
    Comments:
    2,828
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    9,382
    Bookmarks:
    4,349
    Hits:
    146,226

    17 Jun 2026

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