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    “Ilya, what are we gonna do?” Shane says.

    Ilya finishes whatever he has been doing on his phone, and tosses it gently to the bed beside him. He crosses the room to Shane, stands in front of him, squeezes into his shoulders with his big hands, rubbing them like he means to warm them up.

    “Looks like we will have a little vacation,” he says, with a big obnoxious grin.

     


     

    Boston and Montreal are sent to Paris to play against each other in an exhibition series in January 2017. Ilya and Shane decide to stay in Paris for one more night. Just one more night, so they can talk. Maybe finally understand each other.

    They aren't expecting a volcano to erupt in Iceland and close all the airspace in Europe, leaving them stranded there. Together.

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    01 Jul 2026

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    There were things about Shane Hollander that existed only in the dark, and those things were most of him.

    or; a moment of vulnerability at a team gathering turns into a viral scandal overnight when a video of Shane coming out is leaked to the press.

    Suddenly, everyone is watching. Everyone is talking. Everyone is judging.

    It all goes to hell—until maybe it doesn't.

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    29 Jun 2026

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    “Is just the new routine, okay?” Ilya pleaded, his voice breaking. “The pills were working and now there is more stress so I just need to get used to it and will be fixed, okay?”

    “How bad is it?”

    “Shane, please.”

    “Ilya, you promised no more secrets, no more hiding. How bad?”

    He covered his face in his palms, his elbows resting on his knees, and took in a shuddered breath. “...bad.”

     

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    After Ilya Rozanov and Shane Hollander get married, Ilya discovers that his depression won't magically disappear just because he finally has love and a real family. He gets to live and work with Shane full time now that they are on the Centaurs, but it's becomingly increasingly difficult to hide his deteriorating mental health from his husband. He's haunted by dreams of his mother and the fear that his depression and the hockey world's eruption about their relationship is ruining Shane's life. He has to swallow his pride and begin taking SSRIs, navigate the side effects of medicating his depression, and learn to accept love and support from those he loves most. Will the shame eat him alive or can he finally learn that he's worthy of love even at his lowest?

     

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    29 Jun 2026

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    The boys weekend at the cottage is supposed to mend whatever's left of Shane, Hayden, and JJ's friendship after Shane's move to Ottawa. After constant jabs towards his relationship and the love of his life lead Shane to a panic attack, Hayden is left to deal with the fact that Ilya is a better husband than he thought. And maybe, a better friend than he is.

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    21 Jun 2026

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    Shane didn’t go back to Montreal after the Boxing Day fight.  Instead, he has a panic attack, a revelation, and ends up causing some panic amongst his loved ones.

    Or Shane and Ilya deal with their issues before the plane incident, and how that changes The Long Game.

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    10/?
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    21 Jun 2026

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    Remember when Hayden Pike punches Ilya after Shane said not to, right before the announcement of the Irina Foundation? Remember that that was the second time Hayden laid his hands on Ilya in the first month of knowing him?

    Or, Shane gets rightfully fed up after the first month of Hayden's behavior towards Ilya. Punching Ilya was the final straw, so he tells Hayden to pretend he never found out. It sets off a chain of events landing him, happily, in Ottawa a year earlier and with a better support system for both him and Ilya.

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    21 Jun 2026

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    Jackie Pike can never ever EVER tell her husband that her celebrity crush is his best friend's rival, the Boston Bears' Ilya Rozanov, especially not after Hayden finds out that Shane has been secretly dating him.

    Ilya Rozanov picks up on a vibe when he meets Pike's hot wife and, pansexual king and creative sexual thinker that he is, can and will use this information to his advantage. On a rare night together without the Pike children, Ilya decides to goad Jackie into admitting her little crush in front of both of their husbands or die trying.

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    18 Jun 2026

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    '“I need you to hear me. This is not your fault. You did nothing wrong. This is very scary, but you are brave and strong, and I love you. Please let me take care of you now.”

    Shane’s freckles crumpled in anguish and he fell forward into Ilya’s chest, his arms dangling loosely at his sides as Ilya clutched him tightly.

    Nothing was more beautiful than watching Shane’s freckles crinkle in laughter. But that night, Dallas fucking Kent had caused those beautiful freckles to bare Shane’s pain. Ilya silently added that memory to a growing list of reasons to end Dallas fucking Kent.'

    OR, Dallas Kent attacks Shane and attempts to sexually assault him. Ilya helps get Shane to safety while Shane struggles to cope.

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    13 Jun 2026

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    Ilya refuses to cancel dinner with Shane's parents, terrified that showing weakness will make them think he is lazy, broken, or a disappointment. But when a severe depressive episode causes his hands to shake, he accidentally drops a crystal water glass.

    The sound of the shattering glass triggers a violent childhood trauma, sending Ilya into a full-blown, terrifying panic attack on the dining room floor as he frantically tries to clean up the mess before he gets hit.

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    05 Jun 2026

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    The sports world is on fire. A leaked, heavily redacted copy of the Raiders' joke "truce" letter to Montreal, paired with photos of their drunken night of bonding out at a club, has the entire public convinced that the Montreal-Boston playoff series is a multi-million-dollar fraud — and that Ilya and Shane are two of the masterminds behind it.

    Ilya doesn’t give a shit about the headlines. He doesn’t care about the media circus swarming his hotel lobby, or the strict coach-mandated lockdown confining him to his room. All he knows is Shane is across town spiraling, and he's not with him.

    Good thing Cliff Marleau is willing to do whatever it takes to help his best friend get to his man.

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    05 Jun 2026

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    Scott Hunter is right next door! They can’t fuck! But what if Ilya begs and begs: Just the tip, I promise.

    They have no lube and no condoms, it’s risky. They should not be doing this.

    But then why is it so hot?

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    04 Jun 2026

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    “Why the fuck do you care what happens to Rozanov?”

    Shane doesn’t answer.

    He’s already running for the Raiders’ locker room.

    ⎯⎯⎯

    Or, Ilya has a panic attack in the Raiders' locker room after getting a phone call from his brother telling him about his father’s death.

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    03 Jun 2026

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    As a straight man, Ilya Rozanov has never had a gay roommate before, but it’s going pretty well. Shane Hollander is kind, silly, and an even bigger hockey nut than Ilya.

    So when Shane starts bringing men over, and Ilya begins to want to bash their fucking heads in, Ilya comes to a startling conclusion: He must be homophobic.

    (He’s jealous.)

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    24 May 2026

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    For a moment, nothing happens. Then, about thirty seconds later, Ilya blinks once, then again, his expression tightening as confusion slowly takes over, trying to make sense of something that’s supposed to be impossible. Shane immediately knows that he’s freaking out.

    You’re freaking out right now, aren’t you? Please don’t freak out. Because if you freak out, then I’m going to freak out.

    “What the fuck?” Ilya yells, as he jerks back like he’s been burned, his hand ripping away from Shane’s ankle. His irises dart left to right crazily, locked in on Shane’s face as he searches for something. Shane stays silent. “What the fuck was that?”

    OR: Shane and Ilya develop telepathy while being in a situationship. It goes as well as you’d expect.

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    19 May 2026

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    Worried about how much of a sensitive ‘quick shot’ he is—and convinced he’s not satisfying Ilya enough—Shane turns to the internet for advice. He tries repeatedly to stave off his orgasms: squeezing himself, thinking about taxes, even telling a confused Ilya to slow down during sex. It’s inevitable, though, that he still ends up coming helplessly all over himself.

    He eventually has to explain his insecurity to Ilya who condescendingly agrees with him and indulges Shane by:

    1. Making him wear a cock ring, and
    2. Letting a determined Shane control the pace—cooing at him while he slowly rides him—and later mocking him for still having no self control as he rams up into him

    Shane thinks he cums too fast. Ilya knows he can make it faster.

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    17 May 2026

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    “I turned the other cheek every fucking time. I still got tossed on my ass the second I went too far over the line, and threatened by the commissioner, and told to kill myself on just about every social media platform because my nightmare that I’d get outed came true. And you, after everything you did, got to come out to a supportive team and fans, get a slap on the wrist, and have your happy fucking ending.”

    Or:

    An exploration of Shane Hollander's struggle against racism and homophobia in hockey, and how others come to understand it

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    09 May 2026

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    The first sound Ilya hears is a thin, discordant symphony of beeps and whirs. Something vibrating. 

    The next thing he hears is…wet. A sort of shaking, gargling sound, that feels like the ugliest crying he’s ever heard. And through it, Shane’s voice. 

    “I’m with him now, mom. He’s— he’s not fine. He’s not. I know—”

    Ilya wants to ask who's not fine, but he can’t feel his own body, his mouth, enough to ask.

    “Yeah,” Shane is saying, only slightly calmer. “I know. He wasn’t breathing—"

    Ilya knows there's a link, between the clinical musicality of medical settings, Shane’s audible, awful distress, and his own physical incapacity. It’s just, it’s so tenuous, and the air around him is so thick, so heavy. It would be easy, to sleep, a little. 

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    Footage of the last game between Ottawa and Montreal is everywhere; it’s breached containment from the sports world, and now it seems like everyone is baying for Montreal’s blood. Except, Ilya is oblivious. Not exactly blissfully so, but as the fight for accountability within the league rages on without him, Ilya just wants someone, anyone, to tell him what happened.

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    154,242

    09 May 2026

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    After Vegas, Shane decided that to get over Rozanov, he needed to get under someone new. That decision ends up costing him more than he could have ever known.

    After Vegas, Ilya decided that getting over Hollander was a useless task, and saying fuck it and jumping all in was the way to go. That decision ends up costing him more than he could have ever known.

     

    NOTE: None of the Rape/Non-Con is between Shane & Ilya

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    Chapters:
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    Comments:
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    58,196

    08 May 2026

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    “I did something stupid,” Shane confesses, inhaling rapidly. He's still crying, still frozen in the doorway, besides his hitching chest and watering eyes. Hayden's never seen him like this, overtaken with emotion, bitter exhaustion in his voice. He makes a soft choked noise, and Hayden immediately wants to kill something, whatever it is that's making him feel so awful. “I—Hayds—you're gonna hate me—”

    “No,” Hayden says before he can even finish the thought, almost hurt by the accusation. “No way. You're—I wouldn't. I won't.”

    Shane sniffs, offering him a sad smile, his eyes watery and solemn. It's an unfamiliar look, burnt through with sorrow and twisting doubt, sharp worry in the furrow of his brow. “You are,” he says, soft and certain. “I do, and I'm the one who's doing it.”

    OR: Shane returns to the hotel room, post-tuna melt. Hayden spirals.

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    Chapters:
    4/6
    Collections:
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    127,843

    08 May 2026

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    “How can Montreal be snowed in?” Ilya asks. “They are not ready for winter?”

    “It’s Montreal, man,” Marleau snickers, like that's an explanation.

    Jane- 9:44 a.m.- Look on the bright side. If you’re stuck another day, you can come back here.

    ________

    After Ilya leaves Shane’s apartment for the first time, he knows he’s on thin ice and at risk of falling into more serious feelings. He’s ready to put distance back between them.

    A Montreal blizzard has other ideas.

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    Chapters:
    28/?
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    908,062

    07 May 2026

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