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    Shane meets Ilya in Tampa for closure – he knows he’s gay now, and also knows he wants something serious, committed, reliable. He’s ready to end things neatly and conclusively. Ilya is going to have to accept that.

    ... Ilya takes this about as well as you would expect.

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    09 Jul 2026

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    Everyone in the NHL wants Shane Hollander. Maybe that should make Ilya feel proud, accomplished, even. Because he's the only one who has ever really had him. The only one who will.
    But really, it only seems to piss him off. Make him possessive.
    Shane kind of likes that.

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    05 Jul 2026

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    “N’drew? Are you there?” Neil’s voice came out slurred and weak and Andrew immediately felt himself stiffen and go on alert. Because it was 10pm. And Neil didn’t drink. And Neil didn’t party.

    “I’m here,” Andrew said instantly. Something felt wrong. Something was wrong.

    Neil’s breathing was labored on the other end of the line and his words came out slow and stilted as he spoke, “I’m- Something’s wrong with me. Can you pick me up?”

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    05 Jul 2026

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    So, it wasn’t that Ilya was here. That wasn’t what had caught David off guard when he’d opened the door. It wasn’t even that Shane wasn’t with him — he was staying the night in Montreal, where many of his connections were still based, and something in the back of David’s mind had been expecting a visit because of that — or that he’d knocked instead of letting himself in with a yell as he usually did.

    It was something subtler. His demeanour. David couldn’t place it immediately, but Ilya almost seemed… awkward.

    As a father with a lot of experience in these sorts of things, David’s instincts told him immediately that something wasn’t quite right.

    Or, when Ilya's scared to be alone and Shane's out of town, he ends up at the Hollander residence. Featuring Ilya & David fluff.

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    05 Jul 2026

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    TL;DR: It's like Friends meets Almost Famous with HR incidents and better oatmeal continuity.

    Shane Hollander is a freelance concert photographer with a day job at a camera shop, a bank account in active distress, and a long-standing professional fixation on Ilya Rozanov, front man of the Russian rock band Rozanov. Professional. Definitely professional.

    For years, Shane has shot Ilya from the pit: first three songs, no flash, get the shot, get out. Then Rozanov’s lead guitarist gets arrested at the border, the tour starts rearranging itself around disaster, and Shane finds himself getting closer to the machine than any photographer is supposed to get.

    A photo pass becomes a backstage pass. A backstage pass becomes a job. Access becomes proximity.

    And proximity, unfortunately, has consequences.

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    05 Jul 2026